My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1269: Chapter 1098: That Moment

”No matter what kind of endings we have experienced, or what kind of pain we’ve been through, in that final moment, what I really wish for is that everyone can live happily, live joyfully. I never imagined I would lose so much, but what I’ve lost can never return.”

Zhang Zhentian knows that everything his son said is true, but all his life he has only thought about loving so deeply, loving Xia Jing wholeheartedly.

He believes that in a lifetime, finding someone who genuinely loves you is really tough. Even though the person he loves doesn’t have him in her heart, as long as he can love her, what does it matter?

If one always does things with efficiency in mind, always weighing if others will repay them, always thinking if their efforts will earn them gratitude from others.

If that’s the case, then what’s the point of living in this world? Living like that, apart from feeling good about trading with others, what kind of true love could one find? Others would just think your efforts are merely transactions, then would they still want to be with you?

”My child, everyone has a different perspective on things. Don’t try to enforce your methods to carry out my thoughts because it’s impractical. If my heart is really set on loving her, no matter what anyone says, nothing you decide will change anything. Let that idea go.

No matter how things are, she is still your mother after all.

The least you should have is respect for your mother. No matter what issues lie between her and me, it has nothing to do with you. Live your life peacefully, why get involved? Doing this only makes everyone think you’re unusual. You won’t achieve any good outcome or earn any praise this way!”

Zhang Yichen was nearly driven mad with anger by his father. Everything he did was for his father’s sake, yet why did his father see all his efforts as wrong? Is he truly impossible to reason with?

Clearly, everything he did was just to keep the family stable, to make his mother realize how much his father loves her, hoping it would move her and make her love his father, even just a little bit.

However, in his father’s eyes, his actions were unnecessary. His father didn’t appreciate him at all; instead, he thought Yichen was meddling too much.

”Do what you want, from now on I won’t get involved or ask about your matters. You love my mother however you like. I meant well by trying to help you, but you think I’m harming you!

No matter how much resentment or grievance I have against you, I won’t harm you because you’re my father. I’m dissatisfied with my mother, but I’ve never wanted to cause discord between you because of it!

You’re underestimating me. Do I lack even the most basic principles of being a person? Just because you abandoned me, do I have to act with vengeance in everything?

Revenge is not my intention. I won’t deal with anything in a vengeful way. If I truly wanted to retaliate, you wouldn’t simply end up with just a quarrel. Not speaking about certain things doesn’t mean I can really endure them. You’ve wronged me over and over again. In your eyes, what am I, something to wrong so easily? Have you ever considered what I truly want inside my heart?

Even if you’ve wronged me countless times, I won’t seek revenge. My years of studying were not in vain; I painstakingly pushed myself to reach the pinnacle. Do you think I would ruin my lifetime’s prospects on a whim because of you?

Just to avenge your impulsive actions, should I wager my life’s happiness and fate? I’m not a fool; I wouldn’t do it, because it’s not worth it!

When I chose to say this to you today, yet you heartlessly suspected I was harming you, from the moment I turned away, I’d decided not to be concerned with you anymore. Whatever you do has no effect on me!

Because we’ve long severed ties, I just want to make it clear some things should be done, some shouldn’t, and some should not be condoned. Since you’ve made this decision today, don’t blame others for not getting any return in the future.”

After Zhang Yichen finished speaking, he truly turned and left. If he stayed any longer, he feared he’d be suffocated. He tried to help his father with good intentions, but why did his father only see it as harming him?

Does he really appear so menacing that everyone has to avoid him?

Xia Jing knew her son was about to come out, so she turned away quickly.

She absolutely couldn’t let her child know she heard all the conversations from outside the door. If that were the case, her son might hold even more against her. Although she knew her son’s words were without malice, in her view, her heart still ached faintly.

After all, he was her son. Why did he hold such a significant bias against her?

In her son’s eyes, she was just a heinous mother, no matter what she did, it was useless—there was no right decision. But why did her life make her child hold such a bias?

When she heard the doctor answer her son, her heart was not happy at all.

Despite treating her husband like this, he still defended her when others spoke ill of her in front of him.

Can she not slightly open her heart to him?

If she opened her heart to him, even a bit, allowed him into her heart slightly, would the outcome not be entirely different? Every man wants his wife to love him sincerely, not always thinking of another man. That is cruelly harsh to someone.

Perhaps, she should indeed learn to rely on him well. Else, once he truly turned away, she’d realize what she’d lost throughout life, by then would it not be too late?

Maybe the world is indeed fair, forcing her to put down things she never wanted to set aside in life, to accept facts she could never come to terms with in her lifetime...

As I watched you turn away, I knew that was the destined end, unable to change.