My Alleged Husband

Chapter 2019: Chapter 1812: Moved

Sometimes, being moved isn’t because of anything else, but because one is unwilling to give up that luxurious hope deep within their heart.

After hearing Zhang Zhentian say those words, Xia Jing’s tears couldn’t stop flowing. He was truly touched; saying he wasn’t moved was impossible. All his life, he had been longing for the day he could receive the deepest confession of love from his husband. Perhaps this day came too late, but he was immensely grateful. Grateful that during this time, on the brink of separation, he could hear his husband’s heartfelt confession, a confession he had longed for over many years but never realized, and today it finally came true. However, the realization of this also meant facing separation—perhaps there was no way to continue being together for the rest of their lives. His heart was still very reluctant; after all, this was a husband he had lived with for over a decade. To sever all ties so decisively, who could act so ruthlessly?

When he wanted Zhang Zhentian to stop, to no longer speak those words, he found himself already deeply moved, unable to say anything, just quietly watching his husband confess to him, yet powerless. She wished so much for time to pause in this moment, to let her remember this scene forever, never forget him, not wanting to leave him just like that, wanting to continue living beside her husband. This desire made her heart skip a beat, thinking if there was a day her husband could let her return to his side again, thus no longer disheartened, then she would walk hand in hand with him, never speaking of separation again. But this day seemed too distant for both of them, even seemingly unreachable!

Next sentence, you know she was once again moved by her husband, causing her heart to beat once more because of this man. She wanted to prevent this from happening but found herself helpless. Even though she knew the man in front of her had hurt her deeply, hurt her so much, she still was choosing to jump into this whirlpool again. She never thought she would become so foolish. All she wanted for her life was something plain and simple, yet ultimately, because of this man, things turned rough and stumbling. She had dedicated so much for this man all along, but ultimately, he heartlessly abandoned her. Now, because of a few sweet words, he captures her heart once again!

”Stop talking.

Nothing is possible between us anymore. Although hearing you say these words makes my heart uncontrollably beat for you, I really don’t want to waste my time on you anymore. That waste has made me never want to continue wasting my youth on this matter. Ten plus years of youth, for you perhaps it means nothing, but for a woman, that’s the most precious time. I’ve exerted all my precious time on you, and ultimately, you repaid me by heartlessly discarding me. How could I not hate you? I can’t forget this hate; I can only keep it alive in my heart. I want you to understand that as long as I live, this hate for you will never disappear.

But I still thank you because, today, your words fulfilled my heart’s greatest longing. Since you’ve already fulfilled this expectation, then we shouldn’t contact each other anymore. If we continue, there will be no good outcome. It’s time for us to say goodbye to each other. After farewell, we will never contact again, which will let each return to the original place, making us always seem as if we never knew each other. We can start anew, belonging to each one’s own life. From now on, whoever it is, whether you marry or I have a family, it has nothing to do with either of us. Please don’t interfere with my life anymore. We’ve truly reached the end.

I know you want to say something, but please don’t. Let me speak while you quietly listen there. I’ll tell you every word from my heart. Thank you for the love you’ve given me. Thank you for every word you’ve said to me today. Every word you’ve said to me today, I will engrave it deeply, unforgettable for a lifetime. Even if in the future, I live with another man at the ends of the earth, I will not forget every word you said today. If back then you had said such words, I would have thought you were making a beautiful promise to me. I would be wholeheartedly devoted to you, but now I can’t be silly like I was before, giving up everything for you because you are not worthy.

That we’ve come to this point today, neither you nor I are to blame. If we are to blame, it can only be fate. That we could come this far isn’t the vision either of us wanted to see. No couple in this world hasn’t experienced separation and pain. As long as each ensures the heart remains unchanged, much can return to how it initially was. This sentence may mean nothing to you now, but gradually, you’ll understand. When I leave you, you’ll discover how, during the time we were together, you could live happily, and ultimately, you personally buried the greatest happiness we shared.”

”Xia Jing, I’m sorry. I can’t do anything right now, nothing at all. I can only deeply apologize to you. It’s my fault; I personally ruined the happiness between us, made you heartbroken, made you utterly disappointed with me. All of this is because of me. You became like this today, and if your heart truly can’t forgive me, then hate me for a lifetime. If hating me lets you remember me, then I don’t hope you can keep loving me. As long as you can think of me, even if it’s hate, I’m satisfied...”

Zhang Zhentian finished and left.

He feared continuing the conversation here would make him beg, make him ask his beloved woman to stay by his side. He didn’t want to lose his dignity again; his dignity had been thrown on the ground hard enough. How could he allow others to continue trampling on it? Absolutely not! He forcefully suppressed the pain in his heart, needing to make the right choice. Only this way could he realize many things have passed, could only become the past, there’s no way to return to how it started.

No one wants to be slapped in the face severely by others; it’s just that when it’s reached that point, it’s irreversible!