Back Then, I Adored You

It was already noon when Gu Yusheng woke up. He hadn’t closed the curtains, so the sunlight hit his face. He closed his eyes right after he tried to open them.

The hangover hurt so much and gave him such throbbing pain that his head seemed like it would explode.

Gu Yusheng raised his hands and rubbed at his temples as he sat up in bed.

He still looked half asleep and leaned against the headboard with his eyes closed for a while before he slowly opened his eyes.

He looked a little dull after waking up. He started to look sharper after a few seconds. His vision became clear and crisp. He turned and glanced around the room with a frown.

He was the only person in the room. Liang Doukou was not in the room. He wondered why he was at home.

As doubts flooded his mind, Gu Yusheng started to remember how he had wanted to go back to the company yesterday afternoon, but seen her car when he passed the street around A high school.

Gu Yusheng thought to himself, “Didn’t she have her period? Wasn’t she suffering a lot from menstrual cramps? Why did she go out?”

Back then, he had asked Xiaowang to park behind her car without a second thought.

He had gotten out of the car to get some fresh air and smoke a cigarette after being in the car for a long time. He smoked only a few puffs on the hood before he saw her walking back from A high school.

When he recalled what happened, he wasn’t sure why he had asked Xiaowang to leave. He had climbed into her car, took a seat, chatted with her, and even suggested to have dinner at Chen’s.

He had used to avoid her as much as he could. He had even wished never to see her again. He wondered why he suddenly wanted to see her of his own volition.

He seemed to be going crazy.

Thinking this, Gu Yusheng shook his head to deny everything. He flipped the blanket away from him and got out of bed to go to the bathroom.

Late afternoon yesterday, they had ran into a group of criminals, so they couldn’t have dinner. He had asked her to leave.

It had been two years since he had accepted the fact that he had left the military, but he remembered his strong desire to be in the military and how much he had missed it when he met Qin Yang. Military life seemed to be in his blood.

Eight years ago, he had left Beijing and joined the military, fulfilling his dream. Four years ago, he had given up his dream for his family. Eight years later, he could be stubborn, but after only four years, he’d had no choice. His grandpa was his only family left in the world. He had left the military to go home.

It was so sad, but he couldn’t do anything about it. He had needed to release his pain and sadness so he had gone to MISS Club and drank a lot. A nice person had given him a bottle of water and later…

Gu Yusheng couldn’t help raising his hands up to rub at his forehead. He had drank too much and couldn’t remember anything again. He didn’t even remember how he had made it home.

He did remember that he had a good dream last night.

Someone had held his hand in a dream when he was desperate and sad and told him, “I’ve got you.”

She had even hugged him. The hug was gentle and nice. It was a miracle that the hug had calmed him down.

It felt like he knew that hug. About four years ago, on a dark and rainy night, someone had given him the same hug.