My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1020: Chapter 893: Own Memories

”Grandpa, honestly, I never thought that thing would happen, that you did something like that, and I never expected you would shout at your own biological father. You seem like a completely different person now compared to before. I don’t understand why you became like that in the past, but I know it wasn’t your true intention, you’re not that kind of person.”

”You feel that I’m different now compared to before. Once you hear all my stories, you’ll feel the difference is even greater. You won’t want to believe how terrible I used to be, and you’d rather believe how I am now. Perhaps after hearing my stories, your misunderstandings about me will become more cautious.”

Zhang Ni doesn’t know how to respond to these words at the moment. After hearing these things, he’s already felt something. If he continues to listen to my stories, what will he become, will he accept the tumultuous changes, he has no way to determine.

”Grandpa, I hope you continue speaking, I want you to pour out all your unhappiness and pain, don’t keep it inside, okay?”

Zhang Zhentian sighed; he felt he indeed needed to say everything, couldn’t live like this, living like this was too exhausting.

”At that time, my father faced my stubbornness, feeling both fortunate and helpless. Fortunate in that I was truly his son, sharing an identical character, helpless because once I decided on something, nothing could change my mind.

My father then started to hesitate; he wasn’t sure if telling me would lead me to leave him and go to the UK to find Xia Jing. He didn’t want me to leave him like this, to go to the UK to find Xia Jing, but he was conflicted inside; he truly thought Xia Jing was a good girl and hoped I could marry her. At the same time, he feared that once I found Xia Jing, I wouldn’t come back.”

I looked at my father who was speechless from my questioning, increasingly certain that he was hiding something from me, thus Zhang Zhentian kept pressing him.

”Dad, do you know where Xia Jing is? Tell me, don’t hide it from me, I believe you must know where she is, don’t try to deceive me with lies!” I roared angrily.

”I’m telling you once again, I don’t know where Xia Jing is.” In the end, he decided not to reveal it.

”Dad, I’m begging you.” I said, kneeling before him; while kowtowing, I implored my father: ”Dad, please, just tell me where Xia Jing is, okay?”

He looked at me in such a state, unsure what to do; he wished Xia Jing could be with me, yet he didn’t want me to leave him and go far away again.

Seeing my unresponsive father, I continued kowtowing endlessly. Eventually, he couldn’t withstand it any longer and decided to discuss some conditions with me.

”Zhentian, it’s not impossible to tell you where Xia Jing is.” he teased.

Upon hearing there’s a chance to know Xia Jing’s whereabouts, I couldn’t think of anything else and asked eagerly: ”Dad, as long as you tell me where Xia Jing is, I’ll agree to any condition!”

I know my father looked at me with such passion and was unsure whether it was good or bad, fearing that I might be taken advantage of.

”Alright, since you said that, Zhentian, I have a question for you; you’d better answer me truthfully.” Eventually, he sighed while speaking to me.

”Okay, okay, Dad, talk to me; I will answer you honestly.” I said, looking joyful at him.

”Zhentian, I want to know if I tell you where Xia Jing is, will you go find her immediately?”

”Of course.” I answered without thinking, not noticing the expression on his face when I spoke.

”Zhentian, if you find Xia Jing, are you not coming back?” My father finally voiced his concern, hoping for an answer from me, yet fearing I might say ’Yes, if I find Xia Jing, I won’t come back!’ I saw the expectation on his face, and I understood what my father worried about; I knew, although he always scolded me and called me useless, he truly cared for me and loved me deeply no matter how much I messed up. So I didn’t want to disappoint him.