Esper Harem in the Apocalypse

Chapter 301 Rudyʼs Greatest Fear

Virgil turned to Rudy and waited for his response.

”I will say I didnʼt mind it. I could have easily pushed her away if I wanted to, but I didnʼt.”

Virgil moved his gaze to Rudy and asked, ”Are you saying that you want to become my father?”

”Uhh… that would be one hell of a family tree. And no, I didnʼt mean it that way. You can assume I am… well, curious about Nyxia. But if you ask me about my feelings for her or whether I am romantically attracted to her, I am not sure myself.

I could just say yes or no if I wanted to. But I hate half-assed answers with conflicted feelings, only to regret them later on. Before I got my powers, I was a simple man who only had eyes for his lover.

Sure, I did find other girls attractive and sometimes even looked at their chests, but never in my wildest dream had I ever thought of cheating on her. Maybe itʼs because I put myself in everyoneʼs shoes. I wouldnʼt want my lover to ever cheat on me, so I would never do the same.

But now, I have not only one or two but multiple lovers, and I love all of them equally. I am starting to doubt the reason I agreed to have a harem. It was to save my loved ones, but before I noticed it, I forgot about that reason and ended up fooling around with the girls I liked.

Not that I am saying ʼlikeʼ and not ʼloveʼ. But the boundaries between both are getting thin and thin for me. Maybe my powers have made me like this, but I am confident that I can seduce any girl I like without using any powers.

There is nothing really wrong with that. After all, they love me, and I love them. I can satisfy them in bed and make all their wishes true in the blink of an eye. As long as they are happy, there is no problem. But… I canʼt keep doing that.

Donʼt get me wrong, I am not saying that I will stop loving more girls. Love is not something you can control. Most of the girls in my harem right now are the girls who loved me.

Jane is the only girl I made moves on. But I think there will be more as I keep exploring the world… worlds. I donʼt know what I should do. I donʼt want to stop, but I do not wish to continue either.

The one thing I fear the most is for my harem to feel that I am neglecting them or not giving them the love like I once used to. I say I love them equally, but do I? I honestly donʼt know. There is no actual way to know… no, I donʼt want to know it.

However, the more girls I get in my harem, the less time I would get to spend with them. I donʼt know what I should do, and I canʼt ask anyone for help.”

Rudy became so sensitive all of a sudden that he let his emotions leak and revealed his greatest fear to Virgil, who he thought wasnʼt the best choice to tell.

”Forget what I just spouted. I didnʼt—”

”I donʼt know what you are going through, but I understand how you are feeling,” Virgil uttered calmly. ”Believe me or not, but you are not the only man suffering through this. Almost everyone in this or other worlds has loved more than one person.

I am not talking about them having a harem, of course. Thatʼs not something everyone can achieve. But from what I understand, you donʼt want your lovers to think that you donʼt love them, am I right?”

Rudy nodded in response.

”The solution is rather simple, to be honest.” Virgil chuckled and asked, ”What does one do when they have a problem or an issue?”

”Uhh.. they try to fix it somehow?” Rudy responded.

”Exactly! So if you are worried about something related to your lovers, then you should always consult them about it, even if itʼs a small problem. They would know the best,” Virgil asserted with a distant smile on his face.

”...” Virgil was the last person Rudy wanted to consult, but he was glad that he did. He now had his answer, and his greatest fear had turned into small worry.

As Virgil had said, it was indeed a simple solution.

ʼI do tell everything to my harem member, so I donʼt think I am doing something terrible. I wonder if starting a relationship with another girl or adding them to the harem without telling the rest of the harem members is considered cheating.

If yes, then I am currently cheating on all of them with Jane. But I donʼt plan to hide it. I would have told them if there was a way to tell them. I already sent that letter to Alice, and I hope it reached her.ʼ

”I wanted to confront you about mother, but I forgot that you are still a teenager in the end. You hold so much power, and you have so many responsibilities on your shoulders at such a young age.”

After a brief pause, he continued, ”I donʼt know what else to say, but as an adult or as an in-law, I would like you to give a piece of advice.”

”I feel honored.”

”There will be times where you will feel hopeless even if you have everything in the world, money, fame, power, but not happiness. Thatʼs the only thing that matters in the end. That and the satisfaction of everything. Without that, your life will be hollow,” Virgil asserted in a solemn voice.

”I will remember this.”

SIGH!

Virgil turned around after saying, ”I came to look for my mother as the guests were asking for her. Now I have to look for her again.”

After saying that, Virgil walked away.

”...”

Rudy let out a sigh in relief and muttered, ”I somehow managed to avoid the drama.”

He then made his way to Janeʼs room to try his new power.

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