My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1378: Chapter 1200: After the Loss

Why do some people always realize their regret only after losing something?

Ran Zhihan knows that no matter what she says now, her husband will not believe her. But she really didn’t intend to deceive him; she had no choice. She has come this far, and she can’t take another path. She has no other road to take.

Although at the time, she made such a decision for the sake of her husband, she now realizes that whatever she does, as long as she deceives her husband, it is deception. She is clearly aware that there should be no deception between two people. If there is deception between a couple, the relationship is bound to face its end. Whether lovers or spouses, they should have mutual trust, not deception. More importantly, they should be honest. If you can’t even achieve basic honesty, what’s the point of being together? If you can’t be honest, being together will only make everyone’s heart more tired.

Many times, don’t be too selfish about whether your decision was right at the time. Once you’ve made that decision, there’s no room for redemption, because even if you think it’s nothing, in her eyes, she’ll feel it as an insult, a lack of respect and trust. Then, the relationship between you as a couple is also about to end.

”Husband, I know you won’t believe anything I say now, but I hope you can calm down and listen to my explanation, okay? Don’t judge my intentions so decisively. I want us to live well together, please don’t treat me like this, okay?

” Ran Zhihan said, reaching out to grab Zhang Yichen’s hand, but he directly avoided her touch. He didn’t want this woman to touch any part of his body. He thought this woman had become so terrifying. Why did she speak like he wasn’t good enough for her?

Could it be that, in her eyes, he truly had no benefits at all? Why did she deal with him sincerely yet use lies with him? Was being with him so aggrieving?

”You don’t need to say anything. I don’t want to hear you explain the things you’ve done. Don’t you have any awareness at all?

Since you dared to do this, it proves your heart no longer holds me. If you don’t want to live with me anymore, why say these things to me? Don’t you know you’re playing the wise after the event? Clearly, you didn’t think things through when you acted, but after the fact, you want to explain. Do you think I’ll always listen to your explanations?

Do you think I’ll always believe your explanations are true? Who knows if you’re making up another lie to deceive me? By choosing not to tell me these things, it proves you don’t see me as your husband anymore; it proves you don’t want to continue living with me. If so, you leaving me would be better for you. You can find someone better in your eyes since you think I’m not good for you, right?”

Ran Zhihan heard this and shook her head vigorously, ”Ah, it’s not like that. I’ve never thought of leaving you, and I never thought you were bad to me. You’re really good to me; I know that. But sometimes I am just like this. Even though I know I shouldn’t do certain things, I still make mistakes. Maybe that’s why I always end up with bad results. Don’t be upset with my situation. I won’t dare again. I will tell you first about anything in the future. Please forgive me this time!”

”I absolutely cannot forgive you for this. Since you did this, don’t ask for my forgiveness. There’s no room for negotiation. You should have figured it out when you did it. But you should also have known if one day I found out the truth, would I still forgive you?

Would I still stay with you wholeheartedly? Do you think you could still live steadily with me?

Do you think after betraying me once, there won’t be a second time? If I forgive you this time, do you think that no matter what mistake you make, saying a few nice words will make me choose to believe and forgive you? But is that really the case? I’m not a Saint. I can’t endure my partner deceiving me, expecting me to forgive him. I’m not like my father. Although the Zhang Family has always been known for passionate hearts, I hope you’ll understand I’m not a coward.

But now, I don’t want to delve into why you were originally with me. However, I trusted that you genuinely wanted to be with me. Yet now, I can no longer judge your true intentions because you lied to me. You should understand the most important thing between couples is honesty. Once honesty is lost, what is the point of being together? You might feel my actions today come from a place of distrust in you, but I can clearly tell you, after what happened, I realized we might not be suitable to live together.

You are filled with lies towards me, and I treat you sincerely. I truly don’t understand why you would treat me this way. I’ve been so good to you. If you want to leave me, you could tell me directly. Or if you want something, speak to me directly. Why use such means against me? Don’t you know what hurt me the most wasn’t what you said or did behind my back? The most heartbreaking thing for me is considering you as my wife, yet you calculated against me thoroughly!

In fact, you really don’t need to treat me this way. It’s too cruel to me. I can tolerate you making mistakes elsewhere, repeatedly, but I can’t tolerate you lying to me—you are my partner, my lifelong partner. How could you deceive me like this? Don’t you feel cruel when you deceive me this way? Where do you place my true heart? Am I still your husband in your eyes?

If I am, you wouldn’t say such words to deceive me. You’ve truly broken my heart...”

How many people in the world are hurt over and over again by the ones they love, only to be betrayed time and time again.