My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1268: Chapter 1097: Prayers Are Useless

”In life, you have to rely on yourself to live; relying on others is useless. If you always depend on others, then what do you count as?”

After a period of time, Xia Jing returned from abroad again. This time, he didn’t just want to continue living here; he also wanted to see how his son and family were doing. Five years had flown by, and in those five years, he disappeared entirely, failing to fulfill even a sliver of his responsibilities as an elder. He felt an immense guilt inside, but he had no way to resolve it. He constantly thought someone had to bear the errors he’d committed, and in those five years, he took on all the responsibilities he should have shouldered to pay back everything he owed. Sometimes, he didn’t even know why he was doing all this. But in the end, he realized there was indeed a reason—not just for the ones he loved, but for his own lifelong happiness and joy. He didn’t want his heart to carry any more guilt; living with guilt was exhausting. He wished for a peaceful life for himself, believing that was enough for the rest of his days. She had suffered too much hardships in this life. Occasionally, he would look back and think about how much he sacrificed to be with his beloved husband, yet the outcome was heartbreakingly painful. He never imagined his husband would cruelly abandon him, a persistent, indelible pain. He reflected and believed he never caused harm to his husband, always living blissfully with him, yet was left with such an outcome. Now, reflecting on those past events, he still couldn’t find happiness. Nonetheless, he believed one should move forward joyously and should not remain stagnant. Everyone must learn to grow for a truly happy life.

After returning to the country, he was always torn about whether to find his son and daughter-in-law. He didn’t know how to face these young couples, knowing he heartlessly abandoned them, leaving He Jie alone with pain. Since he chose this path, there’s no turning back now. Things have happened, and in this state, how can he face his son to seek forgiveness? He’s done so many wrong things; even if heaven didn’t punish him, that’s already a fortunate result. Why greedily seek more benefits?

”Yichen, did you know your mom has returned to the country again? I know I shouldn’t meddle in these matters anymore, but as a grandfather, I hope you understand. Your mother returned without reason, and I don’t know her intentions. But I hope you realize the difference between what should or shouldn’t be done. You shouldn’t struggle pointlessly as before. You know your mom abandoned you, which signifies she didn’t care. Don’t feel guilty about your mom’s abandonment anymore!”

”Isn’t she gone for good and not coming back? Why choose to return now? Is it because she regrets? She’s made choices multiple times; why regret now? Is she truly this fickle? I really don’t understand, in my mom’s heart, what am I as a son? I don’t know what they expect from me before they’re satisfied. I’m unsure what level I should reach to be considered a good son in her eyes. I hope my mom can accompany me, but every time, it ends in pain. She never accompanied me, always wanted to abandon me again and again, never considering keeping me by her side, never acknowledging me as her son. I too feel pain, too have feelings, never realizing I’d care, experiencing such pain too, Grandpa, five years have passed. Why is she suddenly choosing to return to the country again? What’s her reason? Could she consider me more when doing things? I hope my mom can consider me more and not act so selfishly anymore, making me feel weighed down. I never thought my mom could be so selfish and self-centered, but she returned once more. Will she selfishly abandon me again?”

Old Master Zhang knew early on this wouldn’t be resolved easily. He realized the impact on his grandson was too great, but never dared speak up, believing if he did, it would cause his grandson even more pain. He didn’t wish to see his grandson live in such sorrow; he just wanted those he cared about to live joyfully and peacefully, and that was enough.

”You don’t need to worry about school matters. You shouldn’t complicate things; you should know your mom abandoned you out of necessity, and in her heart, she sees you as most important. Your mom regards you highly, so you shouldn’t speak ill of her. Despite her actions, acknowledge that she gave you life, enabling you to have today. Regardless of her role on your growth path, harbor gratitude, and society will surely return your smile!”

”Alright, Grandpa, with my mom’s decision to return again, I should indeed meet her. After all, she’s my mom, no matter her actions, she’s my mother. I can’t be like others without conscience. I should treat my mom as the most important person this lifetime, even if she’s never accompanied me before. She still gave me life, allowing me to grow into today’s achievements...”

”That’s my good grandson. Grandpa always knew if explained, you’d get the essence. Grandpa didn’t misjudge you. Keep striving, child, Grandpa believes in you!”

Trust can make a person strong, but also break them!