My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1827: Chapter 1621: Beyond Happiness

I don’t want to explain those things about you anymore, nor do I want to pursue them relentlessly.

Zhang Zhentian knew that Xia Jing’s willingness to make such a concession for him today was already a difficult thing. If he kept asking for more, he would only become a greedy person. How could he let the woman he loves get hurt again and again because of his requests?

For her, what she wanted was slowly coming true. Perhaps the heavens would not disappoint her demands; she just wanted her family to stay by her side. Maybe this could really happen soon. As long as she kept her original intentions unchanged, it would surely come true one day.

Xia Jing looked at Zhang Zhentian as she did when they first met. She knew her husband had once again fallen deeply in love, and this time, perhaps he would be unable to extricate himself. However, this was not what she wanted to see.

She never imagined everything would turn out this way, but it had become a reality, a foregone conclusion. What could she possibly do to change it?

Who wouldn’t use others for their own desires, and who wouldn’t stop at nothing to get what they once wanted, even if it meant hurting those who cared about them the most?

Everyone climbs step by step. Every person stands on the shoulders of others, trying desperately to climb. But who knows that it’s because they fought so hard to climb that things became the way they are today, leaving everyone to realize how many mistakes they’ve made in their lives?

”Xia Jing, thank you. Your decision today came as such a delightful surprise to me. I never thought you could be moved by me one day. Day by day, I waited for this moment, and now it’s finally here!

Maybe you don’t understand how much I long for you to become someone I desire. All I want is you. Even if I were given the whole world, it wouldn’t matter. I only want you by my side and want you to know that in this lifetime, I genuinely want to be with you!

Maybe every word I say seems like a lie to deceive you, but do you know that every word I’ve spoken to you comes from the heart? I’ve never thought of deceiving you, even if you used unscrupulous means to deceive me. Even after knowing the truth, I’m still willing to foolishly believe in you, because no one can understand the depth of my love for you.

You have repeatedly disappointed my sincere heart for you. You always think I’m deceiving you.

You’ve never considered my feelings, and you can’t comprehend the despair in my heart at that moment.

But now, I have become like this. For you, I’ve gradually grown numb, and for you, I’ve even hurt my family time and again.

I no longer know what I’m incapable of doing anymore. So I really hope you won’t push me again and again. I just want to live a peaceful life; please don’t let me suffer more torment and pain, okay?”

Xia Jing felt there was no way to immediately answer her husband, but it’s impossible to force it. If they don’t have each other in their hearts, why stay together and increase each other’s troubles?

Rather than staying together and making each other’s life unstable, it’s better to go separate ways, granting each other a way out, allowing everyone to be happy. At least there’s still a life to live in this world, and truly, she doesn’t know how to express her inner thoughts to him.

Maybe speaking out her innermost thoughts would make her husband turn unreasonable again, possibly even doing something crazier, which is not impossible.

”Zhentian, actually, I’m not sure how to speak to you about some things now, because I’m afraid that once I do, you’ll become more unreasonable.

You know how everyone got to where they are now. Everyone got success through their efforts, putting in far more effort than anyone else. We have become like this now; do you think we can ever go back to the way it was?

Even if you choose to act ignorant, even if I disregard everything that happened, do you think my heart won’t feel the slightest guilt?

I’m not heartless. I feel everything you’ve done for me. I’ve just chosen silence, thinking that if I remain silent and pretend not to understand, maybe one day you’ll give up. But I didn’t expect my silence to last decades, and you silently gave so much for so many years. These feelings are invaluable in my eyes, so much so that I don’t know how to bear them, and I don’t know how to handle them.

Perhaps you think that your efforts for me are worthwhile. But from my perspective, it wasn’t worth it; it was just you foolishly giving your all alone!

Sometimes I really want to scream and tell you that I too want to spend happy days with you, but I am not a Saint. My heart can only accommodate one man in my lifetime. Even if my heart occasionally beats for you, that’s not love; it’s just being moved by everything you did for me!

You should understand that being moved is not love. Choosing a lifetime partner just based on being moved repeatedly is unrealistic. This society is so cruel; it will only make us see clearly the outcomes we face again and again.

Do you understand what I’m saying?”

What more does Zhang Zhentian need to understand? However, he doesn’t want to admit it and can only continue to foolishly give his all as before, hoping the heavens will favor him one day.

”No matter what, I still sincerely thank you this time for giving me a chance, for trying to love me for me. That is, to me, wonderful news. I won’t ask for more because that would be counterproductive!”

The past with you should disappear with the wind, never to be mentioned again.