My Alleged Husband

Chapter 625: Chapter 604 Guidance_1

”Grandpa, I know every word you say makes sense, and I understand that everything you say is for my good. I’m even more aware that everything you do is for the well-being of this family. But that’s my own son, how can I bear to just watch him struggle through training, to prove to his grandparents that he’s a good kid, and live so arduously? Watching his daily training, my heart aches as a mother. He falls again and again, getting covered in injuries, yet he still has to suppress his tears and get up to continue training. This isn’t just a one-time thing, and to a mother, this pain is excruciating. No one can understand a mother’s love for her child; paternal love and maternal love are different. A father’s love might be selflessly generous, but a mother’s love is selfish. I have to selfishly think of my own son. I can’t just watch my child leap into the fire pit over and over again. I can’t do it. Every time I see him hurt, my heart is in agony. I really want to rush in and stop his training, but I can’t do that. The nation has its laws, and the family has its rules. This is the path he chose, and he has to bear the consequences himself. Does a child deserve to be blamed?”

”Maybe you still don’t understand that this isn’t a question of right or wrong, but whether this should be done at all. Since he chose this path, he must walk it alone, without anyone’s help or anyone to take his place. Everyone’s chosen path is different, and naturally, the consequences they bear are different too. If he chose this path, then what reason do you have for regretting it?”

”I know you pity your own son, and he’s also my family. How could I possibly not care for him? But as much as I pity him, there are some things we can’t go against. What must be done has to be done. Don’t you understand?”

”Although watching your child train so hard breaks your heart, have you ever thought that one day, all this training will be beneficial for him? He won’t be helpless like before when he faces difficulties. He’ll know what kind of help he needs. This growth is very beneficial for a child. Because of the selfishness of maternal love, you can’t just deprive your son of the right to grow up.”

”If you feel you are also right, then think carefully about how to resolve these issues peacefully. I have no idea what’s happened between you and your husband. No matter what happens, both of you should consider things from the child’s perspective, shouldn’t you? Your child is no longer little. He already knows right from wrong and can distinguish truth from falsehood. But if you so easily give up on your own child, won’t your hearts suffer? Won’t you feel the agonizing guilt for the rest of your lives?”

”Grandpa, to tell you the truth, an old classmate from junior high has appeared, and because of this, my husband has argued with me more than once. Do you think I still have a reason to continue living with him? I can’t stand it, I can’t bear him doubting me over and over again. You know that trust is the most important thing between husband and wife. If there’s no trust, what’s the point of living together?”

”I also know that for him, as a man, he has his own dignity. Don’t I, as a woman, have any self-respect? Doesn’t my heart ache? When he doubted me time and again, did he ever consider how I felt? All I really want is for our family to live together, happy and content. But to him, it seems my wishes are too extravagant. He never considered what I truly want, always imposing his own thoughts on me forcefully. Do you think that’s fair to me? If I can’t even get fair treatment, then why should I continue to slog away in this house and stay with him?”

”I know some people think I married him just for his money because I’m from an ordinary family. But I can honestly say I’ve never coveted his wealth. Everywhere I go, I’m unashamed of this. I never cared about how much money he could give me. What I don’t care about is whether I can spend my life with a man I love. But, in the end, I realized that no matter how much I loved him, we just couldn’t make it to the end together!”

”Grandpa, do you understand the feeling of wanting neither to live nor to die? Do you know what it feels like to be humiliated again and again by your own relatives? Maybe you’ve never endured it, but I really can’t take it anymore. No matter how much I love her, I can’t stand a man who insults my dignity with his words, who is supposed to be my husband, yet expects me to be devoted to him for life.”

Old Master Zhang didn’t even know what his grandson had said to make his granddaughter-in-law so upset. Maybe this issue wasn’t as simple as he had thought. Why did they have to fight so irreconcilably? This could have been resolved amicably. What was the point in continuing the dispute?

”As a mother, you should at least be willing to sacrifice anything for your son! Doesn’t everyone give up everything they have for their children? If you’re willing to abandon all your self-respect for your son, then how could your husband possibly not care about you? His doubts only stem from caring too much about you, from his own insecurity, and his fear of losing you. Trust between spouses is mutual. You respect him, and he respects your son. If one party does something to betray the other, there’s bound to be conflict. Surely you understand all this!”

”Think about it carefully. If you still think leaving is the right thing, then Grandpa won’t stop you. But remember, you’ve got a five-year-old child at home waiting for you. Can you really bear to leave him?”