My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1563: Chapter 1357: Not Understanding

All the things that were once unclear will eventually be resolved, and all that I once gained and lost will sink like a stone into the sea.

I was once confused, unsure of who the person I loved most gave their love to, uncertain whether it was love collapsing or if I had made the wrong choice.

In truth, Old Master Zhang never actually considered his son and ultimately abandoned his own family one day.

He now doesn’t know if what he did was right or wrong. It was he who instilled such beliefs in his son, and also he who personally educated his son into adulthood. But now, with his son making such a decision, who can he blame? Isn’t it just that he can only blame himself for taking the wrong direction in his son’s education? He doesn’t understand how he should speak to his son in a way that could change the current situation. Time and again, he has become unsure of how to communicate with his son. He gave everything, hoping only that his son could be happy, but the result was repeated misunderstandings from his son. His son has never understood how difficult it is for him to be a father.

”I have to admit, you are my son. Now that you have this realization, as a father, of course, I feel comforted. But no matter what, you are the child I taught with my own hands. Now you say such things, isn’t it tormenting for me, as a father, deep down? I also want you to have your own responsibilities, but leaving your family behind, do you think that’s taking responsibility? Teacher Li pushed everyone in the family to the brink step by step. You always believe every decision you make is right, but family members feel sad because of your decisions. You have forgotten that your family still exists in this world. You have pushed your family out of your mind. Deep down, is there anything more important than your family?

When you repeatedly say you want to leave this family and go out adventuring, we already knew that even if you stayed, your heart wasn’t here because what you always had inside was an outside soul. Your soul doesn’t belong to this family.

I really want to know, now that you have made this decision, when your son returns, how do you want him to accept a father who abandons him once more? How he longs for you, as a father, to stay by his side, and you know that better than anyone. But what about you? You continually make such decisions, placing him in an uncertain position again; doesn’t his heart feel tortured?

You are my son; I have said this no less than ten times. I still hope you can think carefully about whether what you’re doing is right or wrong, whether this makes your family happy. If what you have done only brings damage and pain to your family, then I tell you, you have succeeded in your goal, because every family member feels discouraged by your actions. You no longer have to be cautious about everything as you did before. You can boldly do whatever you want, and no one will stop you anymore because deep down, you have only them and not us as relatives.

It’s understandable that you love your wife dearly, but loving your wife doesn’t necessarily mean you have to take her and fly away, nor does it mean you have to yield to her in everything or consider her feelings alone. Just showing him more love and more companionship each day will lead to a different outcome. But you have forgotten that this is the best way to accompany your relatives.

A decision made thoughtlessly and without consideration won’t get support from anyone. Perhaps you think your decision is absolutely right now, but one day you will realize that your actions are wrong because your actions have hurt everyone who loves you the most.

Sometimes I really want to advise you to use your brain when doing things, to think more about how your relatives feel deep inside, but I don’t know where to begin. It’s all because of my failure as a father to guide you properly that you’ve ended up in such a misunderstanding, making you think everything you do is correct. But is that really the case? Are all your actions truly correct? You’ve forgotten the essential principles of being a person. You’ve forgotten every piece of advice your family has given you. You only remember that you have a wife, for whom you can sacrifice everything, but he also hopes that you can stay in this family. I hope you all can live in this family together, and your actions are so disappointing!

I once thought I would rather not have you as a son. I thought about striking you out from memory completely. Time and again, I forcibly chose to reign in my emotions, but I found that was all just self-deception. You are deeply rooted in my mind; how could I possibly forget my own child, the one I painstakingly raised?

I really hope that sometimes, when you do things, you can consider the difficulties your family faces, to think about what consequences your actions have brought to your family members. I don’t know how to explain this to you, but do you know how your actions have made your family feel time and again? You haven’t considered your son, let alone considered me as your father. You act arbitrarily, thinking that you can do anything you wish, but you’ve forgotten your family. They have also suffered significant harm because of this. You never care about who gets hurt, as long as it’s not your wife or yourself, you think it’s irrelevant. Aren’t we your relatives?”

”I haven’t, I never thought of it that way. Deep inside, you are forever my family, that is an unchangeable fact, and you know how much I want everyone in this family to happily live together. Is everything I did wrong?

Dad is still above me, but have you thought about when I am bearing all the faults and pains alone? Isn’t my heart also tormented? That’s my biological father, and yet my father doesn’t understand me, putting all the blame on me as a son. My heart hurts the same, but I can only choose to endure without speaking...”

I have nowhere to retreat to. When I give everything, I never thought about whether it was right or wrong; I only know that my pain is unspeakable...

Heartbreak for a moment might bring long-term happiness and give you a clearer view of someone’s heart.