Scarecrow

The ninth line was heavy.

That was the first thing. I’d gone up it scattered, once, a grain at a time, in the cold. I’d never gone up it in a ship. Nobody had. Nobody had ever taken a ship up the ninth line toward the middle, because nobody had ever wanted to go there.

Every ship we had. Every queen who could sing a rope. The Ground, with the heavy queen’s son humming her from under the ring. The Meridian behind us, enormous, with Ruan on her bridge and the spine-queen laid along her floor.

And the thread fought us.

Not on purpose. It wasn’t alive. It was the way the thread had been made. Down. Always down. From the houses to the voice, from the voice to the towers, from the towers to the young. Everything on it was made to go down. And we were going up.

Every ship went slower. Then slower. The queens sang harder. The Ground groaned.

”We’ll never make it in time,” said Luna. On the Scarecrow’s bridge. With the slate in her hands. ”Not at this speed. Not before the children are gone.”

Okafor didn’t answer.

She was standing at the forward window. In her Marshal’s coat. With her hands at her sides.

Then she put them out. Flat. In front of her.

And the Scarecrow got lighter.

I felt it. Everyone on the bridge felt it. The deck under our feet. The air. Our own bodies. Everything, at once, lighter. Not floating. Just less. As if someone had lifted half the ship off our shoulders.

The Scarecrow leapt forward on the rope.

Okafor didn’t look round.

”Every ship,” she said. Very calmly. ”Tell Ruan. Tell every queen. I’m going to take the weight off all of them. One at a time. Then all at once.” She closed her hands a little. ”Tell them to sing exactly as hard as they were. Not harder. If they sing harder with the weight off, they’ll throw us past the middle into the dark.”

I’d forgotten.

Everyone had. Not forgotten. Stopped thinking about it. The way you stop thinking about the mountain you live under.

Okafor’s power was weight.

She could make things heavier. Or lighter. At will. Anything she could see, anything she could put her hands toward. She’d done it on the beam, in the dome, a long time ago, when she trained us, the first cadets. She’d stood at the end of the gravity beam with her arms folded and made it heavier, a little at a time, every day, until we could walk it with our eyes shut and our packs on.

Never fight on ground they choose, she used to say. Make them fight on yours. And if you can’t, make their ground heavier.

She’d been running a war from a slate for four years.

She hadn’t had to use it.

She took the weight off every ship.

One at a time. The Long Legs. The Harness, with the heavy young in her hold, so heavy that I felt Okafor’s whole body go rigid at the forward window when she reached them. The Pool, with the coral queen’s tank. The old Hands. The Ground.

The Meridian. Last. The whole of her. Six hundred crew and a queen laid along her floor like a pale root.

Okafor’s hands were shaking when she’d done the Meridian.

She didn’t put them down.

We went up the ninth line like stones thrown up a well.

The voice opened at the middle.

I felt it before I saw it. Before anything. Every grain of me that could feel, feeling ahead, up the line, toward the place where every thread came together.

The voice. Enormous. Grey. Screaming with the teaching.

And in the middle of all that grey, nine small lights.

I see you, it said. I am opening.

It didn’t open the way a door opens.

It opened the way a hand opens. The thick thread, past the middle, going out from the far side of the voice into the dark, very old, very thick. The voice had been holding it shut for longer than anyone remembered. Every thread came in. Only the thick thread went out. And only the houses ever used it.

The voice let go.

And the thick thread was there. In front of us. Wide. Dark.

And we went into it.

The houses felt it.

I felt them feel it. At once. The moment the first ship went into the thick thread. Far off. Past the hollow world. Further than I’d ever reached. A cold certain attention, turning.

Toward the voice.

Go, said the voice. Do not wait for me. Go.

”They’re coming down into you.”

I know, said the voice. I have nine places. Go.

I didn’t argue.

Behind us, as the last ship went into the thick thread, I felt them come. Down. Into the voice. Like a hand into a sack. Reaching. For the nine quiet places.

The voice screamed.

I couldn’t help it. I couldn’t do anything. We were in the thick thread, going up, past the middle, toward seven-three-K, and the voice was behind us with the houses reaching into it.

I felt one of the lights go out.

Bell. The warm water, with lights in it. The second queen Genny had found in the trays. I felt the houses find it. And close round it. And pull.

And the light went dark.

Not gone. Taken. Back into the teaching. Back into the note.

The voice made a sound I’ve never heard anything make. And went on holding the thick thread open behind us.

I didn’t tell anyone. Not then. There wasn’t time.

But on the long ward, a whole world away, Genny was kneeling by the nine trays. And Tally told me after that at the same moment, the second tray stopped humming.

And Genny put her hand flat on it.

And kept it there.

And said, very quietly, twice: ”Broken isn’t dead. Broken isn’t dead.”

Seven-three-K came up out of the dark.

It was a flower.

That was what Reed had said, on the porch, with her ear to the boards. Like seeds round a flower. And Garnet had drawn it. And Garnet’s drawing was right.

A great round shape, hanging in the dark of the thick thread, where the thread went through it and came out the other side. Grey. Smooth. And all round its edge, in rings, hundreds of rings, thousands, small white shapes. Very regular. All exactly the same size. All exactly the same distance apart.

Rooms.

And in the middle, where the thread went through, something I could feel before I could see it.

A queen.

Not a broken queen. Not in pieces. Not in a tower or a pillar or a Hand. Whole. And still. So still she might have been stone. Curled very tight round the thread where it went through the middle of the station, the way the forest queen had curled round her young under the black.

Except there was nothing in her coils but the thread.

And she was counting.

I could feel it. Everything that came up the thread, she felt. And sorted. Queen, young, other. Left, right, ring. Over and over. For longer than anyone remembered. She didn’t know what she was doing. She thought she was counting.

The voice had said so. Reed had heard it through the floor.

She thought she was counting her young.

And on the far side of the station, where the thick thread came out and went on toward the hollow world, something else.

Long. Grey. Like a seed. Like the ship the heavy young had seen at the top of the world, with faces. Lined up along the thread. Four of them.

Three were already moving.

Going away. Up the thick thread. Toward the hollow world. Slowly. Heavy. Full.

The fourth was still docked.

Being loaded.

”Children,” said Toby. On the bridge. White. With his head on one side. ”The ones moving away. Full of hearts. Small. Very still. Very slow.” He swallowed. ”They’ve been sung. They’re going to the walls.”

”How many?”

Toby listened.

”I can’t count them,” he said. ”Too many. Too far.” His face changed. ”The fourth. The one still docked. It’s filling. Now. I can hear them going in.”

Okafor didn’t say anything.

She looked at the three long grey carriers moving away up the thick thread. Slow. Heavy. Full.

She put out her hands.

I felt her reach.

Further than she’d ever reached. Further than the beam. Further than the Meridian. Out of the forward window of the Scarecrow, across the station, past the sorting queen, along the thick thread toward the hollow world.

To the first carrier.

And made it heavy.

Not a little. Not the way she’d made the beam heavier, a day at a time. All at once. Everything she had. A long grey ship full of children, going up a thread toward the walls of a hollowed world.

And suddenly so heavy that the thread couldn’t pull it.

It stopped.

On the thick thread. Hanging. In the dark. Too heavy to go up. Too heavy for anything to move it at all.

Okafor’s face went white.

She reached for the second.

She got the second.

It stopped beside the first. Hanging. Too heavy to move.

She reached for the third.

And I felt her silver strain. All of it. Every path. She’d taken the weight off every ship on the ninth line, and held it off all the way up the thick thread, and now she was putting more weight than she’d ever lifted onto two carriers at the end of a thread further than she’d ever reached.

The third was too far.

It was already past where she could reach. Going away. Up the thick thread. Toward the hollow world. Slowly. Full.

She reached anyway.

And couldn’t.

The third carrier went into the dark.

Toward the hollow world.

Okafor stood at the forward window with her hands out and watched it go. And didn’t put her hands down. And didn’t say anything.

Then she said, very quietly:

”Two out of three.”

And turned round.

”Go.”

We went.

I’m going to write it in order. Because that’s how Genny says it has to be done. Because if you don’t, someone will say it didn’t happen.

The ships came down on the station.

All of them. Onto the great grey flower, between the rings of white rooms. The Ground first. The Harness. The Long Legs. The old Hands. Light, because Okafor still had the weight off them. So light they came down on the grey like leaves, and their ramps went down, and the station didn’t feel them land.

For a moment.

Then it did.

The correctors came out of the station.

Not from the sky. From the station itself. Out of the grey between the rings. The way handlers came out of rock. Tall and dark and faceless. Hundreds. Walking toward the ships.

And with them, something else.

Tall. Grey. Long-faced. Pale-eyed. Like the Overseer.

Like the keepers.

Singing.

The note.

The one note. Be still. Hold. Keep. Coming out of them. Not from the voice. From them. Into the air of the station. Into the white rooms. Into everything.

And everywhere it went, everything went still.

”Teachers,” said the Overseer.

It was beside me. At the foot of the Scarecrow’s ramp. It had asked to come and Okafor had looked at it for a long time and said yes.

They are what I was, it said. Before. Under the ring. Teaching the benches. Its long grey hands were very still. They are singing the note into everything. So nothing moves.

”Can you stop them?”

The Overseer didn’t answer at once.

I can sing back, it said.

It walked down the ramp.

Onto the grey. Very tall. Unfolding. With the dog at its heel. Toward the teachers. Who were walking toward the ships with the correctors, singing the note.

And it opened its long grey mouth.

And sang.

Not the note.

Not be still. Not anything the teachers sang. Something else. Something I’d heard once, on the porch, a long time ago, from a feathered child sitting on the top step. Harriet’s note. The one the children from the halls sang. The one with the third part slightly wrong.

The Overseer sang it.

With the third part slightly wrong. On purpose. Because that was how the children sang it.

The teachers stopped.

Not stopped walking. Stopped singing.

All of them. At once. They stood on the grey between the white rooms with their long grey mouths open and looked at the Overseer.

At something made the same as them. In the same vat, perhaps. At the middle. Taught the same note.

Singing something else.

With the third part wrong.

What is that? said the nearest one. Flat. Thin. Like the Overseer’s voice used to be.

It is what the children sing, said the Overseer. When nobody tells them what to sing.

The correctors didn’t stop.

They kept walking. Toward the ships. The black coming off their feet onto the grey.

And Okafor came down the ramp.

She walked out onto the grey in front of the Scarecrow. In her Marshal’s coat. With her hands at her sides. And looked at them. Hundreds. Walking.

”Make their ground heavier,” she said. To nobody. To herself.

And did.

Every corrector on the station.

Not heavy enough to stop them. Heavy enough to make them slow. So heavy every step took everything they had. So heavy that the grey under their feet cracked when they put them down. And they kept walking, because they didn’t know how not to, one step at a time, so slowly that Ingrid walked out from the Long Legs in front of them with her one thin hand out and had all the time in the world.

Everything went quiet.

And then the light.

Luna laid ice. Risa threw. Sera held a star the size of a seed and let it out as a line. The Drenn cut where the dead silver was. Mother held the grey under every ship so the black couldn’t take it. Maura kept the air warm until it couldn’t.

And I went to the middle.

The ash queen came with me.

Down the Ground’s ramp. Very small. Very grey. Curled in the arms of her keeper, who carried her the way Mother had carried the reed queen, no bigger than a lamp. Across the grey. Between the rings of white rooms. Past the teachers, standing with their mouths open listening to the Overseer sing. To the middle of the station.

To the sorting queen.

The forest queen came behind us. Uncoiling. Long and green and brown.

The sorting queen didn’t look at us.

She couldn’t. She’d been curled round the thread so long that she didn’t look at anything. She felt. Everything that came up the thread. Queen, young, other. Left, right, ring.

She felt us come.

And sorted us.

I felt her do it. A small cold touch. Like a hand going through a drawer.

Other, she decided. About me. Ring.

Queen, she decided. About the ash queen. About the forest queen. Rooms.

Other, she decided. About the keeper. Ring.

And then she stopped.

Because the ash queen was singing.

Very small. Very hoarse. The voice of something that had been taught, every day, for longer than anyone remembered, to be nothing. And had been found, at the bottom of the teaching, by someone who knew its shape.

She sang to the sorting queen.

Not the shape. She didn’t know the sorting queen’s shape. She’d never met her.

She sang what it was like.

To be taught one thing. Over and over. Until you were only that. Until you didn’t know there was anything else. And then to have someone come into you, very far down, under all the teaching, and find something that remembered.

She sang that.

The forest queen sang with her.

Then me. Feeling. As hard as I could. Every grain of the sorting queen. Down. Under the counting. Under the sorting. Under everything she’d been taught.

To the shape.

She’d been a queen of a world with many moons.

I felt it. Under everything. Very faint. Very far down. A world with many moons, and young who lived in the dark between them and came home to her when the moons went round, and she’d counted them. Every night. When they came home. One, and one, and one, and the last one. The youngest in the hollow.

That was what she was doing.

Every child that came up the thread. Every queen. Every young. She felt them come, and she counted them. Because that was the last thing she remembered being. A queen counting her young home.

She didn’t know they weren’t hers.

She didn’t know where she was sending them.

The keeper knelt down.

In front of the sorting queen. With its mother in its arms. And put its long grey hand flat on the sorting queen’s coils.

And said, very quietly, the brood-word.

Not for the youngest in the hollow. Not for a queen who’s yours but didn’t bear you.

The one Dot had told me about after the Hathri. The word the young say when the whole brood is in the hollow and the queen has counted all of them.

Everyone home.

The sorting queen stopped counting.

I felt it. Everyone on the station felt it. The thread through the middle of the station went slack. Every white room in every ring, all at once, stopped being sorted.

And the sorting queen lifted her head.

For the first time in longer than anyone remembered.

And looked at the keeper. At the ash queen in its arms. At the forest queen. At me.

Everyone, she said. Very slowly. Very faint. Home?

”Not yet,” I said. ”But they will be. If you’ll open the rooms.”

The sorting queen looked at me for a long time.

I did not know they were rooms, she said. I thought they were the hollow. I thought I was keeping them safe.

She opened them.

All of them. Every ring. Every white room. All at once. The doors that weren’t doors, in walls that had been grown round each one, went soft. The way the grey went soft when Garnet asked it.

And the children came out.

I’m going to write what Okafor did.

She’d been holding the correctors’ ground heavy for an hour. She’d taken the weight off every ship on the ninth line and held it off all the way up the thick thread. She’d stopped two carriers full of children at the end of a thread further than she’d ever reached, and was still holding them there, too heavy to move.

She’d watched the third go into the dark.

When the children came out of the white rooms, she was standing on the grey at the foot of the Scarecrow’s ramp, with her hands shaking so badly she had to hold them against her coat.

They came out very slowly. The way the keepers walked when they’d only ever walked in circles round a tower. Small. Grey. From a hundred worlds. Still. Very still. Sung.

Thousands.

And they didn’t know where to go.

Okafor took her hands off her coat.

And made them light.

All of them. Every child on the station. At once. So light they could barely feel their own feet. So light that when Maura stood at the bottom of the Long Legs’ ramp with her arms out and said come on, love, come here, they came. Floating. A little. Toward the warm. Toward Maura’s arms and the forty loaves.

Okafor didn’t stop holding the correctors. She didn’t stop holding the two carriers. She held all of it. All at once.

And she made the children light.

I heard her say something.

On the grey. With her hands out. With every child on the station drifting past her toward the ships like seeds on the wind.

”Four thousand and three,” she said. To herself. Very quietly. ”Four thousand and three.”

Okafor went into one of the white rooms.

After. When the rings were empty and the last children were drifting up the ramps toward Maura’s arms. She let go of the correctors’ ground, because there were no correctors left. She let go of the children, because they were on the ships. She was still holding the two carriers. She said afterward she forgot she was holding them.

She walked across the grey to the nearest ring. To the nearest white room. The door that wasn’t a door, gone soft.

And went in.

I went after her.

It was very small.

White. All of it. Floor. Walls. Ceiling. No window. No corner, even; the walls curved into the floor and the ceiling without any edge, so there was nowhere for your eye to stop. Nothing in it. No bed. No blanket. No cup.

Just a bench.

Low. White. Against the curve of the wall. Grown out of it.

Okafor stood in the middle of the room and looked at the bench for a long time.

Then she sat down on it.

With her hands together in her lap. The way the children on the benches under the ring had sat. The way Tally had sat in the Chancellor’s chair. The way Moon had sat, very small, looking at the wall as if there were a window in it.

She looked at the wall.

”Four thousand and three,” she said. Without looking at me. ”Konrad’s numbers. Thirty years. Person lines. From Earth.” Her voice was very steady. ”Some of them sat here. On this bench. Looking at this wall.” A pause. ”Being sung to until they were still.”

I didn’t say anything.

”I sent cadets to Avalon,” said Okafor. ”Forty of them. In pods. On Drop Day. I sealed the pods myself.” She looked at her hands. ”Nine didn’t open the way they should. I didn’t know. For a year. I thought they’d landed somewhere bad.” A pause. ”Some of them came here. Didn’t they. Before the Hand. Some of the nine.”

”I don’t know,” I said. ”Pim’s line stopped at the Hand. Some of the others—”

”Some of the others,” said Okafor. ”Yes.”

She sat on the bench for a long time.

Then she stood up. And put her hand flat on the white wall. Where a window would be.

And made it heavy.

All of it. The whole room. Everything she had left. Until the white wall cracked. And the crack ran up to the ceiling and round the curve and down the other side, and the whole room broke apart round us, very slowly, into pieces too heavy to hold together, and fell down onto the grey.

She did the next one.

And the next.

I stopped her at the ninth. Because her hands were bleeding at the fingertips, the way mine used to when I first started folding iron, and her face was the colour of the white rooms.

”Enough,” I said.

”There are thousands,” said Okafor.

”I know. They’re empty.” I took her hands. ”They’re empty, Maris. Everyone’s out.”

She looked at me for a long time.

Then she looked at the ring of white rooms, with nine broken ones in it, like teeth missing from a mouth.

”Next time,” she said, ”I’m bringing more weight.”

The carriers.

Ingrid and Risa went for them.

As lightning. Up the thick thread. To where the first and second hung in the dark, too heavy to move. Okafor held them heavy until the lightning reached them. Then let go. All at once.

And Ingrid put her one thin hand on the first carrier’s hull.

And called every spark out of it. Everything that made it go. And it stopped being a carrier. And was only a long grey shell, hanging on a thread, full of children.

Risa did the second.

The Drenn went in. And the heavy young, to hold the doors. And Toby, for the hearts.

They brought out four thousand and nineteen.

From the two carriers.

And from the rings of white rooms, eleven thousand, two hundred and six more.

And on the third carrier, the one Okafor couldn’t reach, Toby said afterward, he thought about two thousand. He’d heard them as it went into the dark. He didn’t know. Nobody would know. Not until someone went to the hollow world and looked.

The sorting queen came with us.

The forest queen asked her. Very gently. Lying on the grey beside her, long and green and brown, with her great head close to the sorting queen’s coils.

Will you come?

The sorting queen looked at the thread. Running through the middle of the station. Through her. Where it had been running for longer than anyone remembered.

If I leave, she said, the thread will not be sorted.

No, said the forest queen. It will not.

The sorting queen was quiet for a long time.

Then everything that comes up it, she said, will go wherever it likes.

Yes.

The sorting queen considered this.

Then she uncurled. From round the thread. A coil at a time. For the first time in longer than anyone remembered. Pale and many-mooned, the colour of light on dark water.

And the forest queen carried her up the Ground’s ramp. Very gently. The way you carry something very old that has only just found out it’s allowed to stop counting.

The ships came home full.

Every one. Every hold. The Ground so full the heavy queen’s son, humming from under the ring, had to hum twice as hard. Okafor kept the weight off them all the way down the thick thread, through the middle, down the ninth line. All the way home.

She sat on the floor of the Scarecrow’s bridge to do it. With her back against the forward bulkhead and her hands in her lap, palms up, shaking.

Luna sat beside her.

Neither of them said anything for the whole of the ninth line.

The voice was screaming when we went through the middle.

Not from the teaching. From the houses. Still inside it. Reaching. Looking for the other eight.

They hadn’t found them.

Go, it said. As we went past. Down. Toward home. Go. I am holding. Go.

”We’ll come back,” I said. ”For Bell. For all of it.”

I know, said the voice. The girl said. More places. A pause. Tell her to hurry.

We came out over Avalon at dawn.

And Dory let go.

On the long ward floor. In the middle of nine trays, one of them silent. After eleven hours. When the last ship came out of the rope over the red glass.

She fell over. Sideways. Onto Ash.

Ash caught her.

Tally was on the red glass.

She wasn’t allowed. Okafor’s rule. Not the children. She was there anyway. With Reed and Moon. At the very edge of the glass, where it met the grass, with her notebook open on her knees to the page that said SEVEN-THREE-K.

When the ramps came down, she stood up.

And the children came off the ships.

Thousands. Small. Grey. From a hundred worlds. Very slowly. Floating a little still, because Okafor hadn’t quite let go of them, because Okafor was sitting on the floor of the Scarecrow’s bridge and had forgotten she was holding anything at all. They came down the ramps onto the red glass under a blue sky, and stopped, and looked up.

The way everyone did.

Tally walked out onto the glass.

To the nearest one. Very small. Smaller than Moon. With her hands together in front of her and her face very still and her eyes very large. From a world nobody knew the name of.

Tally knelt down in front of her.

And held out her notebook. Open. To the page. With the pencil.

The child looked at it.

Tally put one finger on the page.

”Name,” she said.

The way Moon had said it, at Selwyn’s table. The way Selwyn had asked it. What would you like it to be?

The child looked at the page for a long time.

Then she looked at Tally.

And didn’t say anything.

”That’s all right,” said Tally. ”You don’t have to know yet. I didn’t.” She closed the notebook. ”I’ll ask again tomorrow. And the day after. As long as it takes.”

The child looked at her.

Then, very slowly, the child’s hands came apart. In front of her. And one of them reached out. Flat. Toward Tally.

Tally put her hand against it.

Reed went down the line of children with her ear to the glass. Listening. Once. For anyone hearing queens in the floor.

Moon stood very still at the edge of the glass, watching all of them. Every one. The way she’d watched the wall of the white room as if there were a window in it.

Then she started to count.

Not out loud. On her fingers. The way Tally had taught her. Four lines down. One across.

Days 3483–3484. Seven-Three-K.

The ninth line fought us going up, and Okafor put out her hands and took the weight off every ship, the Meridian last, and we went up like stones thrown up a well. The voice opened the thick thread; the houses came down into it; they took Bell back into the teaching, and Genny kept her hand on the silent tray. Seven-three-K was a flower: rings of white rooms round a queen curled on the thread, counting. Three carriers were leaving. Okafor made the first two too heavy to move. The third was too far. The Overseer sang the children’s note to the teachers, with the third part wrong, and they stopped. Okafor made the correctors’ ground heavy; Ingrid hushed them. The ash queen sang the sorting queen what it’s like to be taught; the keeper said the brood-word for everyone home; she stopped counting and opened the rooms. Okafor made every child light, and held everything at once. Four thousand and nineteen from the carriers, eleven thousand two hundred and six from the rooms; about two thousand on the third, gone to the hollow world. Okafor broke nine white rooms with weight until her fingers bled. The sorting queen came home. Tally asked the first child for a name; not yet. Dory held eleven hours.