My Alleged Husband

Chapter 2212: Chapter 2045: Hanging Up

Let the summer sea bring everything back!

”I know, I know that after you hear me say these words, you will feel very angry, but I also know that there are some things that have no way of being changed. No matter how much you devote yourself to me in this life, my heart is only for her. I won’t change my view of him because of anything said to me by anyone else. I truly love him, love him to the point of not caring about my own life. I once thought about how much his departure would hit me, but I never expected that his leaving would make it impossible for me to peacefully live this life. All I wanted was for him to stay by my side to accompany me, but in the end, all of this became nothing but an illusion. I don’t know what it’s all because of, and I don’t understand why the heavens are so unfair to me!”

Zhang Zhentian heard what Xia Jing said, and he laughed out loud. He couldn’t understand why the woman in front of him could still complain about the heavens being unfair to her. Did she really think the heavens were fair to him?

”I don’t understand what right you have to complain about the heavens being unfair to you. Do you think the heavens are fair to me? The woman I cherished meticulously in my hands, the woman I placed at the most important position in my heart, turns out to have always been thinking about another man. Do you call this fairness from the heavens? I also want the heavens to be fair to me. Even if you could spare me the tiniest bit of love, I wouldn’t be so furious. I always hoped that my sincere feelings could soften your heart of stone, but no matter how much I paid, no matter how much pain I endured, just hoping you could be happy, why did you not give me even a glimmer of hope and simply extinguish it so clearly? In your eyes, what am I exactly? A chess piece or just a stand-in for your affections?

You want the heavens to be fairer to you now, so can I ask you, can you be a little fair to me? Can you give me the slightest bit of love? Why must you let me live in such unbearable pain? Why did you give me all the hope, accompanying me all these years, and yet in the deepest part of your heart, there’s never been a place for me? What do you actually take me for? How do you actually place me? In your eyes, what am I to you in the end? Am I just a backup plan?

Xia Jing, oh Xia Jing, I love you deeply and devotedly. For you, I will spare no cost. I am willing to endure all the pain, willing to be the subject of ridicule, being called the man who abandoned his own son, abandoned his own father, abandoned a century-old family heritage, but I only did it to be with you, to achieve your smile because as long as I see you smile, deep down, I feel everything I’ve given up, everything I’ve abandoned was worth it. But why are you telling me such a big secret today? Did you know? If you never loved me, you could have honestly told me everything back then. Why wait until after so many years to say these things to me? You really put me in a difficult spot and made me embarrassed!

The woman who I’ve cherished half my life never loved me. Her obedience to me on the surface, her concern for me, was all simply a facade. I am indeed a failure, a complete and utter failure as a man. I have never gotten a woman’s genuine heart in return. My own woman has always been deceiving me, treating me as a backup plan. For any man, this might be a fact too hard to accept. I truly don’t understand, what karmic debt did I accumulate in my past life to meet you? Sometimes I really feel fortunate to have saved the galaxy in a past life just to meet you, but I never imagined you would eventually choose to hurt me this way. Your harm makes me live in unbearable pain; I will never forget it in this life. Rest assured, I won’t let you walk down the aisle, because I want to keep you by my side and let you bear the consequences for your actions throughout your life, to let you know every action you take must come with an equivalent price!”

”Actually, it doesn’t even matter if you make my life unbearable. I don’t care anymore. For me, the luckiest thing in this life was meeting him because I must have saved the galaxy in a past life to have him love me desperately, and I too am willing to risk my life for him. Even though you are good to me, even though you too would abandon everything for me, I just don’t have those feelings for you. I’m not heart-stricken for you. If there’s never been that heart-pounding moment, how could I possibly truly love you? Everything I’ve done is just a transference of affection. My heart has always loved her, for her I truly can give up everything, give up my dignity as a man, give up all my pride, give up everything I care about just for his single glance back and smile. You can’t understand what that kind of feeling is, but I have no way to describe it to you. Maybe there will come a day when you truly understand what my mood back then was!”

”Stop talking. Do you think it makes sense to repeatedly speak these things to me over and over again? Continually using these words to hurt me, do you genuinely feel happy about this? I don’t want to say anything now. I don’t want these family scandals to spread outside. My father is a man who cares about face, and in this life, he has already lost all his face because of my actions. I cannot let him at his age still be ridiculed. I just want my father to have a stable life, just want her to live peacefully without getting hurt by anyone’s affairs, I merely ask for this. Rest assured, in this life, we will never have a chance to return to those happy times of the past, because you are unworthy of my love!

Perhaps I truly am far inferior to your ex-boyfriend. I have no way of comparing to her, but I can tell you, never complain about the injustice of the heavens. In fact, the heavens are unfair to everyone. They made you lose the one you love the most, yet made me dote on my most cherished person at the cost of everything, only to find out in the end that the woman I love most doesn’t love me...”

I pour all my efforts into your emotions, increasingly worried about losing you; warming you has become a habit!