My Alleged Husband

Chapter 2046: Chapter 1839: Never Leaving, Never Forsaking

No matter what happens, true feelings mean not giving up and sticking together. No one wishes to relinquish all this, as everyone holds tight to what belongs to them.

”Chen Gang, it shouldn’t be like this between us. I know all these years you’ve been waiting for me, but we’re really not suitable. When we were classmates, my heart was hardened enough to reject you, which proves I’ll never be with you in this lifetime. You should have let go of all hopes then and stopped waiting foolishly for me. Now, after all these years of waiting, you come back expecting me to divorce my husband. Do you think that’s possible?

I don’t care whether my marriage is happy or not. A happy marriage is something you fight for and maintain diligently. If my marriage isn’t happy, it simply proves I’m not capable; I can’t make my husband love me wholeheartedly. What about you?

You still haven’t married. You can find a complete woman who loves you fully and spend the rest of your life with her. Why waste your time on a woman like me who’s already married? It’s not worth it!”

”Zihan, to me, there’s no such thing as worth or not worth. I only know I can’t let go of you. For so many years, you’ve always held the most important place in my heart. I’m constantly thinking of you. I don’t know how to forget you; I’ve tried but I can’t. I’ve tried to be with others to forget my feelings for you, but it never works!

I know you can’t let go of your pride. You can’t give up on your husband, because you think he loves you the most. But do you know that my love for you is no less than his? Throughout the years, my longing for you is beyond what you understand. I yearn for the day you agree to be with me, even for just a day as a couple. That would satisfy me.

I originally thought that once I returned from studying abroad, I would see you again and this time keep hold of your hand and really be with you. But I never expected that when I finally came back, you had already married and had a child.

Have you considered how painful these changes are for me? I only want a peaceful life, but I can’t have it. Why can you live happily here, getting everything you want, while I wait foolishly for the day you might be with me? Is this fair to me?

Although I know there’s no true fairness in this world, don’t you want to understand my true feelings? Have you never felt anything for me? All I want is a woman who feels something for me and to be with her. We grew up and studied together; we know each other better than anyone. Will you really not give me a chance to be your lifelong partner and spend your life with me?”

As Chen Gang spoke, his emotions grew increasingly intense. This was the most painful day of his life, seeing the woman he loved standing before him, yet he felt powerless. She was already someone else’s wife, and he could only watch her live happily with another, unable to do anything. How he wished time could turn back a few years, that back then he would abandon all his studies and quickly return home. Perhaps things wouldn’t be as bad as they are now. If it hadn’t turned out this way, how could everything be so difficult?

”Chen Gang, actually you’re wrong. Even though we studied together from a young age, and our understanding is second to none, but do you know? I met my current husband before I even started school. I decided back then that I would marry him and he promised he would return to marry me. All these years, I’ve been waiting for him, striving to find him. Finally, I found him; how could I easily give up this love of my life for someone insignificant? Even if my marriage is currently strained, I don’t care. What matters to me is being able to be with him. But now, having these events with you, how can I face him?

You’re right; my love is only your wishful thinking. You’ve never cared about what I want. You always think that when you tell me you love me, it’s real love. But do you know? What you’ve done is not love but harm. If you truly loved me, you wouldn’t have acted like this and deprived me of face to confront my husband. You want me to divorce him, but why? Perhaps today I’ll argue with him, but I don’t care. He may kick me out or take me to get divorced, but I don’t care. All I want is to stay by his side and genuinely be his wife. I won’t give up the love that took years to earn.

I beg you to let me go. To forgive others is to forgive yourself, isn’t that so? Why be so persistent? It’s not good for anyone. What you’ve done hurts me and even more so hurts you. Perhaps my marriage will shatter because of today’s incident, but there’s nothing I can do about it. Although I’m not mainly at fault, I don’t have the face to face my husband who loves me so deeply, who provides me with everything I could want. Yet I hurt him like this; how can I expect him to keep loving me? Even if I divorced him, I wouldn’t be with you, because someone like you doesn’t deserve it.

I fully understand that as lowly as I am, I have no right to say such things, but I hope you understand that once I make a decision, no one can change it. The only result is that not even friends are possible. Since you’ve acted this way, let’s not have any contact in the future. Let it end here!”

Love is not child’s play; mutual affection is the most moving of all.