My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1247: Chapter 1076: Once Promised

There was a time when I considered why I became the way I am now. I once believed that my actions, no matter when or where, even if seen differently by others, would always remain unchanged in the eyes of my family. But when I finally realized that everything was far from what I imagined, what I wanted most was never truly in my heart. I always thought that as long as I loved sincerely, I could accept everything, but it was not until I was hurt repeatedly by others that I realized. I understood that too much emotion can’t just exchange for the same from others, and that too much emotion would only make the relationships grow worse and more untrustworthy.

”You once said you would live for yourself and never change your attitude because of other people’s business or thoughts. You have already forgotten the experiments you once tried for yourself. You have completely forgotten what you said before. You no longer remember the outcome you desired most. You step by step reached where you are now, and all you wanted was just a peaceful and stable life.”

Zhang Zhentian even said such words. As a father, what else can he say now?

His son has made this decision, so as a father, he cannot interfere in these matters anymore.

Perhaps it is only by letting them experience the pain themselves that they will understand some things cannot be forgiven by actions, and the mistakes I made must be borne by the decisions I make.

”Suit yourself. Every decision is yours anyway. You can’t listen to anything we as elders say. In your eyes, we elders are dispensable. In your eyes, there is only your wife. So why return to this family just to make me suffer again? You came back only to put me back in the hospital, right?

Could you not have a bit of filial piety to your biological father? What’s wrong with complying with me a little?

I am your biological father. Do you think everything I say and do would harm you?

Why do you insist on hurting the people who love you the most repeatedly before you stop?”

”That time, you stood by my side and said a fair word; I was truly grateful. I never wanted to blame anyone, even if you did so much to hurt me. I have never hated you. In my eyes, no matter how you treat me, I still see you as my family. That is a feeling that will never change.”

Old Master Zhang was truly enraged. He never thought that after advising it for so long, his son still remained indifferent.

No matter what extent he, as a father, went to in order to speak, everything he said was wrong in his son’s eyes. Does this mean he is such a failure as a father?

In his son’s eyes, is everything he does wrong?

Is it really so abnormal to do even just one right thing?

Xia Jing knew that Old Master Zhang was angry. She really didn’t want to see her husband at odds with anyone in the family because of her. She felt increasingly guilty that every lie she told ultimately harmed everyone in this family who had treated her genuinely. Because of her lies, every person who truly loved her was hurt repeatedly. How many more mistakes would it take in her life to stop these dear ones from getting hurt because of her?

”How can you speak to your father like that? Everything he says and does has a point. I am the one at fault initially. He says and does all this for your own good. Why can’t you empathize with a father’s good intentions?

We abandoned our child. She painstakingly raised our son. Have you never considered how hard it was for her?

As a person, you must learn to be grateful. Although all these years, I took you with me through hardships and made many mistakes, I still have gratitude in my heart because I thank her for painstakingly raising my son.

How much has my son paid for my decisions? How much has he lost? Who could understand?”

In Old Master Zhang’s eyes, everything Xia Jing said now was just a performance. She didn’t want to hear her daughter-in-law acting in front of her anymore. She thought looking at this woman simply seemed harmless, but in the end?

Has it not been enough every time this woman turned the house into chaos? Would this home have to suffer even greater harm due to her presence?

”Enough, there’s no need for you to continue acting in front of me anymore.

Every instance of discord between us father and son was because of you. Since you appeared, we never spoke peacefully as father and son. Because of her, I fell ill and was hospitalized repeatedly. Which time did you come back to see me or accompany me? All these years, although you say you are grateful for raising the child, I don’t need your thanks because he is a descendant of the Zhang Family.

Regardless, I would spare no effort to raise him because he is the sole successor to our family. No matter what you did, I can disregard it, but this matter I cannot refrain from intervening. Whatever agreement you reach among yourselves holds no significance to me.

All I want is a promise between you both that you will never do anything outrageous in this lifetime. Can you consider the feelings of us as your kin when you do things?”

Old Master Zhang realized how exhausting it is to be with his family. Why does everything he says seem like an attempt to harm them in their eyes? Why can’t they consider things from his perspective? He too wanted to live a peaceful life. He never wished to disturb their marital harmony, but they kept doing things that were truly unbearable.

The greatest thing between a couple is loyalty, isn’t it? Beyond loyalty is trust. If you can’t achieve loyalty and trust, what’s the point of being together?

The more he thought about it, the more confused he became. Why has every decision he’s made been unforgivable in his family’s eyes? How much did he give, how much did he lose, and what result did that bring?

Thinking back now, his heart was really disheartened. He once spared no effort for his family, but in the end, it only resulted in repeated misunderstandings from them.

”I don’t want to say anything now. I just hope both of you think carefully. Are you living for others or living for yourselves in this lifetime? If it’s for others, then you’ve lost all meaning in living. If it’s for yourselves, then live with your style. Don’t repeatedly give up on what you originally pursued for the sake of others. Such a life is not for yourself, but just for a blind goal!”

Xia Jing knew in her heart that in this lifetime, she would never live for herself, but for the man she loved most.

”Maybe I should also look back on my life path, to see if each step was right or wrong. Now that I am old, I should revisit every step of my past to see what kind of benefits or harm it brought to those around me...”

I have lived too unjustly in this lifetime. I don’t know who I’ve lived for all these years, nor do I know what all I did was for. It made me look back again and again, only to find sudden realizations, but what did it ultimately result in?