My Alleged Husband

Chapter 852: Chapter 798: Indelible Memories

Zhang Zhentian and Xia Jing both knew that there were some things that really couldn’t just let their father drift away with the wind.

Both of them deeply understood the pain they had caused their family, and it wasn’t something that could just be forgotten. Everyone has their memories, memories that may root deeply within one throughout a lifetime.

”Dad, the pain and suffering I brought to you in the past, I have sincerely apologized to you more than once. I have tried time and again to make things right for you, but I don’t know what exactly I need to do to earn your forgiveness, to let me return to this family. Whether you let me back into this family sincerely or for some other reason, do you know? Time and time again, these efforts have deeply hurt me. When I see you so tired, I feel pained, and I hope to share some of your suffering, to not let you be so weary!

Yet you do not even have the basic trust in me. In a family like this, how could I possibly live at ease? I am human too; I yearn for my family to live happily and joyfully. I wish for everyone in the family to be safe!

I know that I have personally discarded the century-long reputation of our family. I am aware of the massive impact my actions over the years have caused, and everyone must be saying that I am an unfilial person, abandoning my family and the entire clan’s interests. But do you know? I also didn’t want such things to happen. I, too, wish to stay in this family peacefully.

The things I desire, you totally don’t understand, nor do you know what I truly want. All you do is repeatedly blame me, and what I’ve exchanged for this is only painful harm. Do you understand?”

”Could it be that deep inside your heart, it’s still ultimately my fault as a father? Should I not have rejected you at the door? When you left home, did I force you with a knife against you to leave and swear never to return?

Why can you forget all the things you’ve done yourself, and pretend nothing happened when it comes to him, but I am your father, I can’t forget that you are my child, the mistakes you have made; as a father, I must always remember, reminding myself how I raised my son, turning him into what he is now!

It’s a father’s fault to not teach; your becoming like this today, all faults are ascribed to me as a father for not fulfilling my guidance duties. No matter how much someone else says, it’s because of my inadequate guidance that you turned out like this. The entire pressure of public opinion falls on my head, yet you can still live the life you want so easily!

You want to return to this family, and don’t I also wish for you to safely live the life you desire? I have forgiven you, letting you back into this family proves that deep within my heart, I never truly thought of completely driving you out. Don’t you understand my sincere intentions by now? Isn’t everything I do for the sake of our home, for the interests of our clan to prosper permanently?

Who has ever understood my true intentions? Who understands why I do what I do? You all presume that everything I do hurts you, but do you know how I could use those things to hurt you? You never considered. You always feel everything is my fault, but do you know how much my heart aches inside?”

Zhang Zhentian hung his head as his father spoke, feeling that each word his father said was true. He knew that everything he had done was wrong; no matter how excessive his actions were, his father still forgave him unconditionally. Why was he now causing conflict with his father again in this family?

Struggling by all means to return to this home, having nearly lost his life for this peaceful existence, why didn’t he cherish this hard-earned life? Why choose to do such trivial things to worry and sadden his father because of his own matters? Could he truly be such a failed son?

No one knows what truly goes on deep inside Zhang Zhentian’s heart.

Only he himself knows that inside his heart is not at all peaceful right now, not tranquil at all. He does not know what kind of life he eventually wants to live; he only wishes for a peaceful and happy life, and what he exchanges for time and again is all heartbreaking pain, causing his family to be sad over and over again because of his decisions. Why can’t he ever do one thing right, so everyone could also experience a happy life with him?

”Dad, I know now that deep within you, there is no way you can forgive me, nor understand me, but I hope you believe that I will never repeat the mistakes I have made. I just want to stay here peacefully with you, regardless of what kind of person I was, no matter what wrongs I committed that saddened you, you will not regret choosing to forgive me this time.

Since I have spoken, I will certainly follow through. I have said before that I will use all my might to make amends to you, so be assured, no matter what, I will protect you, even if it costs my life to bring you happiness and joy, I spare no effort. I only hope that everyone can live a happy and joyful life, and in the future, we should not argue over any trivial matters, as it will only make our relations forever uneasy, and I do not want our home to be a constant scene of chaos; that life is not what we desire!”

Old Master Zhang knows that the words his son is now saying are heartfelt. He too does not want the family to live in constant chaos. Is that really the life he wants? Rather than this, why not truly forgive his son from the depths of his heart and welcome him back home? Wouldn’t that be the happiest and most joyous thing for himself and for his son?