My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1115: Chapter 965: A Fair Word

Zhang Ni watched his parents arguing incessantly, and he also didn’t want his grandparents constantly arguing with his father. He felt it was necessary to speak up. After all, none of this had a direct connection to his father. Everything was just their most primitive state, merely returning to a form he once dreaded to see. Who was to blame for all this?

Although Zhang Ni didn’t understand, when his father suddenly said those words to him today, he felt inexplicably anxious inside. She was also scared; from the words his father spoke, she felt the mist of marriage. She had originally planned to find a girlfriend to introduce to her parents. Seeing the situation now, she was suddenly afraid, afraid their conclusion would be the same as hers, afraid of repeating past mistakes.

”Dad, you really have no reason or meaning to say these things to me now. In my eyes, I just want to walk my own path in peace. Just like you said, everyone’s life is a pre-laid road. I follow the path you arranged for me, step by step. It may not bore you, but for me, it’s a kind of harm. I only feel that you are controlling my life again and again. I just want to walk my own path, even if that path is tough. Though I’ve never had a joyful path in my life, deep down, that is happiness to me, it’s joy, it’s beautiful!

I don’t want to live my whole life under the control of my family. I also don’t want to live my life solely for my family!

Once, because of my grandparents, I lived for them. At that moment, I felt all my life goals were to prove my worth to them. But gradually, I realized my decisions were a colossal mistake.

I lived for everyone in the family, but in fact, I found that even if I did, not everyone in the family truly treated me sincerely. I pushed myself onto a road of no return, time and time again. I thought every choice I made was correct, but in the end, I realized it wasn’t a correct principle at all.

Because even if I gave my all for the world, in its eyes, I was nothing.

When I saw all the pain being buried, who knew how much pain I felt, how tired I was? Time and time again, reaching the end, I discovered every path I took was wrong. No one ever considered things from my perspective, not even a tiny bit. I placed all my hopes on my path, but in the end, realized that path was a road of no return. Choosing this path proved I had no other way, looking back at the times I was hurt, what did I gain from it all? What kind of conclusion did I achieve? It was merely the family hurting me over and over.”

”You should understand I’m not telling you this to teach you a lesson or to hope you avoid detours and pitfalls like I did. Even knowing ahead is desolation, still barging forward will make life exhausting and painful. Do you truly wish your life to be such unbearable suffering? You are my son, and as a father, I only hope my son has a better life. I will not choose to harm you.

Over the years, I know the hardships on your path, and I understand it hasn’t been easy for you. You walked step by step to the present with much effort and sweat. But can you see, when you chose this path, the outcome was already destined? Yet you still went ahead without hesitation. That only proved you were already prepared mentally to face everything, now ready to confront anything. Then why do you refute in this way at this moment?

Actually, thinking about the path you took, it was just to prove yourself. But now you have proven yourself; you have declared to the world that you are the strongest. Just like me back then. Your journey to today satisfies me. I won’t demand more changes from you like before. Everyone has their path, and one shouldn’t repeatedly change based on others’ opinions. That would only make life exhausting and weary. How can I bear to watch my child live so painfully and tiredly?

Sometimes even I don’t understand why I resolutely chose that path back then. I knew how hard it would be, but still did it, because I couldn’t accept the heartless abandon from my parents. I didn’t understand; back then I was adorable. Why would they abandon me at birth? What reason did they have to make such a heartless decision? At that moment, when they discarded the ball, there seemed to be no reluctance in their hearts. I hated them. My entire heart is filled with hatred towards them. Expressing my hatred while proving myself, I also expressed hatred towards them. I had to make myself impregnable with hate; no one should dare or have the means to look down on me. Everyone should know at the moment I made this decision, I was already the strongest person in the world. But now, I realize not every action I took was correct.

Though I expressed hatred towards them, I hurt them step by step, drove them out of the house, refused them outside. Did it not hurt in my deepest heart? They are my parents, after all. Such feelings remain in my deepest heart. When I saw them looking at my grandfather and me with pleading eyes, do you know how conflicted I felt inside? I really wanted to ask them to stay, but I couldn’t speak. I knew I couldn’t speak. They needed to pay for every decision they made, to deeply feel how mistaken those decisions were. They need to understand that for every decision they make, they must bear the consequences and pay the price. If they chose a road, even if it’s fraught with hardship ahead, they must crawl to the end or kneel if need be!”

”Grandpa and Grandma, I believe everyone understands this principle, so I don’t need to say more, do you agree?”