My Alleged Husband

Chapter 995: Chapter 887: Lies (1)

”Actually, sometimes I still can’t comprehend what kind of mentality you had when you lied to the family. When you chose to lie, did you ever think that family members might feel sad and distressed because of these things? Maybe you never did. Everything you did, and your mistakes may be forgivable, but the pain in others’ hearts might be something you can never understand in this lifetime. I really regret it, and I am afraid, I’m afraid everything I did was in vain, I’m afraid that after giving my all, I only get repeated deception from my parents in return.”

”You can’t possibly understand the feeling of being deceived, abandoned, and repeatedly hurt by your own mom and dad. It’s a kind of despair, deep pain and despair.”

”I am unwilling to face you directly because I know I can’t face this side of you. When I was hurt over and over again, when I faced every harm time and again, where were you? When I recall my childhood, I feel it was a painful existence. Although I can view it as a complete life experience, those were indeed wounds my parents inflicted, and those are injuries you and my mom recklessly gave me, which I will never be able to forget at any time or place. I can only remind myself repeatedly with such a method that, no matter when or where, never to trust anyone’s kiss, because family can be the ones who hurt the most!”

”Child, I know those lies indeed hurt you back then. But they were forced; it was the only way we could continue living!”

If it were out of selfishness and we chose to abandon you, then we wouldn’t be back here.

Why can’t you let go of your obsession with the past by now? Are those thoughts really so deeply ingrained in your heart, so hard to dispel?

I know I’ve never made such a big concession before. Now, to be able to return to this family, I believe I’ve already set aside all my pride and dignity. I can’t comprehend why I should, once again, make everyone feel my sincerity, rather than contemplate a different life.

My life is already a mess, and my appearance now impacts your life. Choosing to stay with your mother is because she chose to continue living with me, so I have no reason or words to drive her out alone, nor do I have a choice. Whether I love her or not, the deep truth is that I sincerely love her. If you love someone, you must go for it, regardless of what they’ve done; you must care for them unconditionally!

Don’t think me foolish, don’t think that my thoughts are laughable and naive. When one day you reach this point, you’ll also realize that what I did today will be your choice in the future. Against your most beloved woman, no matter what she does to you, you can forgive her, even if it’s a great humiliation. Now I can already offer my genuine heart to her, so what else can I not forgive or accept? When I found out about this outcome, the depths of my heart were willing to borrow, yet I had no way to ensure belief that this is what my own wife did to me as her husband!”

”Think about all these years of weathering storms together, think about all these years of enduring hardships repeatedly, I feel I shouldn’t do anything to make her sad. I should consider what our life together is like, I should carefully think about how to make my wife healthy and finally bring happiness and joy to her. Anytime, anywhere, as long as she’s happy, so too my heart becomes joyful.”

”Your love for my mom has no boundaries, but if you act like them, would it truly matter? Even if you’ve given everything for her, in her eyes, you’re nothing more than a puppet. You’ll never get genuine emotions from her; he’s a master of acting, and every earnest word to anyone might just be fabricated lies he tells you!

No matter how beautiful lies are spoken, they are ultimately lies. He cannot change the essence of lies. Whether they are well-intentioned or malicious, they are still lies. Only by truly being oneself is the best path forward, isn’t it? When you choose to use lies to deceive family, did you ever think that one day, your family might unveil your lies and everything truthful you say will be treated as lies?”

I’ve seen far too many families shattered by lies; I don’t want my parents to be affected negatively by lies, and I definitely don’t want my family to feel sad because of these lies. Everything you’ve done in the past may be things you won’t remember as mistakes, but for family, it’s something they can never forget. That’s betrayal from their own kin, the repeated deception from the ones they love the most.”

Zhang Yichen looked at his son’s bewildered expression and decided to tell him these matters ahead of time, lest he also suffer losses in the future.

”Nai’er, although telling you this now might be a bit premature, I hope you can remember ahead of time, anytime, anywhere, if someone first tells you lies, they might be forced. But if continuously tells lies, it means they are inherently a liar. They won’t have genuine feelings for you and will never treat you as a brother, family, or friend. If you encounter such people, no matter the benefits, never associate closely with them.

Now, as a father, I’m telling you this so you might suffer a little less, in hopes that you won’t be deceived continuously and think that’s others being genuine to you. I’m truly foolish, hoping my son won’t experience the same, identical things I did. Telling you these things early is to prevent such incidents, so you won’t one day ask why I didn’t tell you. You’ll feel it was my failure!”