My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1254: Chapter 1083: You Want Me to Get Out?

Do you remember, when you told me to get out of this house, what kind of scene it was? Even if you’ve forgotten, I can never forget.

”Today I’m not here to say anything to you, I just want you to understand one thing: since you did these things, no matter what, you should bear the consequences of your actions yourself. You have done so many wrong things, do you think Heaven will forgive you? You’ve hurt so many family members who love you and care about you, do you really think you can keep going smoothly? I have never expected you to bring me any benefit by being by my side, I don’t know what to ask from you for myself, but at the very least, you should at least show some respect to me. Is this what you call respect? Is this how you talk to me? Do you have me, your father, in your eyes at all? Maybe you have long forgotten, it was me who worked hard to raise you, who gave you food, gave you the life you wanted. But now you abandon your real father for a woman, I can endure all of this, just like I accepted this woman back then. But why can’t you understand my painstaking efforts, not making me feel that all this isn’t so important? I care so much for you, love you like my own precious son, even hurting the love I have for you as my child because you made so many mistakes, even though you hurt me so much, I still resolutely chose to believe in you because I believe you are my good son. I believe you will understand your father’s efforts one day, but why in the end do you treat me like this, making it impossible for me to forgive any of your mistakes? Isn’t it enough? What more do you want to be happy?”

”I’ve said from the start, I didn’t mean that, I just hope to be able to come back home and live with you all. Why do you always think that I have a purpose? Why do you always think that I’m pulling every trick to achieve what I want by saying these things to you? Is that how I’m portrayed in your hearts? Dad, you’ve said it all, you’re my real father, but the things you’ve said, do you really think they sound like what a father should say to his son? Aren’t you afraid these words will chill your son’s heart? You’ve never thought about what I, as a son, want. You always force your own thoughts onto me. Do you know how exhausted I am fulfilling your so-called dream?”

Old Master Zhang found it amusing hearing his son say these words. Back then, driven by dreams, what did his son do? Nothing. Zuo Ba blindly sought greed and personal desires, hurting himself, the father. Yet now he dared to utter such shameless words, which left him utterly baffled.

”Don’t you think your words are laughable? May I ask, what pressure did I give you back then to make you think I imposed my dreams on you? Have you really never thought about your own mistakes? All these years, haven’t you felt any remorse? How long will you remain stubborn before realizing the errors of your ways? What must I, as your father, do for you to perceive my love? Do you expect me to worship you like a god at home? You’re a father too, don’t you understand what it feels like when your son says such words to you? When your son says something, you feel as if your heart is being cut open, don’t you think what you have said to me wouldn’t cause me pain? I am your father too. I need my son’s respect and love just the same. But what about you? What have you given me? Is this what you call respect for me? Is this your greatest form of respect for your father? Do you really respect me? If you respected me, respected my decisions, you would have returned home sooner to be by my side. But you? Have you ever done that? You roam around outside, preferring to wander across the world than return to be with your dad. What more do you want me to do? What have I ever done to mistreat you all these years that you treat me like this?”

”It’s not that anyone has mistreated anyone, just that there are no shared words between us. I feel suffocated living in this house. Even being with you, I have so many ideals, you never let me complete them myself. You always wanted me to take over your company. But you? Do you really think I ever wanted that company? Do you think I have no ability to start a business of my own, hence needing to inherit my father’s things?”

”If you don’t want the company, you can just directly say it to me. I won’t insist that you take over. But the things you’ve done really dishearten me. Step by step, how I trusted you — how did you treat me? Do you really have me — your father — in your heart? Thinking like you do, don’t you know how my heart aches? You are always only self-centered; do you really think you are deserving of me? I’ve always cherished you, cared for you, yet everything you’ve done to me — have you asked yourself? Do you feel no guilt inside? If I were you, I’d feel unable to face my father. I wouldn’t have it in me, having said so many unpleasant words to him. How could I dare return home? I would swear by my father’s name, if I kept anything hidden, I would never step into the Zhang Family’s door again. If I were you, I’d walk out their door with dignity and never return. But you? Why can’t you do as such? Because you are a coward...”

Zhang Zhentian didn’t expect his father to talk about him in such a manner. His heart hurt so much, hearing his own real father calling him a coward. How could his soul endure such a blow? But isn’t it all the result of his own actions? Why blame others? Others don’t owe him anything for all the mistakes he’s made. Shouldn’t he bear the responsibility himself? Yes, it’s been so many years, why can’t he yet let go of the prejudices of the past? Why can’t he return and be with his father? Is all this really still that important?

”I don’t want to speak with you anymore. Get out of this house right now! Get out!”

The moment I stepped out of this house, I had already forgotten what all of this was. How could I forget the harm I’ve received? It’s a deep pain embedded within my heart.