My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1308: Chapter 1137: Is Happiness Too Expensive?

I used to never think about how difficult happiness can be. Now it seems that so-called happiness is a constant struggle with fate. Happiness is about making decisions that one would rather not make again and again. How much I wish that joy could stay forever. But will it truly stay by my side?

”Since you’ve brought things to this point today, let me tell you why your son refuses to forgive you. Do you know why your own father repeatedly insists on keeping you out? Do you know why your wife left you, never to be with you again?” Ran Zhihan was nearly driven mad with anger. He was now speaking without thinking. He didn’t want to hold back anymore; he only wanted to express his true feelings, because that’s the only way his heart could feel relieved. Why harm the feelings that should exist for people who don’t care about you? Shouldn’t one live for themselves at least once?

”Why?”

”Because of the mistakes you’ve made, they have no choice but to punish you. That’s why they choose time and again not to forgive you. Because you’ve never ended the cycle of mistakes, they choose never to see you again in this lifetime. Because you repeatedly hurt those dearest to me, they choose again and again to shut you out. Because you’ve constantly abandoned Grandpa, Grandpa never wants any dealings with you again. What else do you want to hear?”

Zhang Zhentian slapped Ran Zhihan: ”Do you think you’re any better? Do you think I don’t know the things you said? So this is how you truly are in front of me, yet you show another face to your own husband and grandfather. You’re just a two-faced woman; how are you fit to be with my son? Who doesn’t know about the things you’ve done? Why act high and mighty here? You’re merely a ’daughter of a commoner.’ Even though my wife is also, she lives richly and splendidly. She can do whatever she wants freely. But you? You show pity to achieve your goals by any means, hiding behind appearances. That’s what you rely on, huh? How’s that any different from a whore?”

”Dad, I still respect you enough to call you Dad as my elder. Can you not insult me when you speak? Regardless, I’m a decent girl. Many times, you know it’s neither me causing discord nor gossiping. It’s the things you and mom did that my husband and Grandpa simply couldn’t accept. That’s why they shut you out. How can you push all the blame onto me? Am I meant to bear the consequences of your mistakes by birthright? I’m not that kind of person. I wish you would respect me. You not respecting me equals disrespecting Mom because I’m a woman, too, and so is Mom. When you talk like this, where does that put your own wife? Your son? Do you act without thinking? Do you think Grandpa feels good hearing this? That your wife or son will continue to acknowledge you when you talk this way? You’re so selfish. If you hadn’t talked to me like this today, maybe I would’ve silently helped you again. But now that you’ve insulted me, my husband, Grandpa, and Mom, I absolutely will not help you anymore. Help you with what, anyway? Just for you to hurt me again and again? I’m no Saint. I can’t keep treating others kindly after being treated poorly.”

”You never intended to help me from the start. Why bother pretending now? Do you find your words meaningful? All they make me do is look down on you. Do you realize the words you say and the things you do? Don’t tell me you forget about them right away. Don’t you remember what you said and did just a second ago? Now you’re saying this to me. Do you think saying this is good? Aren’t you tired of your endless lies?”

”The one telling endless lies is actually you, right? You hurt everyone who loves you. Every action you take is unacceptable to everyone. Yet you never learn to change! Don’t think that if you do wrong, you’ll never be found out, because that’s impossible. Once you decide to do something, people will know it was you. If you don’t want to be known, don’t do it. If you made mistakes, why try to hide? That’s not a solution. No one will ever forgive you for choosing to hide. They’ll just see you as a man who can’t bear the consequences of his own mistakes and they’ll look down on you. Dad, these things I only want to say to you now. I hope you can think about them from our perspective. Do you think our hearts don’t hurt with every word you say? We consider you among the most important people to us. But do you treat us as such? Do you know how much we want to continue living with you? Now that you’ve treated us this way, we have no choice but to stop living like this. I intended to plead to Grandpa to let you back home, to ask you to help persuade Mom to stay with you, but now I see no need. It would only make you think I’m consistently insincere!”

Ran Zhihan knew his father-in-law never supported him and his son being together, but he didn’t expect things would play out again today like they did years ago, causing even more awkwardness now. He never thought his dad would say such harsh things to him. How would anyone face people after this? Why do people treat him this way? Is living a happy life with him not enough? Must they separate him from his husband for peace of mind? What did he do wrong to deserve such torment?

”Because of what you said, you made everything into a definition. Since it’s defined, why should we continue talking? After today, let’s not contact one another. I hope you remember that you’re the one who said these words to me. As your daughter-in-law, if you can speak this way, I have nothing more to say. From now on, don’t look for my help again...”

Is happiness too expensive, so I can’t afford it, causing those I love most to leave me? Can someone tell me what it’s all for?