My Alleged Husband

Chapter 857: Chapter 803 Eavesdropping

Zhang Yichen, sensing everything was fine despite it being late at night, no longer wished to continue staying alone in the room with his wife and decided to join his son in bed. He wanted to tell his son about the family matters, instructing him to speak less and avoid speaking carelessly.

Now alone in her room, she felt bored and decided to have a serious talk with her father. She had many questions for her father, even if the answers might not be what she hoped for, it was still better than never having the chance to ask at all.

Zhang Zhentian today heard how his father communicated with him and felt that his father’s prejudices against him were not just a little. He didn’t know what he should do to completely eliminate his father’s prejudices. All he wanted was to receive recognition from his father, and to let his father see that he sincerely wanted to return home to take care of and accompany her.

But why did the conversation with his father turn into a blazing argument? Was it the way he talked, or did he say something he shouldn’t have?

He hadn’t thought about why these things were happening and didn’t know how he should communicate with his father.

Sometimes, he couldn’t help but think, could it really be because he hadn’t lived in this home for many years, that he had completely lost touch with his father’s temper? Every mistake he had made was clear in his mind, endlessly troubling his father, something he would never forget. Despite this, he resolutely chose to leave, not realizing how much it pained his father’s heart, wondering what wrongs he as a son had committed. Why was nothing he did ever right?

Xia Jing saw her husband here, and she knew how troubled his heart was. She felt that some matters still needed to be communicated between them, that it’s wrong to take all the blame herself as it would only make her feel exhausted. A candid discussion was essential to avoid further misunderstandings and to live harmoniously.

”Zhentian, you don’t need to say anything, I know what you are thinking, and some of your thoughts are simply wrong. You never considered whether your actions were right or wrong. You didn’t understand why your father has such a strong prejudice against you. Initially, the decision to leave this family was my idea, you shouldn’t have forgotten.

At that time, I proposed leaving the family and handing our child over to your father. You were against it, but in the end, to make me happy and to prevent my despair, you chose to leave with me. I also felt reluctant, because I couldn’t bear to leave our child so young without parents, it has always been an unfair damage to him!

But at that time I was too eager for freedom outside, always thinking that once I left our home and let go of our child, I could roam the world and soar in the skies and oceans. Yet, I forgot that no matter when or where, I already had a family, I had my responsibilities and obligations, but I cast everything aside for the benefit and pleasure right before my eyes, forgetting that my actions could bring profound impact and harm to those closest to me!

Yet over the years, you’ve never blamed me, always unconditionally pleasing and forgiving me, because deep down you just wanted me to be happy, your own desires never crossed your mind. The only thing you wanted was me!

Now thinking back, seeing how you live with such self-reproach and guilt, my heart also hurts. Clearly, these were my mistakes, but why do you live a harder life than me?

I keep living carelessly, as long as I’m with you, I can smile happily every day, but I forgot that you were bearing all the societal pressures for me, I’m truly selfish, I know it well, yet you’ve never complained, not because you don’t love me truly, but because you endlessly tolerate every mistake I ever made for my sake!

But today, it’s clearly my fault, I hope you won’t continue to carry this burden. Let me face all the consequences I should, no matter how our child will view me as a mother, no matter how your father will treat me eventually, I can accept it without complaints, I just beg you not to continue living such a tiring life.”

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Zhang Yichen stood outside the door, overhearing his mother’s words to his father, realizing that it was indeed similar to what he had imagined. Originally, it was because of his mother that his father chose to leave the home, thus giving up his grandfather and himself. He never expected his father’s love for his mother to be so deep, to the extent of abandoning the entire family and disregarding his own relatives.

One day, he might also fall madly in love like his father did, but he could never give up his grandfather. His grandfather loved him so much, willing to risk his own life for him. How could he bear to see his grandfather get hurt?

He finally held back, unsure whether he should knock on the door now. Perhaps standing outside a bit longer could help him hear more about what he wanted to know, which they might not be willing to answer directly.

Thus, he stood outside while Zhang Zhentian and Xia Jing in the room had no idea their son was eavesdropping outside their bedroom door. They continued sharing their inner thoughts, not minding that this might eventually alter their son’s view of them.

”Xia Jing, you should know, no matter what, I will never give up on you. The time spent with you by my side has been the happiest days of my life. Asking me to give up on you is like asking for my life!”