My Alleged Husband

Chapter 963: Chapter 856 Thoughts

Zhang Zhentian heard his son’s questioning him over and over again. He started to reflect on himself. Could it be that this time, he truly made a wrong decision? Should he really leave this family, abandon his child, and leave his child so utterly alone? Why is it that everything he does always seems wrong? Why, no matter how hard he tries, he can never satisfy his family? What kind of accomplishment should he achieve in this lifetime? What kind of actions would make his family finally see him in a different light, rather than repeatedly dismissing him, repeatedly looking down on him?

Deep down, he simply couldn’t understand. All of this wasn’t because his family actually looked down on him—it was because everything he did went too far, was too excessive. He no longer understood what he should do. He had grown numb to all of his actions, and he didn’t know whether he was doing them for his own selfish desires or for his family. He kept saying that he was doing it all out of consideration for his family, but ultimately, only he knew deep down what the real reason was.

Zhang Yichen felt that since the matter had already come to this point, there was no need to continue any further. If his father decided to stay in this family, he would treat them well no matter what decisions they had made or what words they had said in the past. He would never make their lives difficult. But if they resolutely chose to leave again, then he declared he would never forgive them for the rest of his life. No one who makes mistakes over and over again can be repeatedly forgiven by others.

”I’ve said everything I need to say. You think carefully about whether you’ll go or stay. If you leave, you should understand the kind of conclusion I’ll come to. If you really leave, we will no longer be father and son in this lifetime. No matter where you go in the future, please don’t claim to be my father, because I don’t have a father like you. A father who chooses to leave me proves that he doesn’t see me as his son. Since that’s the case, why should I try so desperately to hold on to my father?

Many times I truly don’t understand how you can harden your heart enough to abandon us again and again. In your eyes, do we, your children, truly mean so little to you that we’re not worth staying for, not worth sacrificing a little for? You’re always acting for your own selfish desires, always feeling that every decision you’ve made is right—but have you ever thought about it? Are those decisions truly correct? You’ve hurt us over and over, pushed us into impossible situations time and again. We never said anything because I know that no matter what, I should remain cheerful. After all, you’re my father. No matter what harm you inflict upon me as your son, I should try to understand. I have no reason to hate you, because you gave me life. Even if you never raised me properly, the debt of giving me life is as immense as the sky. I still must see you as the most important people in my life. But the things you’ve done have disappointed me again and again. Such deep disappointment—no one can truly understand it.”

Zhang Zhentian didn’t know how to explain things to his son. This matter was indeed his fault. After all the effort he had put in, this was still the outcome he ended up with. He had never imagined that one day, he and his son would fall into such a state. Was this truly the ending he had once wished for? It was completely different. But now that things had reached this point, what could he do? Again and again, he could only let his child criticize him as a father without saying a word, unable to even muster a rebuttal, with no justification to defend himself.

Sometimes, when he thought about all the things he’d done, he would wonder—what was the point of it all? Time and again, he had hurt his family. And while his family was the most crucial aspect of his life, he forgot that his family also needed nurturing. But when he betrayed his family again and again, when he cruelly abandoned them time and again, he should have already anticipated this outcome. So why, when faced with this conclusion, did he still feel unwilling to accept it deep down? How much he wished that this result wasn’t the final consequence. How much he yearned for a conclusion even slightly different. But why would reality always be an unchangeable fact?

Old Master Zhang understood that his grandson had already made the greatest concession. It was an enormous gesture for him to speak up and plead for his father to stay. Yet why were they still so stubborn, still had to make decisions that caused every member of the family heartbreak and anguish? Time and again, they gave up on the people they loved most deeply because of their own thoughts and desires. Was it right, or was it wrong? They clearly wanted to stay in this family, yet they had no choice but to leave. Was it truly just because their daughter-in-law had developed depression? Or was it simply that they couldn’t bear to stay any longer and used that as an excuse to leave?

”Although I really don’t want to interfere in this matter, I still have to say something. Since your child is willing to go this far and has stepped back to this position, it proves that he genuinely wants you to come back. But if you still make another wrong decision and choose to leave again, then this time, you’ll truly lose your child for the rest of your life. Whether or not you want to live with your child—it’s all up to your own mindset. Whatever decision you make, you must face the corresponding consequences. I’ve already said this countless times: think carefully. As an elder, I don’t want to expend more words on this matter. No matter how much I try to convince you, the ultimate outcome may not be good. But I hope you’ll understand that your child sincerely hopes for you to return to him. He’s your child. As a child, he only wishes for his parents to accompany him. Even if you do nothing, he still hopes his parents will stay by his side. If, deep down, you feel even the slightest guilt toward him, please make the right decision. Don’t wait until the time comes to regret it, to beg for forgiveness. The world doesn’t work that way, and there’s no medicine for regret that can be bought over and over again!”