My Alleged Husband

Chapter 988: Chapter 881: Thorns Ahead

”Dad, I understand now, I’ve completely understood why you’ve done all this. I feel that no matter what lies ahead, no matter if there are countless hardships, no matter if the path is filled with thorns, as long as our family holds each other tightly and never lets go of any one of us, then our family can live happily forever.”

”It’s best that you’ve figured this out, but some things can’t be shared with others; as long as we, father and son, understand this in our hearts, it’s enough. If we tell others about these things, it might cause unnecessary trouble.

You know how difficult it is for us to live in this home, how many people we’ve hurt with what we’ve done. We should think about whether what we’re doing is truly right.

We’ve made unforgivable mistakes time and again, and we can only prove with our actions that everything we’re doing is for the good of this family.”

”Dad, but even if everything we do is for this family, in the future, we will still have arguments and conflicts in this home for various reasons and ways. At that time, do we have to keep swallowing our anger? The repeated outcomes only lead to family members hurting themselves time and again. If that’s the case, then what’s the purpose of us living in this chaotic world?

In this chaotic world, everything we do is just for our family to live happier, but if even this purpose loses its meaning, then I think it’s unnecessary to live here.

In this chaotic world, being able to protect one’s own interests is already quite impressive; how could you simultaneously care for the whole family’s interests?

You should know clearly that here, interests are law, the rule of survival.

To survive, you have to push forward no matter what and abandon all others’ interests.

In this world, if you want to live happily, you must first see others as less important than yourself, prioritize your own interests above all, and never do worthless things for worthless people. Once some things are done, there’s no turning back, and not doing them just means you didn’t have the courage to do them.

At any time or place, you should stand by your interests and abandon everything you originally set; in the end, it’s like drawing water with a bamboo basket — achieving nothing. Why let something disturb your peace throughout your life? My mom has reached this state now, and I don’t know how to face her, or how to face everyone in this world.

Deep in my heart, everyone in the family is like the best friend of my life. I will always prioritize family interests above all. I can value my family over everything, but I cannot abandon my whole family or even my personal interests for the sake of family interests. That’s absolutely impossible. People are inherently selfish; it’s a fundamental premise of living — to make everyone who hurt you pay a terrible price, so they can never comprehend the kind of pain this is.”

”Child, do you really think living with such hatred makes you happy? Do you find joy in it? You drive yourself to a dead end bit by bit, and do you really think there will be a way back? You’ve given up all your retreats for what you wanted, just so everyone could watch you with a smile. The result of your actions is only making everyone in the family disappointed with you. You’ve forgotten your original dreams, forgotten the reasons you initially wanted to prove something; you’ve become numb through experiencing these things time and again.”

”I know living with hatred is painful, and I live in unease. But why should I let them laugh happily when I’m in the depths of my pain? I’m not a Saint; I can’t do it.

The people who hurt me, I’ll make them understand one by one what it’s like to betray others. I’ll let them know the price of betrayal. There’s a saying that ’those who are shameless are invincible,’ and I believe there’s some truth to that. But I don’t believe the world is only just and without humanity. In this world, there’s only ever fairness that others speak of, but who truly seeks fairness? Who can genuinely act justly?

Behind every lie is the hurt of those you love the most and who love you the most. Once or twice they are hurt, and eventually, they’ve given up, leaving no reason to continue living like this.

Once some decisions are made, they’re undeserving of forgiveness, even if you admit those matters have nothing to do with you. Some harm might already be done, and others won’t endlessly forgive you because of them.

Some things are unforgivable. You might think I’ve gone too far with all this, but who among you has considered my inner feelings? After all, they’ve hurt this home. I have no way to let these things just fade away. You might do this much for Grandpa, but I have no one worth doing this for. Again and again, when I abandon everything I have, what I ultimately gain is only the deepest of wounds. Time and again, in others’ eyes, I’m worth nothing.”

”Child, you finally understand this principle: you can only live for yourself in this world, and you mustn’t change yourself for anyone or live for anyone else. You live for yourself, not for others. Once you’ve figured that out, you’ve matured greatly. Some things can be overlooked, but it doesn’t mean your heart doesn’t care. What you should want to do now is stay by your mother’s side properly. You should help your mom recover soon, let her know that her son truly loves her from the heart, not just with words but with actions. If she’s aware at the moment, knowing you’ve done so much for her, she’ll surely be very happy.”