Back Then, I Adored You

“Why are you so upset? You thought about the question I asked, didn’t you? And you didn’t have an answer, right? I can give you the answer right now. Bro Sheng, you were jealous. You’ve been fighting for her attention. You wanted her to think that man wasn’t as good as you. If you didn’t care about her and only wanted to sleep with her, why would you care who she thought was better? Besides, why did you risk getting hurt for her when she was kidnapped by Lame Wang? Wasn’t it that you were trying to save her? If you didn’t like her, you would have wanted Lame Wang to kill her. With your fighting skills, who could really hurt you? How would you have gotten hurt if you didn’t try to protect her? Why did you want to? Didn’t you think about the consequences of saving her? And, that necklace, why did you have to search for it all night? Weren’t you worried she would hate you for losing that necklace?”

Lu Bancheng was aggressive, but he told the truth. Gu Yusheng had nothing to deny, so he couldn’t even be angry about it.

He stared at Lu Bancheng for a while and gradually calmed himself down. He slowly leaned back on the chair and put a cigarette in his mouth to take a long puff. The smoke filled his mouth. He looked up slightly and slowly blew smoke at the ceiling. Behind the smoke, he was thinking about what Lu Bancheng had said. He quietly asked himself if it was true, as Lu Bancheng said, that he was interested in more than her body.

She never did what he asked for during sex. She had always struggled at the beginning. She wasn’t as strong as him, so he could easily control her. She didn’t ask for help. Instead, she stopped struggling and accepted the aggressive sex as her fate.

No matter if he hurt her or aroused her, she was quiet during sex. She never made any noise, not even a single moan.

She was never close to being a good sex partner, more like a log. However, even if she was like a log, he was always satisfied with their physical relationship.

In fact, it was just as Lu Bancheng had said. Gu Yusheng knew very well that he hadn’t had sex with her because of her body. He had just wanted to find an excuse to cover his real intentions, cover them… cover them…

Gu Yusheng’s fingers, still holding the cigarette, trembled. He seemed to realize what he was trying to cover with indifferent looks and flirty talk.

Lu Bancheng saw Gu Yusheng calming down so he calmed down himself. “Bro Sheng, let’s make an assumption. What if you lose her?”

Lose her? Not have her in my life anymore? Gu Yusheng thought to himself. He knew it was just an assumption, but he couldn’t help feeling hurt when this idea flashed in his head. The cigarette between his fingers fell on the table.

“When will you stop lying to yourself?” Lu Bancheng picked the cigarette up and passed it back to Gu Yusheng, who had lost his composure. “You fell in love with her a long time ago, didn’t you? You like her so much, to the point that you can’t imagine her leaving you, don’t you?” Lu Bancheng said.

Gu Yusheng didn’t say anything, only took the cigarette and turned his head to the window. The golden sunlight hit the floor, bright and beautiful.

He stared outside of the window for a long time without moving. There was an idea slowly merging in his head. “Huh, this is love.”