My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1573: Chapter 1367: Helpless Tears

The most perfect moment is when fireworks bloom, it’s the most beautiful, yet like the brief bloom of an epiphyllum.

The flowers I bring with my financial success are for the brave dreams I care about, never retreating despite the pain!

”Zhentian, if there is a next life, I would still be willing to live with you, because you truly are a great man. But now, I can’t continue living with you, the paths we’ve chosen have already determined the ending we will face, and I don’t want that ending to make us even more embarrassed.

Since today is the last time we meet, listen to my innermost thoughts. When I was with you and looked at you, my heart unexpectedly skipped a beat, and I knew in that moment that I was deeply captivated by you, unable to alter it for the rest of my life.

But later I realized that even though I love you so much, I am nothing in your heart. I don’t know why you initially chose to be with me, but my reason for being with you was not your money, family background, or status. If I cared about those, I could have been with a man far better off than you. But I didn’t do that because I know I’m a civilian’s daughter, incomparable to the daughters of a Wealthy Family, so I couldn’t match you in status. Initially, your father also opposed us being together, which really disheartened me. I never thought the path of love could be so hard, but when I saw you stand up against your father for me, I realized you truly loved me. Whether that love was pretended or with another motive, my heart was comforted. From then on, I didn’t want much, just hoped the person I love could unconditionally give of himself, love me, and truly see me as part of his life plan.

Although at that time, the decisions we both made were unbelievable, thinking back to our youth and recklessness, isn’t it a precious memory for us? Remembering those times made me very happy, thank you for leaving me with so many memories that can never be erased. These memories will always stay in my heart, I will not forget, though I cannot control whether you remember or not. Perhaps you’ll forget me, but I won’t, for I truly loved you from the start. Yet you chose to use me. Don’t bother explaining now, my intuitions were accurate, knowing well that you were using me, but still, I followed you blindly, even when knowing I would be wounded. But I still wanted to be with you, not asking for anything else. Yet ultimately, your return was distrust and doubt. In such a marriage, what’s the point for me? Better to end early, as it was not the happiest marriage for both. During that time, I don’t know if you were happy, but I was, in the happiest period of my life, willing to give up everything to wander with you. I’m grateful for this gratitude, and these debts will last a lifetime, unable to compensate. Knowing you’ve lost so much, making it impossible for me to make it up to you, but hope you know many things. Since you’ve made a decision, don’t think about reconciling, as it’s unrealistic...

I’ve said everything I wanted; see if there’s anything you want to say. Since today is our last meeting, this will be your only chance.”

Zhang Zhentian knew every word Xia Jing said was true. He knew if this woman chose to hide from him, no matter how he searched, he wouldn’t find her. The power behind her was so strong he couldn’t make it disappear, only comply. So he must seize the moment to speak before losing the chance to say a word.

”Maybe you think I was with you for ulterior motives, not love, but I have a clear conscience. Even if I was not with you, my love remains. After you left, I realized such love is not easily forgotten. But I must bear the consequences of my wrongdoing, can’t blame it all on you. I know my decisions hurt you, yet you never left me, persistently stood by me, already a great comfort. Knowing everything was unfair to you, I never stood up for you, never considered from your standpoint, an unworthy husband and man. I won’t be as I was, maybe you can forget me, but I understood what I wanted for my life. Now, I know I’m not someone who chases profits blindly, willing to give up everything for love, and still can for someone I love. I don’t care for money, status, fame, or power; I only care if I can have the life I want. The life I want now misses you and isn’t perfect. I believe I can find you and build a perfect life, hoping you’ll wait for me to find you. No matter where you are, I will find you, even to the ends of the earth, till I’ve found you. Even if it exhausts me before seeing you, I have no regrets.

I ask for nothing but not to despair when I find you. I only wish for us to be together again. If you give me despair once more, I would truly collapse, unable to withstand such ups and downs. I know my mistakes, the despair you gave has made me deeply feel the approach of death. I know such despair is terrifying!”

One knows what their pain feels like after all the hurt they’ve endured.

Regardless if love is wrong or right, I can’t forget my love for you in my heart!