My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1042: Chapter 895: Didn’t expect it, right?

Zhang Ni and Zhang Yichen, even if they had heard about the stories of their grandparents’ phones from their family before, they never imagined the situation would be so convoluted. They thought their father simply made mistakes repeatedly, harming others without ever experiencing what it felt like to be hurt. Yet, their father had already felt all of this long ago, and it was his wife who made him feel it. How much pain he must have felt back then! She was the woman he loved the most, but the one he loved gave him the greatest pain. Yet, he could only stand there, unable to say anything, because he was afraid, afraid that if he spoke out, he would lose everything.

”Grandpa, I used to hear your story, but I never thought your story would be like you said. You and Grandma sacrificed so much to be together, but all you did for him, in his eyes, was nothing more than false affection. He didn’t take you with him as sincere and genuine. He took all your sacrifices for granted.

Even if you two were very happy together back then, as time went on, the youthful days were gone forever, and everyone deep down had gone through experiences, leading to changes. He no longer wanted to stay with you as wholeheartedly as before. Why be so obstinate for him? Reflecting on all you’ve done for him, isn’t it enough? How much more do you need to do before you feel at ease?

I know that being a junior in this situation, I have no reason, nor qualification, to intervene. But do you know? When you learn about these things, you’ll realize how hard it is to come by. How many of us worry for you, and how many feel saddened by what you’ve done?

What’s meant to be will be, what isn’t won’t be. How many beauties are there in the world? Don’t be a fool demanding more!

I’m sure you’ve heard this saying. If you’ve heard it, why aren’t you willing to do so now? Even if you forcibly keep her by your side, what kind of ending will you achieve? Will her heart truly want to be with you? No. When a woman’s feelings change, no matter what, she won’t choose to be with you again. You’re no longer important in her heart, and no matter how much you sacrifice for her, in her eyes, it’s just a game. She won’t feel guilty for what you’ve done.”

”You’re right. I know all these reasons, but there are some things I can’t do. She’s still my wife, and as long as it’s legally acknowledged, I won’t give her up. Moreover, whether she loves me or not, my love for her is enough. Maybe you’ll think I’m ridiculous, that my love is incurable, but it’s just for her. For her, I’m willing to become a devil. I’ve been criticized countless times by poets, but I don’t want to abandon her completely. I hope she will change her mind. I’ve given her hope time and again, yet she repaid me with despair every time. Sometimes, deep down, I don’t understand the meaning of what I’m doing, nor why I give my all.

I’ve always wanted to give her up, but when I see her heartbroken and crying, it feels like a knife cuts deep in me. I can’t forgive myself for all the pain I’ve caused her. I just want her to be safe and secure, but everything I’ve done can never give her that ending. Often, I regret and resent my life. I don’t understand why I’ve become this way just for her, even if it’s for her, it shouldn’t be without bounds!

Many people believe my love for her is beyond saving, and many think I’ve reached a point of no limits. I’ve been hurt by her repeatedly, yet I’ve given her all my sincerity. I believe that sincerity can earn even one moment of her true sincerity, even if it’s just for a moment I would be content. But ultimately, I found her sincerity towards me is merely exploitation. Even when sincere feelings are used, I still see it as her true affection. You may think I’m foolish, naive, or stupid, but I firmly believe that someday you will also be like me.”

”You’re right. In my eyes, your love for her has become an incurable indulgence. The more you indulge her, the more she pushes her limits. I don’t understand your reasons for such limitless indulgence. I also don’t understand what you’re doing it all for, but I hope you’ll consider carefully what this has brought upon your family. Even if you don’t care, and think you can endure the harm, he has become part of the family. Can every member of the family be heartlessly hurt by him over and over again? He never reflects on his wrongdoings and always shifts the blame to others. You both do this. Now, you’re willing to accept the truth and speak out, but he may not!

Some things should have been clarified earlier. If this continues, it won’t end well for anyone. It will only drag you both down deeper. Why do you have to make each other so exhausted? All you want is a stable life, but is this a stable life? Is this the life you want? You’ve destroyed everything by your own hands. What have you brought to your family?

I don’t ask you to look at others, just look at your own son, look at your own father. Look at these people, because of what you did, what kind of hurt have they suffered? They’re so afraid of you now, that fear comes from deep within their souls, for they fear being hurt by you again, abandoned by you once more. All this fear was created by you. Don’t you still want to make the most sincere confession, don’t you want to declare to the world that you’ve wronged? Don’t you want to reveal the truth, acknowledging that you abandoned your own family?”