Becoming a Monster

Chapter 31 Telling On Yourself

”I see you still havenʼt learned how to listen properly you hero wanna be.”

The attention Mark and Henry gathered was already enough to cause the rest of his group who were in the middle of grieving or stabilizing themselves to turn their heads in their direction. The fear was clearly evident on their faces when they saw the large spider on the next floor feeding, they began to believe it was going to be a repeat of what they just went through.

But then, they heard the sound of someone walking and loudly at that, as if he was doing it intentionally.

Before they could make out the source of the stomping, they heard Noahʼs voice at the top of the stairs and his sarcastic remark appeared to be directed towards Mark.

The only time Mark has ever talked to Noah was only this morning and Noah didnʼt have such an impact on himself as he did to Noah. He was oblivious of who it was but that didnʼt stop him from feeling challenged. His emotions were stirred even more and this was just giving him more ways to vent not only his helplessness against the mantis, but also for his friend Jack, who never made it back. He felt more down on himself because he never even noticed until they made it to the building.

He constantly talked about fighting back yet he couldnʼt protect his own friend. When he saw the spider, he saw the chance to prove to everyone and most importantly himself that his choice to fight back was correct and the deaths that occurred werenʼt his fault.

He looked up to the voice that seemed to be looking for a fight. But when he saw the voiceʼs appearance, his eyes widened in disbelief.

”Your….youʼre not dead? How?” Noahʼs appearance was disturbing, if not horrifying to the group below, but their tension lowered when they found out that Mark did in fact know him. They werenʼt aware of the confusion in Markʼs tone or the high vigilance he was in when he saw Noah.

Many of them lowered their guard, but there were three people whose reactions were different from the rest.

Charlie, one of the three people Mark grouped with first and was also there when they tried to sentence Noah to death. His body reacted as if he stepped into a sauna with the way he started to sweat. His eyes darted left and right to not be noticed by anyone while he backtracked his way to the end of the group to not be noticed, especially by Noah. He already believed the man to be crazy and he still remembered the gruesome display of the piles of zombies. He saw that Noahʼs body was covered even more in blood and unlike before when he wielded a hammer, the ginormous axe made him appear more domineering.

Jasmine on the other hand, held a trace of suspicion. Not for Noah, but from what Mark uttered when he saw him, as well as her little brotherʼs body language. Mark didnʼt seem worried at all for the other student, and he wasnʼt happy to see him either. She couldnʼt make any guesses about what happened between the two just from observing, Maybe if Noah showed a little more emotion then she could understand a little bit more. But something kept eating at her when she looked upon Noahʼs figure, she felt that she knew him or he should at least be important enough for her to know about. It didnʼt help that his current demeanor was completely different than what heʼs used to showing.

His messy attire and bloody appearance made it harder to recognize him. But to her surprise, she heard someone quietly sobbing on her side and before she could register who it was, she heard the person speak and Jasmine was finally able to make sense of why Noah felt so familiar.

”Noah? Youʼre alive….sigh…thank goodness...” Ailetta mumbled in the mix of her crying. Even though her crying wasnʼt anything drastic, the tears continued to fall.

”Noah? Could it be ʼthatʼ Noah?” She thought back to the person who was constantly bullied by a specific group on the campus. He also just happens to be the first friend Ailetta made in their first year, but when Ailetta started to be caught up in his bullying, he started to avoid her all together. Even going to the extent of dropping any classes that he held with her.

Since then she never really heard much about him anymore, he kept to himself in class and even more so outside of it. Besides Ailetta mentioning him from time to time about the rumors of him belonging to a gang and always getting into fights, she wouldʼve probably forgotten he attended the school.

”How? HAHAHA! Thatʼs a great question to ask from someone who tried to kill me.”

”!”

The emotional roller coaster for the group seemed to be never ending at this point. This information brought a lot of questions to the party that chose to follow Mark as a leader and it brought even more to Ailetta and Jasmine who were affected the most. But the ride didnʼt stop there, Mark at that time didnʼt think he was in the wrong to attempt to end Noahʼs life, and with his stubborn ideals, he still believed he wasnʼt wrong.

”You know thatʼs not how it happened so donʼt you dare! We wouldnʼt have tried to kill you if you werenʼt bitten! How were we to know you were telling the truth? If you were lying then we couldʼve possibly been in danger!”

”!”

”Mark? Do you hear yourself?” His sister finally decided to step in before everything became worse. She already noticed the change in everyoneʼs eye when they looked at him. How could he stand there and openly say he tried to kill someone? And it also appeared that Noah even tried to reason with them but they still attempted it. She didnʼt want to believe it, she knew something was different about him but this bit of information is just too much for her. ʼIs my brother a murderer?ʼ She couldnʼt help but fear.

”Jas….No! Itʼs not like that, donʼt listen to him! He was bitten by a zombie, he couldʼve turned any second! How cou-”

”And yet here we are. You fucking hypocrite, youʼll kill an innocent person just because of an assumption, but I bet you wouldnʼt do the same towards someone you care about. Well Iʼm done with playing the blame game, mess with me again and weʼll see whoʼll be killing who.”

Noah then proceeded to make his way down the stairs, if it wasnʼt because Mark was such a nutcase and really believed he was doing the right thing then he wouldʼve tried to fight him to the death here and now instead of worrying about watching his back every second.

But while he walked past, part of him hoped that he would try something. If he openly attacked Mark first then he would probably have to fight everyone here, but if it was the other way around then they might not interfere since Mark would be in the wrong.

Originally, Mark and Henry moved to the side of the steps to get out of his way, but then they noticed the spider making its way down as well so they both retreated to the main floor.

Mark was still under distress over his sister believing him to be a murderer when he allowed Noah to pass him. But when the spider also crawled by, he remembered that the spider was just eating a person!

”Wait! If that thing belongs to you then you obviously murdered that person up there!” And before Noah could even justify himself, Mark then noticed the other two ʼbodiesʼ on the ground that he was too emotional to notice before.

”And them as well! You may not have turned into a zombie, but youʼre obviously not any better. What do you have to say for yourself?” At this point Noah was becoming beyond annoyed. Mark couldnʼt admit he was wrong before and now heʼs jumping to conclusions again. He realized that it would come down to how it was before, so instead of defending himself, he just proceeded to walk to the door.

”I said wait damnnit! You need to answer for this!”

”STOP!”

Mark prepared himself to run after them but was interrupted by a shout and immediately after, he saw Henry once again standing in his way.

”Those people tried to kill him, you canʼt blame him for what happened.” Henry pleaded in Noahʼs case instead. ʼThat monster is finally leaving and you keep trying to keep him here?ʼ He still remembered when Noah repeatedly called him stupid, he finally realized how Noah felt after dealing with Mark. But no matter their reasons, Mark was still dissatisfied.

”And so he has the right to kill them then? Obviously heʼs not even harmed so he couldʼve easily stopped them instead of killing them. What makes yo-”

”Sigh! Mark, thatʼs enough!” She couldnʼt continue to see her brother make a fool of herself. Sheʼs seen enough to finally make her own conclusions, but more importantly, she was concerned for her brother. The animals now are much more dangerous than they could ever believe. They already had to run away from the human sized mantis and Noah is walking around with a creature that could be just as dangerous. Honestly she felt they were lucky that Noah didnʼt want revenge for what her brother tried to do since she heard it from Markʼs mouth himself about his murder attempt over a misunderstanding.

”What? He clearly killed those people and weʼre going to do nothing??” Mark couldnʼt believe what he was hearing, especially from his own sister.

Thankfully Noah was no longer bothering with the two siblings or any of the others for that matter. He just needed to get out of there and rest for maybe an hour or two. With the trait he obtained from the zombieʼs genes, two hours would be enough to increase his stamina by 24 percent. That would be enough to maintain him physically, he could sleep later in the day to relieve any mental exhaustion he accumulated.

When he was about to reach the door he noticed someone was blocking his way. He first assumed that the person was really going to attempt to stop him from leaving. But then he noticed who the person was….

”So itʼs you huh? I donʼt know how you got mixed up with him but at least yo-”

Ailetta dove into his chest before he could finish what he wanted to say. Coupled with the fact that she was crying, the whole thing caught him by surprise. He wasnʼt sure what or who the tears were for, his lack of self worth wouldnʼt allow his mind to accept that it could be for him.

Normally in a situation like this, it would be the person in his position to comfort the other, but he just couldnʼt bring himself to do so and It wasnʼt just because of the blood. Holding her would make him feel that he would be accepting something that he convinced himself that he didnʼt desire, and that feeling alone scared him. He didnʼt like where this was going and he certainly didnʼt like the thoughts running in his head, he already decided that this shouldnʼt go on.

Ailetta seemed to be aware of his inner turmoil and took a step back, but stayed close enough to where the two could feel each other breathing.

”I was worried, so worried about you…youʼve been avoiding me all this time and not once did i stop thinking about you..I know why you did…but…but will you continue to do so even now? I know what itʼs like to be alone and I know youʼve suffered through that loneliness even more. Let me come with you! It could be just like the stories we used to talk about! And… an-”

”Sigh, I was wondering what you were trying to get at…” He hung his head while he silently reminisced to the times where she would always interrupt him during his reading. But it would never upset him and was also something he looked forward to since he was able to share with someone the last thing he truly enjoyed. He wasnʼt trusting enough of anyone since that time he was young, he only showed his ʼtrueʼ self during those moments they had discussions over his stories, which it seems she valued just as much as him.

Sadly, itʼs not enough to break down the walls he set in place around his heart.

”Iʼm sorry Le…but, youʼre better off being with them…and youʼre right, it does remind me of those stories and thatʼs why I need to be alone. You shouldʼve seen some of the crazy things out there by now, nowhere is safe. But Iʼm not planning on hiding, this is the life I feel Iʼve always wanted and youʼll only hold me back, Iʼm not dumb enough to say I can protect you either. You should live your life too, grow stronger, because if itʼs really like the stories we read…then this is only the start.”