I Love Destroying Worlds' Plot

Chapter 1234: 18.72 First Grey Star - Mo Xuejing and Chaos

Following his grandfather into the mansion, Mo Xuejing was closely followed by the rest of the group. Heavenly Guardian Mo Xinyue had been waiting for them since he heard that Stan was expected in the capital. After all, if Ye Jieye was coming, his grandson, Mo Xuejing, was bound to follow.

Heavenly Guardian Mo Xinyue had prepared the Main Hall to receive this group because one was his clan heir and the other was a fellow Heavenly Guardian, so there could be no sign of disrespect. In addition, Mu Zang was known to be temperamental, so he could stop him if he left out of frustration or something. Worse, he might even bring his great-grandchildren with him.

Mu Zang looked around and saw how much effort Mo Xinyue had made just to welcome them.

”To think you would be welcoming us this way. You used to, despite my grandson, though. Hmp!”

”Come on, Old Mu. Donʼt be like this in front of the children,” Mo Xinyue said.

Heavenly Guardian Mu Zang pulled his two great-grandchildren away and, seeing the children staring at them, instantly became a pleasant grandfather, ignoring Mo Xinyue as usual.

Heavenly Guardian Mo Xinyue said, ”Ah! Wait! I want to see my great-grandchildren too!” He followed Mu Zang, who went to the garden to play with the cubs.

When the ancestor left, Mo Xuejing was left with no choice but prepare dinner at his grandfatherʼs instead. With Leicaʼs assistance, the guest rooms were also ready for the feast. Recalling his dreams, Mo Xuejing thought about the man whose appearance resembled the pictures he saw in the mansion in that small world, where he could enter whenever he pleased.

{Donʼt meet that other self of yours.}

He had dreamed of these phrases several times before arriving in the capital. Mo Xuejing was unable to understand any of them, yet he still felt compelled to meet this man named Chaos in order to regain his body and his memories.

After making sure that all preparation for dinner was done, Mo Xuejing left the rest to Leica and Doctor Guang to oversee.

Mo Xuejing said, ”You two can handle the rest, donʼt you?”

”Please leave it to us,” Leica said politely, as always.

Doctor Guang asked, ”Are you going somewhere? Donʼt tell me you are going to meet that one who took over your body. Donʼt do it! At least wait for Lord Ye to go with you!”

”I can handle him on my own. I want to meet that person before AʼYe comes back,” Mo Xuejing stated as if he had made the greatest decision of his life.

Having watched Mo Xuejing and this unusual soul fragment, full of innocence and pure heart, Leica concluded that this was a part of Lord Hei when he was still a pure soul, perhaps the version of Lord Hei that no one knew. Mo Xuejing is the total opposite of Lord Hei, whom he knows.

”My lord, a word.”

”What is it, Leica?” Mo Xuejing asked.

”I wonder if the Lord has already accepted the possible changes that might happen after meeting that esteemed person,” Leica asked.

After hearing from his husband that Leica is more of a subordinate than his, Mo Xuejing noticed that Leica, for some reason, treated him and that man, Chaos, as one person. He also saw the subtle difference between how Leica served Ye Jieye and how he did it with him. In between the two of them, he is Leicaʼs top priority, but for Lu Shang, it is Ye Jieye.

”Would you treat me differently if I changed in any way, Leica?” Mo Xuejing asked.

Leica said, ”I treat the Lord all the same way.”

”How about AʼYe and Lu Shang? Would they change if something in me changed?” Mo Xuejing asked.

”No, my lord. Shang will remain the same, and Lord Ye will love you regardless, as long as he is still you. The same goes for the young lord and the princess,” Leica stated.

Mo Xuejing grinned heartily at this reply; unlike Lord Hei, who only grinned at his man, his kids, and his family, Mo Xuejing was willing to smile at his subordinates, even Leica and Guang, showing that he was a mortal.

Mo Xuejing said, ”Then there is no problem, right?”

”But?”

”Iʼm okay with it, Leica. Either way, it is still me,” Mo Xuejing said as he took his leave, heading in the direction of the separate mansion where Chaos resides.

The mansion faces the main mansionʼs flower garden, even though it is situated on the edge of the Mo Clanʼs domain. On his way there, he noticed his children playing tag with two elderly men, Mu Zang and Mo Xinyue, who, despite their advanced age, appear to be having a great time.

While all of this was going on, Mo Xuejing was observing the modest residence, which, despite its simplicity, gave off an air of cleanliness; the courtyard even contained a single dried leaf drop, and the dust-free stone steps demonstrated how much the owner valued cleanliness.

In this mansion, Mo Xuejing found only one presence, and he knew instantly that this was the man he wanted to meet. He went inside the mansion and proceeded to the room where the man was.

Standing in front of the door leading to the study room, he contemplated whether to enter at once or knock properly on the door when he heard a playful yet cold voice entering, which for some reason sounded like his own.

”Go in directly. There is no need for formality between the two of us.”

As Mo Xuejing came into the study, he saw a man dressed in white-black ancient clothes standing at the full-body window facing the flower garden. Taking a quick peek, he noticed that his grandfathers, Mo Xinyue and Mu Zang, were hiding behind the bushes, playing hide-and-seek with Ye Jingxia and Anxia, who had just learned to stand up and could hardly run.

Anxia was holding her elder brotherʼs hand tightly.

The man in the antique robes stares at this picture with a gentle and loving gaze within those strangely colored eyes of his. His irises were black and silver, but those pairs of eyes, shaped like phoenixes, were unmistakably his.

Chaos had spoken. ”Judging by how you werenʼt surprised at our first meeting meant that that man told you everything and you believe him wholeheartedly. Why are these few past soul fragments more similar to the main soul than I do? It would be more interesting if they were like me. They can torture that bastard all they want.”

”You are also like me. Why do you hate him so much? Canʼt you just forget about it?” Mo Xuejing asked.

A rare moment of silence fell upon the room as Chaos abruptly materialized in front of Mo Xuejing, taking him by surprise and grabbing his neck so forcefully that it stunned him. It is evident that, despite Chaosʼ expressionless face, there is pure hatred hiding behind it, the exact opposite of the pure love that exists in Mo Xuejingʼs heart.

Chaos said, ”You donʼt understand? Of course, you canʼt. Because all your memories are with me. The pain of being forgotten. The suffering of loneliness in that dark world. The agonizing pain of your soul being tainted forcefully where you had to live every second of your life in pain.

In so much pain, that you even felt numbed over it over time.”

”You know what itʼs like to wait for someone who never comes back for a few thousand years.”

”How about watching the man live his life in happiness as he forgot his promises and even your very existence while suffering from the pain you couldnʼt stop no matter what you did?”

”The pain in every second as your soul slowly is tainted until you can never remember who you are and why you exist. Donʼt you know that when one gets used to pain, there is only numbness left. When numbness is beyond control, what is the difference between being dead while still alive?”

Chaos never showed this much anger. He could only hold back in front of Hei Anjing because he knew that the main soul had suffered more after being reborn for that manʼs sake.

Hei Anjing would never have prodded Chaos in this way, would not have asked him why he hated Ye Xiajie, would not have comforted him to forget about it, would not have asked anyone to forget about it because he understood the pain, and would have let him make his own decisions.

The only landmine the main soul did not allow him to press was Ye Xiajieʼs true death; it is as if Hei Anjing had given him permission to hate Ye Xiajie all he wanted, and he would also try his utmost to prevent him from doing so. Chaos can inflict some hurt on his man as long as he does not take his life away.

However, the soul fragment known as Mo Xuejing greatly infuriated him; his pain is eliminated because he has forgotten who he really is; similar to the main soul, his love for that bastard overcame all pain, but he was unaware of true pain because, from the start to the finish, someone had protected his life; unlike him, who was left behind and forgot, believing that death was freedom itself.

However, Chaosʼs ferocious wrath subsided after a while. Mo Xuejing is stupid, but he must not be permitted to pass away since, in that case, their souls would be completed and their former strength would not reappear.

Thud!

Cough. Cough.

With a look of irritation hidden deep in his eyes, Chaos hurled Mo Xuejing to the ground. His expressionless face and aura belie his true feelings and only the depths of his eyes convey them. Mo Xuejing looked up to see Chaosʼs expressionless face once more.

Cough!

Mo Xuejing said, ”Even if my memories return, I know that I will not hate him as much as you do.”

Chaos sneered at him with a mocking gaze and said, ”Of course, you wonʼt. You are more like the main soul than I, the soul core. You are both insane~”

When Chaos remembered his foolish self as Snow, he would undoubtedly say that it was this soul fragment, Mo Xuejing. Pure beyond belief. Foolishly loyal to his love. Trusting only his feelings of love.

Mo Xuejing was speechless. He could not understand why this lunatic was calling him insane. He had no right at all! He can only glare at him.

”At least you have no right to call me insane!” Mo Xuejing said as he felt tingling pain from his neck when he was strangled. He stood up and realized that this man had no intention of giving back his memories. He was about to open his mouth to ask when Chaos suddenly said,

”Itʼs not time yet. You will receive them at the right moment. Do you truly want to merge with the main soul right away? By then you would no longer be Mo Xuejing but the person called Hei Anjing instead. You donʼt want to disappear right away, donʼt you?” Chaos said as he continued to watch the lovely scene of their beloved children laughing without care.

However, his remarks left Mo Xuejing speechless. He realized that, even though he had declared himself ready, there was still a bit of resistance inside of him. This was his world, after all. At least allow him to continue living as Mo Xuejing for a little while longer.

”I understand. Is there something you want?” Mo Xuejing asked.

Chaosʼ hesitation is clear, but despite that, he canʼt move his eyes from Ye Jingxia and Hei Anxia.

”Can you let me spend some time with the children?”

”Okay, I will ask them if they want to. As long as Xiao Jing and Xiaxia agree, then I will bring them here to meet you. But AʼYe might not agree,” Mo Xuejing said.

Chaos looked at him and said, ”He will agree. Because he knows that no matter how much I want to kill him, I will never move my hands toward Xiao Jing and Xiao Xia. This is how much I love our babies. I am you, you know that. You arenʼt even willing to let them suffer. Do you think I have the heart to harm them?”

”No, I said the wrong things. Forgive me,” Mo Xuejing said.

Chaos moved his gaze from the flower garden to the distant horizons and said, ”Go back. He is about to come home.”

Knowing that Ye Jieye—as he put it as ʼHeʼ—has so much hatred for this man that he will not even bother calling him by name—Mo Xuejing could only depart without bidding him farewell because they had plenty of time to cross paths again.