My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1592: Chapter 1386: Fragments

Ran Zhihan truly doesn’t know how to explain this matter to her husband now. Even though she’s clarified everything so clearly, why is it that in the end, he still refuses to believe her? Can a marriage without trust truly bring her happiness? She’s constantly reflecting on herself, yet each time, she feels pressured to make a decision, to commit herself to a lifetime with him. But the final outcome has hurt her so much; how can her heart find balance? The person she has loved so diligently for so many years has treated her like this in the end.

Ran Zhihan now wants to say nothing at all and just turn around and leave. But when her husband sees his wife turning away, he instantly becomes unhappy. Is he not even willing to give an explanation now? Why is it so difficult to give a convincing explanation? Does he think she’s not even entitled to an explanation in his heart?

”Where do you want to go? Stand there and don’t move. Things haven’t been explained clearly. Are you planning to leave quietly again? Don’t you think your actions are immoral? I’ve sacrificed so much for you, yet you betray me and do these things. Do you really think I wouldn’t care? Do you plan on leaving just like that, leaving me alone here, not even taking care of our biological son? Do you think this is something a mother should do?

No matter what happens, you should at least give me a reasonable explanation. Otherwise, I’ll just think you’re avoiding it, unwilling to tell me the truth. Do you think we can still live happily together like this? I believe you wouldn’t want to live such a painful life. Everyone’s pride is very strong; you have your pride, your principles, and I have my dignity, especially since I am a man.

If you switch roles and were a man, and you clearly knew your wife had an affair with another man, yet you had to pretend as if nothing happened and continue to be lovey-dovey with her, wouldn’t you find it disgusting?

To be honest, whenever we’re intimate, just thinking about how you were once so close with another man pains me deeply. You’ve never cared about my feelings, always assuming that when I say I don’t care, I really don’t. But I’m not a Saint; all I ever wanted was a complete marriage. Yet you’ve thoroughly disappointed me. I thought that if I tried hard enough, made sure you had no worries about food or clothing, allowing you to live without working, it would be enough. But reality gave me a harsh slap; my wife spent a night and day with another man, while I, as a husband, could only wait at home. What returned to me was not even a word of explanation; how would you feel?

Zhihan, I’m not a wooden figure. I can’t do what those ordinary men in humble families do. They know their wife cheated, but still carry on living as if nothing happened. They have ulterior motives, but I am different. I have everything I want now, and all of it came from my hard work. I’ve never taken shortcuts; I just lived a tougher life than others from a young age. I’ve earned everything through my efforts.

I think all these are things I should get through my hard work. Why shouldn’t I have what I have now? But you, what have you contributed? Simply living with me for a few years, and you’ve received everything. You’ve easily conquered the whole world, while I, who conquered the world, only conquered me. But now, I won’t foolishly let you use me as before. I’m no longer the person I used to be. I know each mistake I made in your eyes might be nothing, but to me, it’s a lifelong pain. Maybe this pain will keep me from lifting my head for the rest of my life. You willingly live your happy days, while I, alone, endure all the pain and torment. My heart is in deep agony, yet you act as if nothing happened. How can my heart be at ease? How can I just let this go?”

”Actually, I never said anything other to you from the beginning. What I want isn’t much. You seek a stable married life, and I’ve always wanted to live peacefully. Isn’t that the best for us? I admit I wronged you, but was it my real intention? I didn’t intend for these things to happen. It all happened because I fell into someone’s trap. Why can’t you understand my inner thoughts a bit?

Do you think I was joyful and happy every day after that incident? You’re wrong. I lived through those days in great pain, too. I never dare imagine how I got through each day. I just know all of this was nothing but the consequence I brought upon myself alone. I have no other method and have no one to blame.

I didn’t want this to happen, but the reality is right before us. How could I possibly undo it all? I just wanted your forgiveness. Only if you sincerely forgive me can I stay by your side, serving you wholeheartedly, living with you for life. Yet you keep clinging to this, refusing to let go. Where does that leave me? Don’t you know what I want?”

Zhang Yichen was silent. How could he not know what his wife truly wants? These years, he’s grown to understand her so well, yet he refuses to acknowledge this reality. She doesn’t want to admit that he has continuously held onto this issue, yet his heart truly suffers. Some things can’t just be let go, as they involve matters of his dignity and the reputation of the entire family. He can only choose to suppress everything for the family’s sake. But won’t things really be dug out by those with intentions?

In the end, he could only choose to protect his demeanor and let this matter remain unresolved.