My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1380: Chapter 1202: The Moment of Escape

Recalling the past experiences, it’s hard to believe, it’s like a dream that’s too late, yet I can’t grasp that inescapable shadow.

The past sorrows should ultimately be forgotten, so why make my life so difficult?

Xia Jing quickly packed her luggage, she was ready to leave. She felt that if she stayed here any longer, it would really be hard for her child to come back. For her child to be able to return here, to return to his grandfather’s side, she decided to leave.

Xia Jing quickly packed her luggage, dragging her suitcase to the living room where Zhang Zhentian was still sitting, seemingly waiting for Xia Jing’s arrival. He looked at the suitcase in Xia Jing’s hand, feeling an impulse to rush over and grab it away, to prevent her from leaving. Even if his son would never return, he would not want to lose his beloved. This was, after all, his wife of more than a decade. How could he bear to be apart? How could he stand it? He looked again and again, and ultimately did not snatch Xia Jing’s suitcase. He remembered what Xia Jing had said to him, that he couldn’t just follow her away again. He had to stay here with his father, waiting for his son to return, to see with his own eyes his child living happily. Only in this way would he not have let down Xia Jing’s expectations. He looked at Xia Jing with tears in his eyes, wanting so much to hold her hand and not let her leave, but how was it possible? It just wasn’t possible.

Xia Jing looked at Zhang Zhentian’s reluctant gaze, her heart also full of pain. She was equally unwilling to part with Zhang Zhentian, but she had to leave. If she didn’t, her son would not return here. If, because of her, her child fully left here, her conscience would be uneasy. Rather than live the rest of her life with guilt, it was better to leave now, allowing her son to return to accompany the elderly, accompany her husband. All of this was what she owed them, so let her make amends.

”Husband, I’m leaving now. After I’m gone, you must take good care of yourself, take good care of our child, take good care of our father. Do not let them be hurt because of the reasons between us. It’s always been me who owes you. I know how much you miss our child, but you’ve forcibly endured not returning to our country because of me, so I wouldn’t be wandering alone outside. Thank you for so many years of companionship. I can no longer be so selfish now. I must make amends for what I previously owed you. I can’t let you always make sacrifices for me while I only enjoy,” Xia Jing said to Zhang Zhentian.

Zhang Zhentian couldn’t hold back, his nose began to sting, his eyes reddened. He didn’t want his wife to leave. After living together for so many years, he had gotten used to having her in his life. If she suddenly left, he wouldn’t be able to adapt. He wanted to ask if Xia Jing could take him away with her. He didn’t want to endure the pain of missing someone alone.

”Wife, please take me away with you. We’ve been relying on each other for more than a decade outside, already used to having each other by our side. That feeling of being nestled in each other’s arms is something I don’t want to give up. You know? Although I want to stay at home, watching over my dad and accompanying my son, in my heart, you are still more important than them. My life is meant to be spent with you, not them. Take me away; don’t let you walk on the road alone. Okay?” Zhang Zhentian pleaded, looking at Xia Jing.

Tears were already flooding Zhang Zhentian’s eyes, but Xia Jing remained unmoved. Xia Jing didn’t want to take her husband away from here again, allowing their son to lose his father once more. She didn’t want her father, who was already aging, to lose his son again. She knew that everything was because of her, and she couldn’t let it all happen again. If it were so, how could she face the Zhang family’s ancestors when she went to the afterlife? Rather than endure people’s scolding in the future, it was better to make the right decision now!

”Zhentian, I’m sorry. Please forgive the decision I’m making today. I know, we’ve lived together for more than a decade, and you are surely reluctant for me to leave alone. But I also want you to understand, to think from my perspective, from your father’s, from our son’s. Over the years, I’ve not only owed you, but I’ve also owed our son, owed both our fathers. If it wasn’t for my selfishness back then, how would you have followed me away from here? If it wasn’t for my selfishness, how could you have wanted to see your child for so many years, but couldn’t? Even if you’ve returned now, if it weren’t for me, how could our son’s heartache refuse to acknowledge you again and again as his father? All these consequences were caused by me alone. I don’t want you to share this burden with me. You know? Over the years, you have always been the one I love the most. I don’t want you to lose the happiness you originally could have because of me. That would be cruel to you and an injustice in my heart. Silly, don’t cry. Even if I’m not here, you can still come to the United States to find me if you miss me. I’m only leaving for a short while; you can stay home and bond with your father and son. For you, wouldn’t that be delightful? My leaving alone can bring joy to the three of you; isn’t that a good thing? Don’t look so miserable. In this life, what I most don’t want to see is your frowning face because you really don’t look good with furrowed brows. I want my memory of you when I leave to be of your smiling face. Husband, I’m running out of time, so I’ll go now. After I leave, call our son and let him know I’ve left, so he can move back home. After all, it’s not convenient or safe for a young person to live outside. How can living outside compare to being at home?

Actually, I know he moved out because he didn’t want to see me as his mother. What I’ve done truly left him cold and deeply resented. I don’t want him to hate you too in the future because of me. I can keep him from acknowledging me for life, but I can’t selfishly let you be unrecognized by him for life. That would be cruel to you and unacceptable to dad. I know, all these years, dad’s heart has had you, and he’s always missed you, but because of me, he hasn’t called you once. No matter what our son does or what dad decides, I hope you remember everyone has self-respect. No one’s self-worth should be destroyed by someone else.

Our son’s pride is particularly strong, so in the future, when you do things, don’t hurt his pride. On the contrary, when others threaten his pride, you must stand up to protect it so he isn’t hurt by others. Only then will he more quickly accept you as his father. By that time, whether he acknowledges me or not, I no longer care, because acknowledging you is like acknowledging me. Do you remember?”

Only wish that time could stay still for a moment, to give me a chance to regret the pain I once experienced...