A Billion Stars Can’t Amount to You

Exhausted, Cheng Weiwan grabbed a fork and ate the fruit as she lamented, ”Yinan Ge, whoever marries you has the cultivated luck of eight lifetimes!”

”Do you want this cultivated luck of eight lifetimes?”

Lin Yinan spoke so quietly that Cheng Weiwan didn’t hear him clearly. ”What?”

”Nothing,” replied Lin Yinan when he noticed what he just blurted out. Then he watched Cheng Weiwan eating fruit for a while before he asked, ”Wanwan, you can lie to yourself and you can lie to other people, but you can’t lie to me. I know you definitely agreed to that exchange of his. The real reason wasn’t what you told me at the entrance of the supermarket.”

”I’m sure Hanhan was one reason you did it, but deep down, the other reason was because of him. Am I right?”

Cheng Weiwan suddenly stopped eating the fruit and looked at it but she didn’t utter a word.

”You gave birth to Hanhan. It’s not that you can’t bear to be without the kid, but it’s because you can’t bear to be without the guy. If you were really over him, why did you leave the kid with him? You could’ve easily run away with the kid, but you stayed in Beijing and never left because he’s still in this city. You could’ve easily not told Hanhan the guy was his father, but you showed Hanhan his photo and told him that was his daddy... Deep down, you never wanted Hanhan to acknowledge any other man as his dad... Tell me, if that isn’t love, what is?”

Cheng Weiwan still didn’t say a word, but she slowly tightened her grip on her fork.

”Wanwan, I know it hurts to bring it up. You’ve never been willing to face the truth, but you know running away won’t solve things. I’m afraid you’re compromising and staying by his side because you still love him. In my heart, you’re the kindest woman in the world. You’re talented and you can write touching stories. You deserve better and you don’t deserve to waste away like this. I really want to know if you agreed to his unreasonable exchange because you’re persistently taking the wrong path just so you can be with him?”

”Wanwan, I mean nothing by it. I’m just afraid if you persistently take the wrong path till the very end, you’ll be the one getting hurt.”

”I really don’t want to see you miserable again, like how you were after you gave birth to Hanhan...”

”Yinan Ge...” interrupted Cheng Weiwan quietly after remaining silent for a long time. ”...Have you heard of the saying...”

”You only need two things to forget someone; time and a new love.”

”Some people can choose to use a new love to forget, but I chose to use time.”

”Yinan Ge, I know I shouldn’t love him, but did you know? He’s the only person I dare to love in this world.”

”I truly love him, so that’s why it’s really hard to stop. However, this doesn’t mean I’m irrational and will continue to make mistakes and stoop so low!”

”I admit I was really making fun of him when I said those things at the supermarket, but he’s done the same. I told myself that Hanhan is the only thing that’s important to my life. For Hanhan, I’m willing to do anything. As for Han Zhifan...”

”...I’m not persistently waiting for him to love me. I’m just waiting for myself...”

As he heard this, Lin Yinan furrowed his brows.

Waiting for herself to do what?

Before he could speak, she quietly spoke again. ”...waiting for that part of myself who loves him to stop loving him.”