My Alleged Husband

Chapter 2237: Chapter 2070: Dust

Is there anyone who can truly see my vulnerability?

”In fact, I have to admire you. You repeatedly seize my weaknesses and launch attacks against me. Do you understand? Those weaknesses, originally scars that had crusted over, are ruthlessly torn open by you, and salt is sprinkled on them again. Do you know that kind of pain? I believe that you will never experience such pain in your lifetime. All I wanted was a plain and simple life, but in the end, it became fruitless because of you, again and again!

No matter how much I once hated you or loved you, now I neither love nor hate you. So I have already let you slip out of my consciousness thoroughly. There is no need for you to continue doing foolish things for me that others might laugh at. You should live a life that is truly yours, open and unburdened. Your life could have been so beautiful, why let it become so fragmented because of me?

Let go!”

Zhang Zhentian said nothing and strode away, knowing that he had no way out at that moment.

Watching the woman he loved most standing right in front of him, he realized he was powerless. Even though he could reach out and hold her, bring her back into his arms, he was controlled by his dignity, manipulated by his reason, and could not act. Doing so would strip him of his pride. Once again, he lost the best opportunity because he couldn’t bring himself to do what he truly wanted, losing the smile that he once naturally had.

In this moment, he found himself truly confused. Could it be possible to stay true to one’s original aspirations from beginning to end? He had never forgotten what his own heart truly wanted, yet he allowed his vision to be clouded by interests, hurting the woman he loved most. He considered what might have been if he could go back in time: he would certainly not act so impulsively and irrationally. Without that rash act, he wouldn’t have become what he was now, nor would his wife adamantly refuse to return to his side. Could all this truly have nothing to do with him? The bitter fruits were the result of his own inappropriate actions. What right did he have to blame others? This entire situation is only due to himself becoming what he is today. On what grounds can he say that this whole affair is someone else’s fault, that he has no responsibility at all? He felt torn and tormented, watching the woman he loved from a distance without being able to hold or kiss her. All he could do was watch her walk away, powerless to bring her back into his life. This kind of pain is something he never wants to experience again.

As Xia Jing turned around, tears slipped down her cheeks. Her heart grieved, watching the man she loved most before her, yet he was controlled by his reason and refused to bow his head. What was she to say? Her warm face didn’t need to be pressed against his cold back, submitting herself. Of course, she wouldn’t allow such humiliation. Even if she could have nothing else, she had to have her dignity. Without even the smallest bit of self-respect, would life have any meaning at all?

In contrast, she felt quite content now, having received the heartfelt confession she had dreamed of for so many years. She had attained the freedom that had long seemed unreachable. What more could she want?

Deep down, she knew she wanted more. Her ambition could command everything, but she did not wish to allow it to control all. She wanted to make everything less frequent, not to live a life that remained ordinary.

Both their hearts were filled with heartache. They knew what the outcome of their choices would be, the type of ending they would face. Yet, in the end, neither kept the other; their pride was ultimately what they valued most. Who wouldn’t care about their own dignity? Without dignity, what meaning would life have? Having sacrificed her dignity for this man, she encountered this outcome in return. Naturally, anyone would feel dissatisfied, but dissatisfaction didn’t grant control over everything.

As Xia Jing walked, she muttered to herself: Now that you have changed me entirely, I hope you can live a happy and joyful life in the future, achieving everything you desire. Otherwise, my endless efforts to fulfill you, to bear this inner pain, would be in vain. You must not disappoint me; you must be happy. No matter when, even if I’m not by your side, you should live happily. I believe that one day you will reach the heights you desire. But by then, perhaps I will have left this world.

In my heart, I tell you again and again, don’t cry, don’t shed tears. Even though giving him up is only to fulfill his dreams, what’s wrong with that? Even if I wander far, what’s wrong as long as I can help him realize his dreams and goals?

If Zhang Zhentian knew Xia Jing’s real thoughts, he certainly wouldn’t have just turned and left. He never understood what his wife’s heart desired. He always believed his way was right, but he had no idea how torn and painful his partner beside him had been. Others gave up something they cherished dearly to support you, so you could have your happiness and freedom, risking everything. Yet, in the end, you remain unsure of what you truly want.

Zhang Zhentian thought to himself: Xia Jing, although I still don’t know the reason you left me so resolutely, I hope you can understand that since you’ve chosen to leave me now, then please live a stable life. The day I find you, is the day we reunite. On that day, I’ll keep you tightly by my side, never letting you leave my sight again, making you my lifelong partner. My partner will never be replaced by any other woman. I hope you wait quietly for me to find you, bring you home, and reunite our family. Let us be there together with our son, sharing the joy as a family.

In the clear snowy night, life often feels pressuring, but turning pressure into motivation keeps us striving forward!