Mr Fu, I Really Love You

She wanted to punish and banish herself…

Cen Mo, who had been through those experiences, had given the little trust he had to begin with to Song Yao, yet time and time again, Song Yao disappointed him.

Now, because of the heartache that she felt for Cen Mo, she chose to conceal her guilt towards Su Huan in the depths of her heart and be with Cen Mo properly. However, because of her previous actions, Cen Mo no longer trusted her!

Or perhaps this was retribution. The hurt she caused Su Huan back then was being returned to her now by the heavens!

Song Yao felt devoid of all strength. She sat lifelessly on the footstool, feeling dizzy. “Cen Mo, you take the phone away, I don’t need a new one! I’ll be good and stay in this bedroom to focus on the pregnancy in the future. I’ll go wherever you ask me to, so don’t be angry! Let Su Huan go home, okay?”

Song Yao’s tone was peaceful, like usual. She knew that the more she pleaded with him, the angrier Cen Mo would get…

She was afraid her words might antagonize Cen Mo, so she looked up and added, “In the future, I’ll work hard to make you sense it, that I truly love you!”

“By not begging me for Su Huan’s sake, you’ll be able to let me sense your love for me!” Cen Mo then walked towards the door.

Song Yao reached out to hold him back.

“Cen Mo, you’ve experienced what it’s like to be unable to go back home to see your kin for the last time…” Song Yao said. “Put yourself in his shoes. Can’t you just let Su Huan off?”

This was Cen Mo’s greatest pain!

Back then, Cen Mo was helpless. He was unable to fetch Lu Xiangsi as he had promised. By the time he returned home, Lu Xiangsi had passed away.

Song Yao sounded heavily muffled, to the point that one could no longer tell that it was her voice. “I’m not trying to reveal your old scars! I just feel that since you’ve been through it, you can empathize with him. Stop making things difficult for Su Huan. He’s the most innocent! Okay?”

Song Yao’s mind was all jumbled up. Right now, she could no longer care if her words would make Cen Mo angry or accede to her request. She only felt a ringing in the ears, and her mind was blanking out.

Cen Mo withdrew his hand, leaving Song Yao grasping air.

Song Yao knew she had misspoken, but other than saying this, Song Yao was out of ideas about how to beg Cen Mo to let Su Huan go back home!

She didn’t even have the strength to look up. The ringing in her ears increased in magnitude several folds, and her brain felt like it was about to explode from the ringing. Everything became black, and she slumped to the ground…

“Song Yao!”

Cen Mo called out her name in shock, but she had descended into darkness. It was as if there was a giant hand holding her in a death grip and pulling her towards the darkness.

…

In the darkness, Song Yao seemed to smell the familiar scent of hospital disinfectant…

She felt her stomach and head hurt so much it was intolerable. It was as if she was transported back to the summer holiday when she was fifteen, the summer where her father had mercilessly stomped on her.

That noon, the cicadas were chirping especially loudly, and the old fan at home was constantly making “weng” sounds, seeming as if it might fall apart at any moment. Her mother was sitting before the sewing machine, making air-conditioning covers for others.

She had dozed off on her desk while writing her summer assignments. Then, suddenly, she heard the loud sound of the door opening, stirring her from her sleep…

By the time she heard her parents arguing fiercely and was completely awake, she saw her father carrying luggage and wanting to leave. Her mother was crying and tugging at the bag, begging him not to abandon her and Song Yao.

Song Yao was holding a mechanical pencil in her hand, a dull expression on her face…

Song Yao, who was in senior high, was already a young lady, not a kid! She had picked up on the hints long ago and knew that her father had a mistress outside!

This time, her father had returned, perhaps to abandon her mother!

Seeing as the luggage’s handle was about to be ripped, Song Yao’s father raised his foot to stomp on Song Yao’s mother’s shoulder. The agile Song Yao quickly picked up her pencil case and threw it at her father!

The enraged man turned around and stomped on Song Yao’s stomach. Her mother gasped and quickly went over to help support the bleeding Song Yao to a chair…

Seeing Song Yao’s bleeding head, the man was flustered at that instant too. He quickly set down the luggage in his hands and ran to Song Yao. “Yao Yao… it’s Dad’s fault! Dad used too much strength! Let’s go to the hospital…”

Although the injury wasn’t too painful, Song Yao was holding a hand to her head and crying hysterically.

Song Yao’s father shouted for her mother to get a towel. The scene was messy and chaotic.

That day, Song Yao’s father didn’t leave after all. After taking Song Yao to have her head bandaged, he stayed at home that night. Song Yao took her dad’s phone and looked for that woman’s phone number. She then wrote it down, plotting malicious revenge…

The few days that followed, Song Yao’s father stayed at home like he did in the past.

Song Yao’s mother pretended nothing had happened—taking care of Song Yao and fixing their three meals. It was like the family had returned to their lives before the incident.

Song Yao had wanted to look up that woman’s information with the number, then look for her and lecture her!

But seeing as life had gotten back to normal, Song Yao didn’t want to push her father back to that woman’s side just because she wanted to vent her anger!

That was perhaps a selfish side all kids would have. Although they would side with their mothers, they would still hope for their parents to stay together!

But later, Song Yao’s mother frequently received phone calls and messages from the third party. The third party was clever and bought many sim cards, rotating between different numbers and sending Song Yao’s mother insulting texts, scolding her mother for being shameless over the phone, for clinging to her man and refusing to divorce!

It wasn’t easy for things to return to a peaceful state in the family. Song Yao’s mother feared that by mentioning this woman again, waves would ensue. Hence, she kept this to herself and endured it by herself. Even after she changed her phone number, that woman would find out. She was like a nightmare that Song Yao’s mother couldn’t shake off, a shadow that followed her everywhere she went!

Song Yao’s mother also had her own parents, her own friends. She couldn’t very well keep her phone turned off 24/7!

She also hadn’t imagined that there would be such a shameless woman on earth, one who confounded black and white, who put the blame on her when she was clearly in the wrong!

Song Yao’s mother lived with a forced smile every day, gradually becoming thinner…

At the time, Song Yao and her family didn’t know there was a devil called depression, something that was scarier than any other illnesses. Nor did they know that it had quietly found its way to her mother!

They lived in peace for half a year before her father started frequently spending nights outside…

Later, that woman’s messages and calls came again. She would even provocatively describe what she did with Song Yao’s father in bed, playing the recordings of her and Song Yao’s father in bed when she called Song Yao’s mother!

Song Yao saw her mother’s hair turn white visibly and quickly.

She knew that her father was the source of her mother’s pain, so she solemnly told her mother that she hoped that her mother would divorce her father. She was already grown up and could take good care of her mother!

Her mother would only say with a heartened look, “My Yao Yao is so sensible!”