Back Then, I Adored You

That was the first time he had come back on leave from the military. By then, he had completely forgotten about Qin Zhi’ai; however, she still remembered him. She had even accompanied him during his parents’ burial ceremony.

People tend to be positively affected by things they learn about after they’ve been affected by them, but after Gu Yusheng realized she had been with him at that time he was hurt rather than relieved.

“Mr. S, I saw him again. I even went over to talk to him, but he asked his friends who I was before I got a chance. Mr. S, do you know I almost cried at that moment? The boy whom I’ve had a crush on for so long, and waited for all this time, didn’t even remember me.”

Gu Yusheng had no memory that he had missed that chance to see her. He glanced at the date at the foot of the letter, trying hard to recall that memory. It eventually came back to him.

Back then, he had been running the Gu Company for two years and was attending a charity dinner. He had been smoking and chatting with some clients when a girl walked up to him.

He didn’t remember what he had said to her, but he did recall that she had been trying to interrupt him. Feeling annoyed, he had walked away with his friends.

That girl was Qin Zhi’ai.

Gu Yusheng’s lips pressed together, as he stared at that letter for a long time before moving on to the others.

“Mr. S, I have been in a depressed mood for a while. My father had a bad habit of gambling.”

If he had not reread these letters, he would have forgotten A had mentioned her father’s gambling in the letter.

“Mr. S, thank you for your kindness. We’re just pen pals, so I could not accept your help, but I think I can solve the problem now.”

Gu Yusheng glanced at the date, around the same time Qin Zhi’ai had started her gap year.

He probably hadn’t asked her how she was going to solve the problem, because she hadn’t mentioned her father’s debt in latter letters. She had sometimes mentioned her mother’s health was not great, but most times she had written about the boy she liked.

About a year later, she had suddenly mentioned something in a letter that he recalled having felt her joy when he’d read it the first time. “Mr. S, do you believe in fate? I have waited for him for eight years, and finally it looks like I’ll meet him again. He will probably never know I am going all the way just for him.”

The date on the letter was last summer. It was at that time when Liang Doukou had moved in with him. It was almost the same date.

Gu Yusheng’s hands shook and his heart started to race. He struggled to breath as he continued reading.

“Mr. S, I do not get along with him. Actually, I should have known that there’s no future for us. What happened between us is proof for that saying, “Deep love is too deep to work out.” My love for him is deep, but no relationship will ever work out between us.”

“Mr. S, he did forget about me. Not being remembered is the most hurtful thing.”

“Mr. S, I have good news. I’ll be able to pay off all my father’s debt. Mr. S, the guy I like did a lot of hurtful things to me, but he did do one thing to make me happy. He said “happy birthday” to me. Even though I knew he wasn’t sincere, it still made me happy.”