My Alleged Husband

Chapter 833: Chapter 779: A Peaceful Sleep

That night, Zhang Zhentian and Xia Jing each had their first restful sleep in a long time. They hadn’t slept this soundly in a very long time.

Over the years, everyone outside thought that the two of them lived a glorious and carefree life, but who knew the deep pain in their hearts.

No one can truly understand how bitter life can be or comprehend the sacrifices one has made. The results one achieves step by step through enduring hardship are known only to oneself.

”Xia Jing, do you know? For all the years we’ve been together, we never thought that one day we would be able to lie in our own home and have a peaceful sleep like tonight. We’ve been drifting for so many years, never having had a day of restful sleep. We were always on edge, fearful of someone coming in unexpectedly and killing us, fearful that we wouldn’t make it to the next day. How torturous such repeated outcomes have been for us, only the two of us truly understand. No one else can feel this kind of pain. I have never held a grudge against those who have hurt us, because they don’t understand. But I cannot accept us hurting each other. After all, we are a couple who has fought through life side by side. If we choose to hurt each other over trivial matters, can our love really withstand such a test? What’s the use of such a relationship? Now I realize, all those barriers were really just between us!”

Xia Jing had never expected to one day return to this home. When he left, he swore he would never step into this house again. But as time went on, he still chose to come back. Now he wondered if coming back was a mistake. Perhaps it was the biggest mistake. But all he wanted was for his family to be happy, yet the result ended up hurting everyone.

It was because he left this home with a heavy heart, abandoning his son, that everything turned out this way, making him yearn for a home he couldn’t return to for so many years!

”Zhentian, you’re right. I also know the kind of torment you’ve been through these years, how you wake from nightmares, confessing to your father. You say that it was your fault; if you hadn’t left, how could you bear to leave him alone. Everything you did, you did it for me. In the end, the selfish and harmful one is not you; it’s me. I’m the one who has hurt our family, not you. It’s me who made you turn into someone who recognizes neither kith nor kin, and it’s me who forced you away from this house, making you give up everything that was rightfully yours.”

”Xia Jing, don’t talk like that. Although I haven’t been able to return to this house over the years, I’ve been really happy with you. We depended on each other for survival, do you understand? Those times are unforgettable memories etched deep in my heart. Although we lived through tough days in constant fear, didn’t we live a grounded life? We never quarreled or had any conflicts, let alone any accidents. To me, those were the happiest moments in life. You’ll never understand how happy it feels to be with the person you deeply love, a sense of fulfillment that comes from within, not just for appearances!

Honestly, I don’t want others to experience that feeling, and I don’t want to force anyone to empathize with my state of mind.

You are my wife. No matter what you do, in the depths of my heart, it is correct. I never question the truth behind your words because I believe in you with all my heart. I never doubt your actions, whatever the reasons, or hidden agendas may be.

For me, as long as we can live happily together, that’s enough. I don’t care if I can return home in this lifetime. I don’t care about the desperate situations I may face. As long as I can keep the woman I love most by my side, letting her live a happy life without experiencing the slightest harm.

My wife, don’t you understand yet what I really want?

All I want is for you to stay by my side, not thinking about leaving me at the slightest disturbance. I cannot tolerate that feeling in this lifetime. All I desire is a stable home, a peaceful relationship. Maybe that doesn’t seem so important to you, but to me, it is incredibly important. I just want to stay by your side. Is that really so difficult for you? Is staying with me truly such agony?

I’ve never thought about hurting you. On the contrary, I want to give you the most wonderful things in the world, have you remember the most dazzling things about this world, and know that all the beautiful memories came from me, not with someone else’s involvement. That’s what love is!”

Xia Jing nodded his head in a daze, maybe he really should let go of all the past and truly be together with his husband. Isn’t that the life he deserves? Who doesn’t pay a painful price for their actions? If one always dwells on the past, won’t the people by your side eventually be hurt through and through? What then, can one truly gain?

He didn’t speak. He chose to be silent because he understood that now wasn’t the time for words; remaining silent was more meaningful. Silence meant he was slowly absorbing these words into his mind, taking them to heart.

The two of them didn’t speak anymore, and just like that, they fell into a deep sleep. They slept so soundly that they got up a bit late the next morning.

Even though they slept in and got up late, they still made breakfast for everyone the next morning, because everyone had slept soundly, with not a single person having insomnia, which resulted in everyone getting up late.

Zhang Zhentian felt that after being away for so many years, he should at least make breakfast for his father and son.