My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1788: Chapter 1582: Cold Wind

All the happiness in life is something we strive for ourselves, nobody owes us anything; all of this is earned through our own efforts. My greatest regret is carelessly losing you.

”Now you come to ask me for fair treatment, don’t you think it’s a bit too late? Do you think the things you’ve done deserve fair treatment from me? Have you ever thought about how expensive the basic necessities like food and oil are, how many people in the world can’t even afford a meal? The world is harsh, and many people toil endlessly for money and end up leaving this world because they can’t earn enough. You’ve never experienced such a painful life, so what gives you the right to say such things?

Because I was sincere with you, being with you, I allowed your parents to go abroad and live a life they never could have imagined. Isn’t that enough for you? I single-handedly covered all your parents’ expenses overseas. When have you ever helped me bear this burden? Every penny spent on everything you’ve done in this household was my money. Have you ever gone out to earn money? You’ve just peacefully stayed home taking care of our son, yet in the end, you still chose to betray me. How could your heart bear that?

The world is indeed fair. Since it gave you such a good family through me, your own family would surely benefit somewhat. But I’ve never held your common background against you. On the contrary, I admired you because your actions made me feel differently. Moreover, we’ve known each other since we were young. I’ve waited for so many years, and every word you said to me back then still lingers in my ears now and then, you know? I long so much to go back to our childhood when I would have unreservedly taken you into my family, so you wouldn’t have suffered so many hardships.

Perhaps you think I never stood in your shoes to think for you, but do you not know that from the moment we parted in childhood, I’ve often been startled awake from dreams? Every time I dreamt, it was a nightmare, where you reached out your hand and led me to a safe harbor of happiness. Do you know how much I regretted at that time, regretting leaving the forest alone without taking you with me? If I had taken you away together then, maybe you wouldn’t have had such a hard time.

Everything I did was solely for our family’s happiness, yet in your eyes, it seemed unbearable. I don’t know what I have to do or prove to clearly convey to you that I sincerely consider you my wife. I genuinely want to spend my life with you; I don’t want to move on to another woman. The woman I respect in this life is you, and that will never change. But your actions have utterly broken my heart. I never thought the woman I love so dearly would eventually hurt me and leave me feeling so ashamed.

Yet, I still have to suppress all of this for the sake of the family’s face. Do you know how much my heart ached doing this? You are my wife, yet you put a green hat on me, and I can’t even speak out about it. I can only silently swallow all my tears. Have you considered my feelings? If it were any other woman, I might not care, but you are my wife. How could you bring yourself to do this, to deceive me, leaving me in the dark, innocently smiling and lovingly doting on you without knowing a thing? Do you think I’m a fool? Am I so foolish that you think you can easily manipulate me?”

Zhang Yichen stepped forward with every word, pressing forward until his wife was driven against the wall with no path to retreat.

”I never thought you were foolish; on the contrary, I thought you were very economically savvy. So I never dared to play mind games in front of you. I just wanted to live simply in front of you. Life isn’t long, so why live a life full of intrigue, making everyone’s hearts restless every day?

I’m just an ordinary woman; I need my husband’s understanding, trust, and care. Over the years, you have indeed loved me enough, but do you understand me? Do you trust me? At the end of the day, you’ve never truly trusted or understood me. You’ve never known why I did what I did. What you wanted was merely every action I took to please you, so you would bestow your love upon me, right?

I remembered every word you said to me, thinking that one day I would warm your heart. Even though you truly loved me at that time, I later learned that my actions had hurt you, making you cold towards me. But I believe that utmost sincerity can open anything. No hurdle can’t be overcome. As long as I sincerely stay by your side, one day, you will see my worth and be willing to open your heart to me again. And at that time, I would tell you every secret in my heart without reservation. But in the end, did you give me a chance?”

”You say it so nicely. Opening your heart takes time, right? A few more years? As long as you’re willing to open your heart to me, it could be anytime. It seems there are still many secrets I don’t know about. Just how much have you hidden from me? Can you be honest with me, stop treating me like a fool, always keeping me in the dark? It would make me look so bad, make me feel like my wife has been using me all this time. I don’t know what you’re hiding from me. Please don’t use pretty words to pacify me. Show me through your actions that you genuinely consider me your husband and not just say it. Can you do that?

Anyone can say nice things, but doing something is difficult, especially proving it to your husband. To make me trust you, please show with your actions that everything you’ve done has nothing to do with you, and you were not aware of anything that happened. If you can prove that, I swear I will make sure you live well in this life, and I will never doubt you again.”

I don’t want to hear only the sound of the wind in the cold breeze time and again. I want to embrace you. When will you return to my side?