My Alleged Husband

Chapter 868: Chapter 814: Brain Reaction

”What are you spacing out for? Apologize to Dad now, do you still not know what you did wrong?”

Xia Jing was about to explode with anger at Zhang Zhentian, has there ever been someone who committed a mistake and was still so clueless? Perhaps her husband was the only one!

Zhang Zhentian finally realized his mistake, he should have apologized to his father. How much pain must his father have felt deep inside? He himself, as a son, had hurt her again and again, so how should she regard him? Did it lower his own worth in his eyes?

”Dad, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it just now, I couldn’t control my temper and lashed out at you. Please don’t take it to heart.”

Old Master Zhang laughed, his son would never grow up, always thinking a simple sorry could solve everything.

But is it really so? Sorry is not omnipotent, it can’t forgive all the harm done to oneself.

”Zhentian, you don’t think that a mere sorry can settle everything, do you?”

Zhang Zhentian didn’t understand the meaning of Old Master Zhang’s words, he had apologized, what more was needed?

”Dad, what do you mean by that?”

”Have you ever actually reckoned how many times you’ve lost your temper at me? Have you considered how much harm the reasons behind it caused me each time, and don’t you have any tally of it within your heart? Do you really forget it all? Even if you forget, I haven’t. Do you want me to help you recalculate the past?

From the beginning, you had outbursts over Xia Jing. Over and over, do you really think my heart is made of cotton? That no matter what you say or do, I would forgive you without any self-esteem?

You’re way too naive and amusing. I’ve forgiven you many times, but time and again you’ve brought severe hurt and blows to me as a father. This time, I won’t forgive you.

Just because of a disagreement, you flare up at me, your father. Do you think you fit the role of a son? I’ve worked so hard to raise you, is this how you repay me?

I really can’t understand what I, as your father, mean to you in your heart?”

Zhang Zhentian had not expected his father to bring up all the past issues and settle accounts with him this time. Could it be that he, as a son, was no longer trustworthy? He just lost control of his emotions momentarily and flared up at him. Was it really that unforgivable?

”Dad, just because I said that to you, are you going to be so nitpicky with me?

You’re my father, I’m your son, can’t you be a bit more lenient with me?

Or do you think your son doesn’t deserve your forgiveness at all?”

Xia Jing really didn’t expect that, even after she intervened to reconcile, the two of them would still start quarreling.

”Zhentian, can you speak to Dad in a nicer tone? If you spoke a little nicer, you two wouldn’t have started fighting.”

”Then you tell me how I should speak? If I speak it’s wrong, if I don’t it’s still wrong, whatever I do is wrong, then how about I just let you all handle everything?”

”Zhentian, what’s gotten into you today? Why the senseless outbursts at everyone? Neither the teacher nor I provoked you today, right?

If there’s something bothering you, you can talk it out with us, I can help you with it, but can you please calm down before speaking? Look at yourself now, you’re like a devil full of spite.”

”Xia Jing, don’t talk to him now, he’s almost like a devil who doesn’t recognize his kin. Look at the way he speaks; does he even consider us his family? We’re worse than enemies to him.

Years ago, his outbursts could be excused by his youthful ignorance, but so many years later, he’s already a middle-aged man, his own son is so grown, he even has a grandson, but when he does these things, he still doesn’t consider the consequences. His happiness, his joy, it didn’t matter at all whether people around him live or die.

In his eyes, we, his family, are nothing. He thinks if he gets grievances from outside, he can just come home and lose his temper at his family, venting all his frustrations, but he never really saw us as his family, never considering our pain, our exhaustion, and that we can’t stand it anymore!”

”Dad, actually, Zhentian isn’t like that.

He might indeed have been a little frustrated today, that’s why he lashed out at us. As family, a little more tolerance and it’ll be fine. If we can’t let go of this matter, nobody will lead a good life, right?

You’ve always said, a family should be understanding and tolerant of each other.

But now, over such a trivial issue, we are at odds with each other. Do you think we still qualify as a family?

I know when he makes mistakes, you can’t endlessly forgive him, because as his son he needs to take responsibility for his actions.

But after all, he is a member of this family, and everything he does is because of me.

If this causes discord between you and your son, then all the blame is on me.”

Old Master Zhang really didn’t know what to do – why was his son such a disappointment?

Sigh!

”I hope you understand that no matter what you do, no matter how big or small the matter, apologizing is never the best solution.

If you make a mistake and don’t take responsibility, no matter how much money you give, you can never undo the hurt you’ve caused others.”

”Zhentian, I really don’t understand what’s going on with you today?

Everything was fine; why did you blow up at Dad? He wasn’t wrong; whatever he said was for your good. Your apology didn’t seem sincere, and it’s upsetting and unacceptable to me too. Why do you always apologize only upon realizing your mistakes? Can’t your brain respond a bit quicker every time?

I think you should really try to understand your father. All these years, he has raised your son with hard work, it wasn’t easy for him.

All the hardships he endured, we never went through. We should always be grateful, for raising our child and for taking care of the family for so many years. As soon as we come home, we should take up our responsibilities!

Stop doing things that hurt our own family!”