My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1585: Chapter 1379: Friends?

”Yichen, everyone in this world is the same; not many are good people. You might think I’m making a sweeping statement, but there are things you only realize once you experience them yourself—they’re just so disgusting!

You have to understand, there are too many such people in the world. Sometimes if you just let go, nothing becomes an issue.”

Zhang Yichen never expected his mother to think this way today, even less so that she would use this method to enlighten him. He had often imagined his family would support him in times of difficulty, but he never expected this day would actually come. When it did become reality, he couldn’t express how happy he was. Initially, he thought it would always be like this, but he could never have predicted the larger upheavals that lay ahead. Repeated family crises gradually eroded his confidence in his family and finally led him to completely lose trust in his parents.

”Mom, I don’t need you to guide me in this way; I need you to be honest with me. I don’t want us to argue repeatedly over trivial matters. Do you know how long I’ve wished to see a scene like this today? Who can understand the excitement and happiness I feel now? I long for this moment to stay forever. Even though my family isn’t happy, at least my parents have given me care and love. How could I not be happy deep down? I never thought I would one day receive the concern and love of my parents. Now that it’s all a dream come true, I am truly joyous, not knowing what words to use to describe my current feelings or how excited I am!”

”Child, if you need us, your dad and I will always be by your side, giving you all the care and support you need, no matter what difficulties you encounter in the future or whatever you accomplish, I’ll give you the greatest help. On the day when you make me feel this is the happiest and most joyful day of my life, I’ll be very happy. Every decision I’ve made was never about what my life would be like, but this scene today has truly moved me. I never expected my son would say such heartfelt words to me.

Do you know how many years I’ve been waiting for this scene, endlessly yearning for it, but now, only now have I seen it? Do you know the agony I’ve endured? How painful and hard it’s been to let go?

Perhaps I’ve done many bad things in the past, causing everyone around me pain and suffering deeply, but I believe that if I sincerely repent, one day I can be with someone whom I truly love and who truly loves me.

I’ve made many mistakes in the past, I know that, but I also believe that as long as I live with integrity, I can become the person I want to be, wherever and whenever. I’m not a Saint; I can’t live without cares in my heart. I want to genuinely remember every story I’ve experienced.

Truly, this has been difficult living this way. During the period before I gained your forgiveness, every day was painful for me, but I never considered the outcome. Still, I’ve taken one step at a time to get here. I don’t understand what kind of willpower has kept me going this long. During the time away from home, I lived freely but without happiness. Now back home, despite the pain, I’m doing what I truly want to do, obtaining the ending I most desire. I have no reason to blame anyone else. The mistakes I made must ultimately be my responsibility. Only then can everything fade away. Escaping responsibility can’t solve anything. What you’ve said in the past few days is so true. I never expected my husband to consistently avoid responsibility, becoming so timid and cowardly. He’s not the man I knew, and I don’t understand what led to him becoming like this today.

Perhaps in your eyes, you think all his changes are linked to me, and it’s my fault he’s like this now. But who knows how hard it’s been for me? The pain I’ve endured with every move? When will others finally understand the agony in my heart? I’ve held on step by step until today; what have I been striving for?

Sometimes, I feel incredibly foolish, deceived repeatedly, yet I still entrust all my faith in them time after time. I don’t understand why he’s acted this way, why I’m seemingly beyond hope, why I’ve taken this approach to shoulder the responsibility I least wanted, and why I ended up so humiliated.

Child, I know you want to ask if I regret every action and mistake I’ve made over the years. Now, I can tell you clearly, I’ve never regretted them. Furthermore, there’s no cure for regret in this world. Even if you deeply repent, what’s the reward? Even if you regret so much that it eats at you, there’s no way to undo the consequences!

The greatest harm in the world is betrayal. Once someone chooses to betray, it’s destined that there’s no future between you. Whether they’re friends, family, or lovers, you’ll never again be as close as you once were. Because it’s no longer suitable, even if you’re kind to them, you mean nothing in their eyes, and they have no place for you. Likewise, you have no patience for them, and that means game over!

Once everything surpasses your imagination and there’s no way to turn back, you’ll realize what you’ve lost, missed, and given up on. You’ll never know whether your past actions were right or wrong. You only know the mistakes you made may never be forgotten.”