My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1813: Chapter 1607: Forced

Once, this home was forced into chaos, and during that time, I felt completely isolated from the world, believing that no one would have any connection with me anymore.

Ran Zhihan said his piece and then turned to leave. He needed to return home quickly; he didn’t want to continue letting this scandal play out here. He knew this was a war between two men, but why did it have to involve him, an innocent person?

Zhang Yichen watched his wife turn and leave; how could he not be anxious? He quickened his pace to catch up, and when they both returned home, Zhang Yichen saw that Ran Zhihan had already packed all his luggage—his closet was now empty, without a single piece of his wife’s clothing. He realized that his wife’s wings had grown stronger and she was increasingly unwilling to share her true feelings with him. His heart began to feel unsettled.

”Ran Zhihan, what do you mean? Are you planning to move out looking like this? Do you think moving out now has any meaning? Can’t you live here peacefully? In your eyes, am I still your husband?”

”What do you mean, am I still your husband in your eyes? Do you see me as your wife in your eyes? You know that this matter has absolutely nothing to do with me, yet you still blame me, put all the blame on me. What do you really want me to do? Do you not see me as your wife in your world? I don’t want much, I just want to live a peaceful life with you. Why is that so difficult?

I don’t want to hear why you’re telling me you care about me, that you acted impulsively because you care too much. To you, I’m nothing, just a pet you can summon and dismiss at will. You and Chen Gang both treat me as a tool to be used. I don’t understand; I just want to live a peaceful life, why is that so difficult? Do you see me as an object or a commodity to be traded at will? Why do you both have to simultaneously hurt one person? My inner world is not strong; I can’t endure being hurt and doubted by you two time and time again. You and Chen Gang are no different now, blinded by your self-interest, causing harm to your loved ones, while I, on the other hand, am hurt again and again, doubted again and again by the man I love most. Do you still trust me?”

”Is it truly that I haven’t given you trust? When I gave you trust, you always found me easy to deceive. You always think no matter what mistake you make, I won’t care. But now you understand that things aren’t like that. Missed is missed; you’re no longer who you were, and neither am I. We truly don’t share that many commonalities anymore, so please understand my intentions. What I want is not much; it’s the same as what you want, but together we’ve both hurt each other’s hearts.

But no matter what, you’ve always existed in my inner world. I’ve always seen you as the person I love most. I’ve never thought we’d argue one day, that we’d be so at odds. You know? Now this home has already been turned upside down and can’t withstand any of our conflicts. I beg you to calm down, to think carefully. What consequences will your actions have? Do you truly believe leaving me will still allow you to live as comfortably as now?”

Ran Zhihan listened to Zhang Yichen’s words and laughed.

”So that’s what you think inside, huh? You also think I chose to be with you because of money. You never believe I chose to be with you out of love. Do you really look down on me like that? Do all of you see me as such a vain woman? I can live without money and without anyone accompanying me, but I cannot live without my dignity. Trampling on my dignity like this, you will regret it one day. You know everything done today is merely Chen Gang’s delaying tactic, yet you believed his words, doubted me time after time. In your heart, I’ve already ceased to exist, so why put on such a genuine act in front of me?

I’m dying to ask what I am to you inside your heart? Why won’t you give me a single ounce of trust? I know trust between spouses is built bit by bit. No one will hand over all their trust initially. I can understand your repeated doubts about me; I just want some trust from you in my heart. But ultimately, no matter what I do, you never believe me, you always think every word I say is deceiving you. In your view, do people who’ve made mistakes have no chance to be good again? Do you think no one makes errors in this world but you? You keep making mistakes and continue utilizing others’ love for you, while others must bear lifetime pain for one careless mistake?

Zhang Yichen, once I loved you desperately, and to gain your trust in me, I went out of my way to please everyone at home and treated them sincerely. At that moment, I felt my efforts were worth it; at least I sensed your attitude towards me was changing and you were slowly coming to trust me. But in the end, I discovered that all this was just you deceiving me. You never actually trusted me, yet you pretended to. Again and again, if it’s just to hurt me better, have you hurt me, do you truly feel happy inside? Hurting me, do you not feel any pain at all inside? Why? Why do you treat me like this, someone you love so much, someone I love so much, to give me a little trust is so hard?”

”Yes, because you’ve made mistakes, I choose not to trust you. Because you’ve made mistakes before, I choose never to trust you in my life.

Perhaps you find this treatment of you too harsh, but do you comprehend how much pain I felt internally when you hurt me? You don’t know my inner suffering, my torment. What right do you have to judge me here? What if you are my wife or not my wife? To you, you can be indifferent to me, so why should I be so concerned about you, letting him forcibly keep you by my side, allowing you to enjoy wealth and luxury?”

I used to always feel understood but now realize no one understands me, no one knows how deeply lonely I am inside.