My Alleged Husband

Chapter 845: Chapter 791: The Silent Ran Zhihan

Zhang Yichen had been talking nonstop here, oblivious to his wife. He always thought his wife should be understanding, but during this period, he hadn’t heard a single word of communication from her. He didn’t understand what was truly going on deep in his wife’s heart, perhaps he felt that there was nothing left to say!

Yet, she remembered a time when her former self would never behave as she did today. What happened today? Ever since his parents returned, he had not exchanged more than a few casual words with her.

Could it be that deep down, his wife was unwilling to speak any more? Or was it that every additional word spoken to him felt like a torment to her? He remembered that over the years, he had never treated her poorly; he always sincerely gave her what he believed was the best, and he had made many sacrifices for her sake. So why had things turned out this way? Why was she unwilling to even approach a misunderstanding with him?

Zhang Zhentian seemed to have noticed the odd behavior of his daughter-in-law too. He had always thought she was an empathetic person. He believed that no matter what, she should have at least interacted with him as her father-in-law, but since he had come back home, she barely spoke to him, and if she did, it was merely superficial concern, nothing more in her words.

”Zhihan, what’s wrong? Why don’t you talk to me? Did I upset you somehow? You know that mom and dad have just returned, and I hope we can lead a stable and happy life at home. I don’t want any conflicts between us. Your current behavior is hard for me to understand, what exactly caused you to be so indifferent towards me as your husband?”

”Yichen, I know you wanted your parents to return, and I wished for it too. I know deep down you’ve always longed for your parents’ love, and even the slightest bit would make you extraordinarily happy because you’ve been so deprived of motherly love over the years!

I feel the same way as you do; I can forgive them for their absence during these years, but I genuinely can’t be indifferent. I saw how much pain you were in; I met you in the mountains when you were covered in blood, standing in front of me with injuries all over your body, yet you did not cry, you were still smiling strongly at me!

At that moment, I thought how smart and strong this boy is, why would he be so skinny and bleeding everywhere, yet he didn’t cry? I gazed at you from behind for a long while, hoping that your parents would come chasing after you soon, naively thinking that you had quarreled with them and were accidentally left in the valley and they would come for you soon, but your answer disappointed me!

You told me you were training in these mountains, and your parents weren’t with you. At that moment, I felt so sad for you. Why do other children have parents that stay by their side, whereas yours are far away from you?

You know my parents have always been very poor, they couldn’t even afford my schooling, but even so, they never thought about abandoning me. They chose to keep me by their side regardless because deep down, I am an inseparable part of their family bond. But what about you? What have you gained over these years? You got nothing; you don’t even know where your parents are, blindly training over and over again relying on harsh methods to numb yourself!

You think if you don’t think about these things deep down, it’s as if they never happened, but you forget that some things can’t be forgotten, they are imprinted in your mind no matter how much you’ve tried to forget or let go, can you really let it go? Can you really pretend deep down that your parents never abandoned you? Actually, you can’t because deep down you still remember this, and you will never forget it for your entire life.

I’m not saying this with any ulterior motive, I just feel indignant for you. You easily chose to forgive them just because of their simple words and their attempts to compensate, so you can unconditionally forget all the harm they caused you before, but I can’t!

You are my confidante, my husband, only we know what we have been through over these years, how could I possibly let go of the hurt I have suffered in the past so easily? I understand that only by looking forward again and again can we go further, but I don’t want to keep looking forward, no matter how many times I try, I can’t go back to the way things were before. I waited so many years to be with you, searching all over the world, and I’m very grateful for our current ending, but your outcome is too distressing. Even though we may not always get along, you are still the love of my life, I can’t just watch you live in pain!”

Zhang Yichen knew that everything his wife did was for his sake, but sometimes the words spoken are unintentional, yet the listener takes it to heart.

”Zhihan, let’s stop interfering in certain things. Since I’ve chosen to forgive my parents, it means that deep down I have truly accepted them regardless of whatever mistakes they made in the past or how they treated me. I beg you not to cling to this matter anymore; it will only make our relationship more passive, don’t you see? We just want a happy and peaceful family, think about our daughter too. She has lived the same life as me; how could you bear to see your husband suffer then let your child go through the same? You are also a mother and a wife, and what you should do most is to protect your family from any harm!

I believe you can let go of the things I can let go, because deep down in you is also me. I don’t believe you can truly bear to see our little family suffer any harm...”