My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1840: Chapter 1634: Spring Passes, Autumn Comes

No matter how everything ends, no matter what kind of conclusion we arrive at in the end, for me, I just hope that you can stay safely by my side, nothing more.

As for Old Master Zhang, his heart truly aches. He clearly knows what kind of family warmth his grandson desires, yet he can do nothing about it. He clearly knows all of this requires just a simple gesture, but why is it so difficult for his family? Why? Is it just because they are a prestigious family, and today all their wealth was earned through his hard work, without doing anything illegal, yet they have to repeatedly break apart the happiness of their family. This imbalance in his heart really troubles him. He is not someone who forsakes dignity for appearances. He’s repeatedly laid down his principles, repeatedly made exceptions for others, but why do they have to harm her and hurt him again and again? Is this really right?

Zhang Yichen also understands what kind of thoughts his grandfather harbors in his heart. He clearly knows his grandfather’s heart is in pain, is conflicted, but as a grandson, he has no means to help. He can only watch helplessly as his family is once again saddened by these matters, and he can only stand silently, watching quietly, powerless. For a successful person, such a defeat is a severe blow. Having lived a lifetime of smooth sailing, why suddenly does he have to endure such blows? Is he really so undeserving of happiness?

Both of them have their thoughts, yet standing together, they choose to say nothing because, deep down, they know that some words are better left unsaid. If those words are spoken, maybe they won’t be able to return to their original state ever again. None of them wants to see such an outcome for themselves. They are not saints; they both need the warm harbor of family love. But why is fate so unfair to them, repeatedly hurting their family, repeatedly destroying the happiness they should have? Such blows are hard for anyone to accept.

They both choose never to mention these words because once they’re spoken, it changes everything. It will make everyone feel awkward and cause heartache. Even though they are the closest family, why can’t they come back to each other time and again? Why do they repeatedly hurt one another? This is a fact no one can accept. They don’t want this kind of hurt to be buried in their hearts repeatedly, unable to erase.

”Grandpa, why do my parents always unwilling to return to my side and care for me, their own son? To them, am I really not worth their care even once? Even if it’s just an exception for me, why are they always so cold and heartless?

Sometimes I really can’t understand what makes me so undeserving of my parents’ love. Isn’t one or two abandonments enough? But why do they always abandon me throughout my life? Am I really that unworthy of their love?

Over all these years, I’ve never received my parents’ love. It’s something I’ve gotten used to. But how can my heart ever be balanced? Watching others’ parents love their children so dearly while mine avoid me like the plague makes it hard for me, as their junior, to feel happy. I keep questioning myself, if my parents truly don’t love me, then why did they bring me into this world? Was it just to continue the family line, just a duty?

Grandpa, there’s no way anyone can truly understand my internal pain. It’s a torment from the soul, the tremendous harm caused by my own parents’ abandonment. This is something I can’t change for the rest of my life. I know past events have passed, and no matter how I cling to them, they hold no meaning. But I just can’t let go; it’s always been a nightmare lurking deep within my soul. How can I just let it go?

Sometimes, I really wish time could turn back. If time could rush back to the very beginning, how happy I would be if my parents showed me a little more love and care. I would be so grateful to them for my whole life. Yet, they never gave me anything I wanted, always forcing upon me what I didn’t desire. From a young age, I understood the saying ’what you don’t want for yourself, don’t impose on others,’ but why don’t my parents understand? Why do they keep doing things that hurt me time and again? I really don’t understand, am I really still their own son?”

Old Master Zhang felt uneasy hearing these words from his grandson. He also understood that this is the demon in his grandson’s heart. If he can’t emerge from under this shadow, no matter how much he does, no matter how much he tries, it will ultimately be in vain. Everything has to be experienced by him, understood by him, for him to truly grow up.

”Child, never think of things that make you unhappy. No matter how your parents treat you, after all, they are your parents. No matter how much harm they cause, you must always feel grateful in your heart. If it weren’t for them, you wouldn’t be here. No matter what your situation is now, it’s because they gave you life that you have the chance to reach life’s peak today. Your current peak might be unattainable for many throughout their lives. Do you know how many people fight bloodily to reach such heights, but still fail to enter upper society? You were born into a prestigious family, already far surpassing many in terms of family background. So, never dwell on these things. Just remember, as long as your heart holds gratitude, no matter how much your parents push you away, there will always be a day of reunion in this life. Grandpa knows such harm is really unforgettable for you, but there’s nothing else to be done...”

I just didn’t expect that my selfish desires would make you endure all this. I didn’t expect that what I thought could bring us happiness would ultimately lead us to such an end!