My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1067: Chapter 920 Differences

”Dad, I have said so many times that deep inside your heart, whether you have friends or not, I know and understand those hurts you will never forget.

If you truly have considered, could it be the consequences of what we’re doing? Because I know what all this is for, who can understand my sincere efforts?

Perhaps deep inside your heart, you will never understand, so I go learn what kind of person to be. I have endured all this myself, and I will never forget why I became the way I am today. I have indeed worked hard to reach where I am today, it has caused me a lot of unhappiness, but I have never given up, because I know I must rely on my own efforts to climb the peak of life. I can’t declare war on others when I’m at my most vulnerable, thinking that all I have previously given is wrong. How I wish you could consider things from my perspective.

You’re my dad, just like how you see me. If I keep choosing to help you for my own achievements in such a way, no one will ever be happy. Can you live joyfully or happily? You’ve never thought about what you’re ultimately choosing for yourself, it’s not just like today?

I am indeed scared and confused, I don’t know what I did all this for, and I’m even more unsure what extra effort means. I watch my loved ones get hurt time and time again, powerless to help. Do you know what kind of feeling of failure that is?

Actually, you have never considered things from my perspective at all. You simply can’t understand how tough and difficult it is for me to live in this world. In your eyes, you think everything you do is right, but have you ever considered how tough it is for the people beside you? What do you really see? I don’t understand what, in your eyes, is worth us all focusing on. You’ve changed everything, and I don’t understand how, in your eyes, it should be done to bring things back to how they were.

You are my father, and no matter what decision you make, I must forgive you. I must always consider things from your perspective, no longer living carefreely like before. By living like that, I feel happy and joyful, but for you, it’s painful. I can’t let you feel pain, but each time I choose to give up my dreams to fulfill yours, I already know what my lifelong outcome will be. I don’t regret any of my decisions, but I also hope you support my efforts, believe every choice I make is right. Can you stop trying to stop me from living the life I truly want?”

”Child, how come you still don’t understand, these things can’t be solved just by whether Dad forgives you or not? Do you really think family members are willing to leap over a few moons for each wound inflicted on you? They’re not Saints, they can’t live carefree, forgiving once they’re hurt by you, originally saying to you it’s okay, you can hurt freely. They’re not so broad-minded. Even Saints can’t forgive over and over.

Perhaps you still haven’t thought about what you really want in your heart. To you, everything is not important. What you care about is your age, you never thought about the life you most want. To this point, I don’t understand what for, what your efforts are actually for. I don’t believe you’re so cold-hearted. I hope you can use your actions to prove to everyone what you do isn’t intentional. You’re not truly aiming to hurt everyone, you just accidentally hurt them. Prove with actions for what you did wrong.

I will never, for the rest of my life, easily believe a word you say. I give you recognition time and time again, and you choose to hurt me time and time again, ultimately I gain nothing. In your eyes, that’s the kind of father I am, someone who can be hurt casually, throw away when wanted, kept around when happy, discarded completely when unhappy. Have you ever thought about how tough my life is? How difficult it is for me to live to this day?

Maybe you’ve never thought about this, because in your eyes, not everything can be discarded. Only monetary freedom, but never the things that can’t be abandoned, because you won’t see family again. Money can make you silent, can make you personally change all your ideals and state. Maybe money does have such an attraction, but it can’t change my innermost feelings towards you. I hope everyone can follow their own thoughts and path. You hope everyone can bear their own journey, no longer using such ways to hurt every person, so they can happily live the life they want, our greatest joy is making every family member happy, isn’t it?

I know today you really wish I could forgive you, but I truly can’t. If the time truly matures, if you truly know and correct your mistakes, if you never again make mistakes like today, if every word you say in the future can be believed by others and truthfully kept, that’s when I’ll forgive you. Please always remember what I say today. I’ll only forgive you when I see real actions from you, how you change yourself, how things become different from imagination.

Child, don’t say dad is cruel. Dad truly doesn’t wish you to live such a life, really can’t watch his child make big mistakes day after day. As a father, I can only stand by, unable to help. Do you know how much failure I feel deep inside as a father?”