My Alleged Husband

Chapter 2027: Chapter 1820: Empathy

There’s nothing others can truly empathize with you about.

Zhang Zhentian laughed. At the very least, he knew that in the depths of his wife’s heart, there was still a place for him. But he also knew that some things couldn’t be forced. If, deep down, his wife didn’t love him, then he would never be truly happy, even if he were to force her to stay by his side. Ultimately, it would only bring him pain. So why treat him that way if it would end up like that? Shouldn’t two people be happy together? Why do some unhappy things make everything so sorrowful?

”In fact, there’s still a part of your heart that holds me, but I don’t occupy as significant a place as your ex-boyfriend. I will respect whatever decision you make!

I’ve never done anything right in this life. No matter what I do, it’s always wrong. In everyone’s eyes, I can never do anything right. What’s the point of living in this world? I’ve never felt that my life has been so failed. Everything I do is wrong, and I’ve never gotten even a hint of understanding from others, no matter how much I give. Even if I end up in unbearable pain, no one will care about me. You may think you’re happy inside, but who knows your heart is the most painful?

Everyone’s life path is walked by themselves. No matter what things one has done or what decisions one has made, in the end, it only brings a cold and indifferent response. Why can’t I get what I want in this lifetime? The one I love, I can never have, while those I don’t love keep staying by my side, and the one I love leaves me time and again. What sense does this make, this unrequited love? Who can really understand it?”

”You mean I don’t love you, yet I stayed by your side. But do you even know how much I’ve sacrificed for you? I’ve abandoned my own father, my family, my entire clan, just to be with you. For the sake of being with you, I’ve sacrificed so much, willing to pay any price. But why can’t you just empathize a bit with my heartfelt dedication? I just want to be with him peacefully!

No one goes through life without making mistakes, but when mistakes are made, you have to face them bravely. If you keep evading again and again, what kind of outcome will you get in the end? No matter how much I give in this lifetime, it’s just fleeting to others, they don’t care about all the sacrifices you once made for them. Everyone is so cruel, so malicious!

As the saying goes, nothing is harder to fathom than a woman’s heart. But my heart is inscrutable. All I want is a simple, steady love. Why does fate choose to treat me this way?

I honestly don’t know what I should do in this lifetime. The repeated emotional wounds have ultimately brought me indelible pain. Why is it that what I wish for again and again, I can never have, but what I don’t want insists on staying by my side? Does fate really dislike me so much, so deeply unfairly? Everyone’s hearts are made of flesh and can feel pain. Isn’t love supposed to be mutual? Yet I’ve given so much, my entire youth, my full heart, why in the end can only bring a heart of stone’s response? Is it really that I’m so unworthy of being loved even once by others? Even just once would be enough. No one on earth can live a truly happy life, but each decision I’ve made carries its own consequences, isn’t it?”

”You are already numb now. You don’t really know what you want. You only know how powerful your desires are deep down and are controlled by them again and again. You look at the person in front of you, your heart aches, and only then do you realize how much you love her, but she’s no longer yours. This lifetime, you’ll never have another chance to be together. Is there anyone who can live so happily, so blissfully in the world? Everyone is living in pain, all they want is the simplest of things, why does everyone can never have what they truly want?

I don’t regret giving up everything for you, even ignoring my own family. The thing I regret most in this lifetime is losing you. I just want to stay by your side steadily, why does fate play such a big joke on me? Why won’t it ever let me stay by your side? Does it really hate me so much? I keep numbing myself with the deep pain in my heart to get short-lived joy and happiness. But why, no matter what I do, can I never find joy and happiness? All I know is that my heart hurts so much, so much that I can’t breathe. That kind of pain, how painful it is, no one can understand. Everyone is so heartless!

The most painful thing in the world is not love’s separation, but unfulfilled love. Everyone has their own personality, career, and family. Perhaps, in the end, making a choice will render all efforts futile. Why does what I care about everything always stay by my side? Why is it so exhausting when all I want is to live simply?

Why does fate treat me this way? To be with the one I love the most? Why does it toy with me again and again, make so many meaningless jokes, causing me a lifetime of unbearable pain?”

”There is no such thing as right or wrong in the world, only willingness or reluctance. I see all of my sacrifices in my eyes, but I truly cannot love you as the man who loves me does. In this lifetime, I’ll never have the chance to love you. My heart has already been given to him, no matter when or where, my heart will never appear in front of you again. I used to think, if I were to be with you, what kind of outcome I would face, I questioned myself again and again if it was really worth it?

I have already numbed myself. I don’t know what all these things I’ve done are truly for, but now I just want to live steadily. I just want her to return to my side. To me, nothing else matters. I’m willing to give up everything, so long as she can turn back!”

Letting go is easy, but holding on tightly is very difficult!