My Alleged Husband

Chapter 847: Chapter 793: Taking Responsibility

Xia Jing, to be honest, felt just as distressed deep down. He too hoped that his family could forgive him and sincerely allow him to return home. But some things simply couldn’t be resolved with just a few words. With all the hurt he had caused in the past, how could he expect them to just forget?

She knew that if it were her, she definitely wouldn’t be able to let go of everything so easily. He had a tendency to hold grudges, yet his actions had left almost everyone feeling cold. His heart, everything he had done—were there truly no mistakes? Was there truly no one who understood what he really wanted? He had never considered what kind of life he truly wanted for himself.

He always felt that he had to follow the crowd, that he had to carve out a different style for himself even while following others. Even when following the crowd, he wanted everyone to know that he was different from everyone else.

The moment he chose to become a Mercenary, he knew his life path would be different from everyone else’s. His path was much too arduous, much too dangerous. Others only wished to live a peaceful life, but she lived on the edge of the knife. He knew those days were the most thrilling of his life. He feared that after getting married, he would never be able to live like that again. So, he chose this life. But who would have known that her husband after remarriage would treat her so well, even choosing to join the Mercenaries.

How could he possibly refuse? How could a man go so far without deeply moving him?

”Zhihan, in truth, your father doesn’t blame you for these matters. He had no ill intentions in his actions. The suffering she went through these years was no less than yours; at least you all have each other, but he had to be alone out there. Although I know it’s unfair to say this, the decision to take the wrong path in the beginning was his own. He can’t blame anyone else. But after all these years, he knows he was wrong; he realizes that what he did was a huge mistake. He never thought he would suffer so much torment and pain!

I believe the person you love the most in your heart is not him, but me. If it wasn’t for me insisting on pulling her away, how could all this have happened? If it wasn’t for my suggestion to venture out into the world together, he wouldn’t have said those words to me afterward, taking me away from this family. All the mistakes should be blamed on me. All the mistakes were caused by me alone. I cannot blame him, nor can you blame your father. He did nothing wrong. The person who has been wrong from start to finish is me. It was me who caused you to become like this, me who made your family suffer so much, me who turned the husband you loved into what he became, and also me who caused your dearest one to suffer torture and pain again and again!”

Zhihan, you are a good daughter-in-law, at least much, much stronger than me. But there are things I also hope to make clear to you. There are things I hope you won’t blame your father for. No matter what he did, he wasn’t wrong. It should be me you all hate because all these outcomes were caused by me alone. How could I possibly shift all the suffering onto her and let her bear it all? And I just sit back and reap the benefits? I really couldn’t do that!”

Ran Zhihan knew that for Xia Jing to say these words was already incredibly difficult. Why force him to do even more? Everyone makes mistakes, and as long as one recognizes and corrects them, who could hold onto the past forever?

”Mom, I don’t mean to blame you. I just feel that this world is unfair. Everyone else can have their parents by their side, so why can’t my husband? Why can everyone else smile happily while my husband has to secretly wipe away his tears? I can’t accept it. He doesn’t deserve this outcome.

I believe deep down you feel the same. She is so outstanding, so perfect, so flawless, yet why is she the one bearing all the suffering?

I don’t blame you, nor do I blame anyone. If there’s someone to blame, it’s me for being too weak when I met him, for not being able to protect her. If I could have protected her that day, I would have never let this happen. I would have made her stay happily by my side, made her unable to leave me for her entire life. Then, I wouldn’t have spent so many years apart from him!

Mom, since you’ve decided to come back to this family, you should make the right decision. If you, like before, want to leave this home without distinction, seeking freedom, wanting to soar in the sky, then that would be a huge mistake. If you make that same decision again, I’m not worried about whether you will be able to come back. What I worry about is whether everyone in this family can really accept you again?”

How could Xia Jing not understand what Ran Zhihan was saying? He knew his daughter-in-law was speaking for his own good, but some things were beyond his control, truly infatuated with the myriad past mistakes. One day, he would clarify to everyone that all of this wasn’t a mistake. He wanted everyone to understand that what he did wasn’t the biggest mistake; he wanted everyone to see that he truly loves each person in this family and genuinely wants to return and care for them, with no other motive. He is no longer the woman with ulterior motives from before; she just wants everyone in this family to be able to live the life they desire in peace and stability.

”Let’s talk about these matters later. Talking about it now is meaningless. It’s enough to know what’s in our hearts, why should we expose those things we don’t want to reveal? That wouldn’t be a good outcome for anyone, would it?

You all know that family shame should not be spread abroad, and it is precisely because of this reason that for so many years, you’ve chosen to bury all your grievances and pain deep in your heart. None of you ever spoke out, and because of that, I feel even more indebted to you!

Just as your father said, since we have decided to return to this family, we will certainly compensate for all the harm you have suffered over the years...”