My Alleged Husband

Chapter 996: Chapter 888 Lies (2)

Although Zhang Ni didn’t understand, he didn’t know what purpose his father had in saying these words to him today. Deep inside, he inexplicably felt nervous, and he was also scared. From these words, he sensed the fog I had about marriage. He initially planned to find a girlfriend one day to take home to meet his parents, but now seeing this situation, he suddenly became afraid, afraid that their ending would be exactly like his own. He was afraid of repeating the same mistakes.

”Dad, actually, you have no reason or meaning to say these words to me now. In my eyes, I just want to walk my own path peacefully, just like you said. Everyone’s life is originally laid out. I am following the path you all arranged for me, step by step. You may feel it’s not tiring, but for me, it’s a kind of harm. I only feel like my life is being controlled by you over and over again. I just want to walk my path even if it is difficult, although my whole life I have not had a path that brings you happiness. But deep down, it is always a kind of happiness for me, a kind of joy, or beauty!

I don’t want to live my entire life being in my family’s shorts, nor do I want to live my life for the family!

Once, because of issues with my grandparents, I was living for them. At that moment, I felt that all goals in my world were to show them my value. But gradually, I found that the decisions I made were simply a huge mistake.

I was living for every family member. But in reality, I discovered that even if I did so, every family member might not truly treat me sincerely. I pushed myself onto a path of no return time and time again. I believed that everything I did was right, but ultimately realized that it was never the right principle.

Because I found out that, even if I gave my all for the entire world, in their eyes, I was nothing.

At the moment when I saw all the pain being submerged, who knew how much I was actually hurting and how tired I was. Time and time again, I reached the end, realizing that every path I walked was wrong. No one ever stood in my shoes to consider, not even an ounce or iota of consideration. I pinned all my hopes on this path, only to finally discover that this path is ultimately a path of no return. Choosing to walk this path meant I had no way to look back on the moments I was hurt and consider what I truly gained or achieved. It was nothing more than repeated harm from my family.”

”You must understand that saying these words to you today is not to teach you some lesson or hope that you will take fewer detours in the future or suffer less. Don’t end up like me, knowingly venturing into a storm even knowing it lies ahead. That will make your life painstakingly painful. Do you really wish for your life to be as unbearable as that? You are my son, and as a father, I only wish for your betterment. I wouldn’t choose to harm you.

All these years, I know the hardships you encountered on these roads. I also know you didn’t all have it easy. You walked up step by step with great efforts, and maybe you know, when you chose this path, even knowing the outcome was certain, you still had to unhesitatingly walk this path. It only proves that you were ready for everything mentally when you started, ready to face everything by now. Why then are you refuting it this way?

When pondering the path you took, it was just to prove yourself. But now, you have proved yourself, announcing to the world that you are the greatest. You harbor the same mindset I once did. Seeing you reach this point, I am gratified. I will no longer demand further changes from you as I once did. Everyone has their paths to walk, and we cannot constantly change our actions based on others’ opinions. That only leads to a hard life for oneself. How could I bear to see my child live so painfully and exhaustively?

Sometimes, even I don’t understand why I resolutely chose to walk. I chose that path, knowing then how arduous it would be, yet I did so because I could not accept being coldly abandoned by my parents. I didn’t understand why, back then, being so adorable and from birth, I was worth such a harsh decision from them. The moment they tossed me aside, they seemed not to have an ounce of reluctance in their hearts. I hated them. My heart was filled with hatred towards them. I used everything to prove myself while also expressing my hatred for them. I wanted to strengthen myself with hatred, becoming invincible in this lifetime. I wanted everyone to have no qualification or means to look down on me. I wished everyone to know that when I made that decision, I was already the most powerful person in the world. But now, I realize that not everything I did was correct.

This is my expression of hatred towards them. In turn, I hurt them one step after the other, leaving them out of the house, excluding them outside my door. Is my heart not hurting at all? They are still my father, forever connected by blood. That feeling stays deep in my heart. When I see them looking at me and my grandfather with pleading eyes, do you know how conflicted I was inside? I really wanted to let them stay, but I couldn’t open my mouth. I knew I couldn’t. They have to pay the price for every decision they once made, profoundly realizing how erroneous their decisions were. They need to understand that for every decision they made, regardless of the outcome, they must bear the consequences and pay the price. Once a path is chosen, even if it’s full of thorns, they must finish it, even if crawling to the end!”